Adam

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Yeah, I know I got all kinds of ideas for beats and what not

Every time Kurt comes around he asked me if I have something for Dave so I told him I would try to, but I don’t know now with my fingernail was ripped off. I don’t know if I can if I can do it you know so I should just write down stuff that would I hear and then Mail it off to him I guess but I don’t have enough money for a drum kit.

At least not my own maybe Taylor can open up an account so I can buy gear?

I’m three months clean no weed five months no alcohol so I kind of told myself I would do that for Emma cause you know it’s not good for her to think that I’m messed up all the time and I was really embarrassed about that time that that she came around at that party that was pretty messed up and it embarrass me at the point where I was crying my eyes out the whole rest of the night I feel like I let her down in the way and I know I did in the way and I don’t want to think that that’s all I do because I don’t like I do sit around and think about stuff to write and paint and but it’s not because of cannabis or booze. It’s just that’s all you see on TV. That’s all you see online is people getting messed up and I want to know the truth like This we make the music everything it comes from a different place and I wanted to show her that

You know you can make all this music you can make all this hard. You don’t have to be blasted 24 seven like people make it out to be. 

To me that’s bullshit she needs to know the truth and that’s why I’ve got clean and yeah, I just stop smoking weed cause my friend came down with cancer 

It totally messed my head up. I was thinking myself if she’s got it I know I have because I’ve been smoking a lot longer than her a lot stronger stuff as well so that’s how it goes. I guess you know, but I take it one day at a time, that’s what they told me in AA. That’s what my buddy told me.

I haven’t gone because I’m not really into the whole group chat thing but I do listen to some YouTube videos, AA chats and what not I want those a lot that helped George Bruno on YouTube helped 

Teal Swan helped

A lot of different people, but I haven’t met these people in person but online that’s what I watch when I’m feeling down or what not 

So check them out if you’re if you’re reading or watching this or whatever that’s OK if you want if you’re busy, I understand 

@taylorswift

Also, I found this really good floor plan that I wanna have built someday maybe for a studio/house it’s a two-story Japanese style house, but I would like it built like southwestern almost And maybe make it one story instead of a true story just have to connect with like a hallway or a corridor. I think that would be awesome. That would be ideal. You know.

All right, talk to you later, babe. Love you bye-bye. 😎😘💯🫡🫶