AxoLOTl of Anxiety

{Hey now, don't cut yourself on the edge.} Where i post my emotional baggage. Most of this is for a personal diary and progression. Transboy, transmedicalist. Also, if you can relate, thats cool. Sometimes i post helpful things, other times ill just post the positive things i feel. Sometimes I draw. Feel free to talk to me. I tried to make my background very calming. Probably just another one of those generic melodramatic teens. All the tags are for organization purposes, so that i may find them later with ease. Call me Kyle. (Pre-T, Pre-Op, not even out of the closet ;-;).

[aestheticalspace]

Completely unrelated,  but I wanted to show you these robots. Yes, these are not fish, these are robots - the future is now.  Not to mention that they’re moving apparently randomly through a three-dimensional space, and not touching each other! That’s impressive.

[myragewillendworlds]

Dude, you do know that the Quran (and pretty much all religious books) is extremely contradictory, right? SO contradictory that picking and choosing which parts to believe and which to ignore is practically a requirement. It has some bad parts, but also some good parts. So, the way I see it, as long as you only believe the good parts of your religion, and ignore the bad parts, you're an okay person.

And this is supposed to make it look better?

[overpricedvodka]

(Facebook: It’s Okay To Be Childfree)

“Congratulations - you just made a conversation about salad and hamburgers about the struggle of childbirth.”

TBH Parentfriends, I’m probably tired of looking at pictures of your kid every other day, so I just hid you from my Newsfeed, because what’s important to you isn’t all that important to me. Sorry, not sorry, no one’s feelings got hurt.

But if you start mommyjacking my posts, I will 100% make you cry into your keyboard.

[koivulehma]

#how unsatisfied are these people with parenthood that they have to validate themselves like this

[childfreebychoice-blog]

This whole post made me cringe. Way to be self centered parents…

[vogelspinne]

Babys first comic, I have no idea what I’m doing but I’m having fun

[queerbitchdiaz-archived]

i really needed this today, so for anyone else who might

[scarygoodfanfics-deactivated201]

Thanks I needed this also. I’ll pass it on

[lonewolf7130]

Just the Rock blessing your feed

[calculatedmadness]

Thanks, Mr. The Rock.

[adogwithabackpackandshades]

“Women can wear whatever they want! Women can have short hair!”

“This woman has short hair and wears jackets and ties, that means she is now genderless.”

It used to be insulting to imply a woman was not a woman just because she has short hair…

[whale-eggs]

anyone can have a complicated relationship to sex, romance, and relationships.

-you don’t have to be asexual or aromantic, or identify that way, to feel alienated and uncomfortable by how our society does sex and relationships.

-being sexualized without ones consent is generally not a comfortable experience. Even if one has the capacity to feel sexual attraction, that doesn’t make unwanted encounters wanted.

-it’s okay to want to date someone but not want to have sex with them.

-it’s okay to want to have sex with someone but not want to date them.

-it’s okay to not be attracted to someone, or to never have certain kinds of feelings, even if that is true over your whole life.

-it’s okay to have feelings you can’t explain or categorize but that you know are attraction. 

-it’s okay to have sexual feelings just because of seeing someone and finding them attractive.

-it’s okay to not have sexual feelings (or romantic feelings, or both) for someone until the right situation.

-it’s okay if the kinds of feelings you have vary from person to person. you can want to only date person A, but want to date and have sex with person B. 

-sexual feelings are not more “real” than romantic feelings, and vice versa. not all feelings can be neatly divided into sexual and romantic feelings.

-you might have different kinds of feelings for different genders. sometimes this is the result of homophobia telling you that your “real” feelings must be for the “opposite” gender. this doesn’t have to be true for you, but it’s worth checking out!

-it’s okay if the kinds of feelings you experience change over time. this includes the development of sexual feelings, if that happens to you. this also includes suddenly not feeling it, even if you initiated a situation. you are allowed to change your mind.

-it’s okay if you feel like labels or words you used to describe yourself no longer make sense.

-no matter what, partners of any kind, including casual ones, should respect your feelings and boundaries. you should never feel pressured to do things that you don’t want to do or are nervous about. you should feel safe doing things slowly or not at all, whether those things are sexual or otherwise.

[forthelove-ofscience]

[mypsychology]

For more posts like these, go to @mypsychology​

[yiffkashit-deactivated20171026]

Genderbending is absolutely NOT transphobic

Making an AU or fanart of a genderbent character is not

- Belittling trans identities

-Teasing/Insulting/Targetting trans people

-Not erasing trans identities

Genderbending is a fun, common thing people do. It is not meant to hurt people in anyway.

