Enkelana

I make meta, memes, and like art of my favorite things, mostly Type-Moon and Hazbin Hotel. Not spoiler free. That Miyamoto Iori fan lmao. I love the Sword Demon and the Television Demon!

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I think I'll archive this blog and stop using it. No one cares about Iori other than me on here lmao. My abuser told me to make my own blog that isn't Tumblr years ago, too.

I'll delete the drama posts too. I decided to let it go with those people and be the better person even if I don't forgive them.

To the person I fought here; I'm sorry. I'm sorry of accusing you of only caring about looks. Even if I was right about that and you hating women, I'm sorry. I'm just so tired of male character fans hating women and minorities.

That's everything.

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Yui slapping Iori like Illya slapping Kirei

Commissioned from @/mct_016!

I thought this would be funny because in Heaven's Feel, Illya slaps Kirei after he carries her down from his castle.

Both Yui and Illya are Einzbern homunculi, and Iori gets called like Kirei, so I thought Yui should slap Iori in a similar way for some good angst after her feeling betrayed at what he did!

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Miyamoto Iori and Yamato Takeru are addicted to each other 

Commissioned from my goat Kuroe!

Iori and Saber are addicted to each other and in this pose because they are in a codependent and abusive relationship with each other, with Takeru being the abuser! I'll explain why below!

The codependence is from Iori's birthday line in FGO mentioning that they're needed even though Iori knows how to cook, and Takeru's Bond CE "My Dearest Days" in FGO being about him.

The abuse in the relationship is the entire point of their dynamicFSR and FGO.

Takeru starts off insulting Iori and not caring for his wellbeing. Even when they warm up to him, they still call him weak even though they know that's his biggest insecurity. Them saying that he's kind even if he's weak is what causes Iori's breakdown. It feels like he's trying to prove that he's good enough to them.

During the NG+ ending, Takeru said that they can't sympathize with his problems and even want his memories gone. In TM, memory erasure is akin to murder. They also say that Iori had no choice but to do this, which is gaslighting and making him believe he had no choice but that. A

fter the true end, Takeru shows extreme possessiveness. They get angry at Iori when Ibuki flirts with him in a romantic sense and also get angry at Iori for admiring other swordsmen in FGO part 2's ending because they want him to only admire them.

In the FSR collab, Takeru stalks Iori to the point of discomfort, verbally abuses him, and gaslights him by making him think, "Just what have I done?" In Iori's Valentine, they stalk Iori again by showing up without his permission even when Iori asks them why, to the point Iori is begging Ritsuka for help.

Iori's voice lines also have him say, "Saber, don't pull. Don't pull my sleeve. I got it, I got it, we just have to go together, right?" Which shows Takeru's control and also implying that they might become physically abusive with him later because of them touching /pulling Iori in a way that he didn't like.

I know abuse is a heavy word, but it's not a boogeyman at all. Abuse is when two people care about each other, romantic or not, yet one hurts the other through neglect, control and/or mistreatment, which Takeru has done to Iori.

I'm mature enough to be okay with different interpretations from the text. I can't interpret any character treating someone like this any other way. It's odd that no one has brought this up in two years, given how a lot of TM fans flock to TM for its problematic content. If you're an Iori fan, shouldn't you acknowledge the interpretation that the relationship is hurting him? Anyway, I'm up for respectful discussion if personal insults aren't thrown.

Here's some evidence of other people having the same interpretation. I whited out their names.

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Stop saying that Charlie is just as bad as Vox, if not worse.

I still haven't had the time to fully catch up on HH yet, but I need to post about this because I'm frustrated.

Can some Vox fans please stop being weird about Charlie and saying that she's just as bad if not worse than him?

Vox is absolutely my standout from the show and I know that he's a villain. However, the show wouldn't be the same without Charlie. Her theme and ideals of wanting everyone to find redemption made me feel so positive and happy.

It's possible for her type of character to have her good intentions paving the way to hell (heh, pun unintended). However, her intentions are selfless and hopeful.

Vox is selfish and vain, on the other hand. We know that he's doing this because of his God complex. That's why I love him - I relate to his inferiority-superiority complex of wanting to be better than everyone because he's afraid of being weak. But I know that his intentions aren't selfless.

This is just the opposite extreme of toxic Iori fans. They say that he's more heartless and evil than everyone else. These kind of Vox takes are making others out to be more evil than him. I just won't stand for it when Charlie is getting hit with that slander now too. It might even reek of misogyny. And I don't want the HH fandom to have that when it's my safe fandom right now.

I know that I can't control others' takes, and I just need to avoid discourse as much as possible - I know better, unlike what I did before with my main fandom. But I still wanted to get this out there. We can stan Vox without saying that the most selfless person in the show is just as evil as him if not worse.

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People are doing the same thing with Wicked and Glinda atm. “Glinda is the real villain.”

Tell me you never passed middle school English without telling me.