Do you want a trans AU? That is perfectly fine, you jave every right to do! But do not force people into ideologies or force them to make something they do not want to

Please understand not everyone is going to change their vocabulary, creative sense, or anything to include just 1% of the human population

~Sincerely, Cazz the trans man

[twshitlord]

You know what is pretty disgusting?

- Making headcanons that revolve completely around a character being trans

- Going out of your way to make a character resemble a trans person (ie overly exaggerated top scars, exaggerated adam’s apples and broad shoulders, etc.)

- Calling out every minuscule detail of the trans experience so that trans people are actually frightened that people will see those things and learn to clock them

-Making characters trans just for the sake of diversity

We’re people, too, and we don’t want to be treated like we should only be included because someone feels like throwing the progressive crowd a bone, so here’s a half-assed trans character who’s always full of angst and talks only about transition.

That is a part of who we are, but the sum of our parts is so much greater.

[asapscience]

Just some perspective! [@beatricebiologist]

[myragewillendworlds]

I think I might have c-ptsd, but I'm afraid to ask my therapist about it. It's not yet listed in the DSM-5 so I'm afraid he might think I'm lying or trying to self diagnose. Tumblr has made shit like this super fucking hard to talk about. I've seen your posts about c-ptsd and wondered if you have any advice?

If your therapist responds to you talking about your feelings with “I think you’re lying”, you need to find a different therapist.

Your therapist either 1) keeps up to date with the changes in his field and knows the term or 2) doesn’t yet know, but is willing to learn.

A good therapist isn’t Tumblr. They’re not gonna say “lmao stop self-dx'ing you problematic wet paper towel”, they’ll say “What makes you believe you have this?” and explore it together with you. Even if you were a known compulsive liar, this would be a more useful approach, rather than attacking you with “you’re lying.” It’s more important to discover why you feel that way, what lies at the root of those feelings, and work out those issues.

I’d advise distancing yourself from those communities on Tumblr (or Tumblr altogether). You’ll find even a few days away from Tumblr will make you feel better already.

[infjadvice]

Credit: Ashley McMinn

[susiethemoderator]

I reblogged this earlier today and i honestly have to reblog it again because AGAIN my mom did some selfish and passive aggressive and she’s trying to feign oblivious innocence.

I needed to read this again.. and AGAIN and AGAIN.

[yuna-dan]

I needed this today

[yuna-dan]

Apparently I needed this again.

[ithelpstodream]

[myragewillendworlds]

Well you're already overusing the term, so you're part of the problem.

True. Talking about it on occasion is a huge problem. Nobody should bring it up ever or it would be overusing it. Psychologists and people officially diagnosed with it need to shut the fuck up already, they are part of the problem!!1!!1 I mean, who writes a grand total of 6 (SIX) posts on a topic!!!!1!

Are you fucking retarded. I suppose the actually transgender people blogging about their transition are “overusing” the word “trans” as well then? Or just maybe there is a difference between them and the ones who (self-)diagnose every little thing with it. People actually diagnosed with something aren’t “part of the problem” you fucking ingrate, they’re allowed to talk about their own problems.

[fuckyeahcomicsbaby]

You don’t have to love your body

[naamahdarling]

I really needed to read this today. Thank you.

[obfuscobble]

Potato girl has her life goals in order.

[asthewheelwills]

Texas Republican Blocks State's Bathroom Bill: "I Don’t Want The Suicide Of A Single Texan On My Hands"

Joe Straus wants the Republican Party to "focus on fiscal issues and away from the divisive stuff."

Today in “Texas lawmakers doing something right for fucking once”

[wombatking]

Joe Straus is a moderate Jewish Republican who has been battling against the Tea Party for a long time, and has been repeatedly targeted for defeat - as well as anti-semitic abuse - because of this. This doesn’t surprise me. I wish there were a lot more like him. 

[fierceawakening]

Thank you, Joe Straus.

I wish we did not live in a time where what you did required bravery. But, unfortunately, we do.

Thank you for your courage.

[violent-darts]

Hey guys, especially in Texas?

You should send this guy thank you cards and positive thank you emails and that kind of shit.

I can guarantee that his office is getting flooded with nasty bullshit over this. It gets really, REALLY bleak and lonely when that’s ALL you get. Letting him know that he did good (yes, even if JUST on this one issue, if you disagree with everything else) is actually REALLY HELPFUL for encouraging politicians to do what you want.