Women being complicated, morally grey characters does not mean male villains suddenly vanish. And what’s really scary to me about this is that it’s always baked with the language of progressivism. “We’re the real feminists because we can acknowledge when women do wrong.”

Girliepop, pretending the male villains just don’t exist so you can justify your hatred of a female character is not the feminist take you think it is.

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Tale as old as time that will never end.

Mixture of misogyny + villain justifying + hating female characters over shipping/getting in the way of a husbando.

You can't change people's opinions. You can't make people stop hating something. The one time I did, it made me miserable. You just have to clown on them, drown them out and move on.

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ALSO I SAW SOMEONE REBLOG MY IORI EXPRESSIONS THREAD AND I FEEL EMBARRASSED CAUSE I NEED TO REWORK IT AHHHH

I should also rework the Yui analysis in a way that isn't swinging at the people I hate lmao. I will!

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I'm honestly bored of these social medias. Reddit, Tumblr, Bluesky.

Since the victim blaming incident, it hurts that they did it since there was no public to see it and they thought I wasn't pretty/popular enough (I am pretty. I post myself all the time on other social media like Bsky. I bet you they wouldn't have done it if they saw how I look lol, since ALL they can talk about is "Wow! IoriSaber SO hot!" )

On the other hand, I miss how fun TM Twitter was too. So much hectic fun.

I love this site for being the best to make blogs with attaching stuff. So I'll stay here for my analysis. But I'll go back to TM Twitter to truly spread my takes once my latest comm drops, since it'll be my new avatar.

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🎄 Christmas Vox 🎄

Commissioned from Astral Bloom on X!

Happy Christmas Eve, everyone!

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-content warning for real death threats-

Aris, aka getterburner on Reddit, typemoonbrainrot on Tumblr, Paulie25 on Beast's Lair and perpetualtired on Twitter and Bluesky, called me mentally ill for being a survivor with fictional tastes that they themselves share, and AdvantageTiny on X/AdvantageTiny1887 on Reddit mocked real deaths and refused to talk privately with me even after I showed her own near-murder from my ex.

I have the same favorite canon ship as them that I interpret the same way as Aris. IoriSaber is important to me because it taught me that I was an abuse victim and is a way to process my trauma safely through fiction. The accusations that I hate it and this is about ship warring are false.

I'll keep operating from restorative justice. I'm condemning their acts, not them as people, but I will set a boundary after this. I don't want their reputation mudded nor to friendship police; just want them to say what they did wrong and improve.

Aris saying that an abuse survivor of nine years has mental issues for coping with using fictional abuse over a ship they themselves interpret as abusive isn't just sick, but hypocritical.

One thing I need to address, because it keeps being weaponized out of context: a past conflict I had with someone is being framed as “proof” that I’m mentally unwell. That framing is dishonest. What happened during that period was the effects of long-term abuse, during which I acted in ways I regret and have taken responsibility for.

Reducing that to “lol ship drama” or using it to dismiss my arguments is not insight — it’s cruelty. I’m not re-litigating that situation, and I’m not explaining it further for public consumption. It is not relevant to whether harassment, death threats, or calling a survivor “mentally ill” is acceptable. If someone cannot engage with my positions without dragging up a personal low point they don’t understand, that says more about their tactics than my character. This is the last time I will acknowledge that framing.

What about all these artists and fans who had the same interpretation as well? It's not just me.

AdvantageTiny on X/AdvantageTiny1887 on Reddit made a death mockery in regards to shipping wars, then refused to talk privately with me and take it down, even when I had to pull out receipts of the times I had my life threatened to show why mocking real romantic murders is unacceptable.

Is all this because I'm a multishipper? Not only is this unacceptable period to insult someone's trauma and mock murders, but it makes no sense when you're a fan of a protagonist. A protagonist always has multiple routes and interpretations in TM. Being this exclusive and hating other routes and ships is going down the road of a certain person who hates Heaven's Feel in Fate/Stay Night and is infamous for it.

I'm fine with different interpretations. I have a friend that we joke about me liking the toxic parts while they like the healthy parts. I know how heavy it is for someone to like a ship for that level of trauma. I do need therapy to get past the aftermath of trauma, but any therapist would say that exploring kinks through fiction is safe and healthy for survivors.

My only confusion was why certain people like Aris denied the ship's abusive elements for two years yet insulted me when I asked him why. Even if I weren't a survivor, would he have done that to anyone who finally said the quiet part out loud? What exactly was the fandom move here?

Aris responding like that torched a potential ally, because I love the ship and have had experienced getting hate for liking fictional abuse. I would have defended people who got hate for it.

I'm shocked that I had those personal insults thrown at me. They're the worst I've ever experienced in a fandom. I know every survivor who likes kinks in fiction gets that thrown at them, but it's still shocking. Even so, I'll keep going and loving it.

I don't want "Is IoriSaber abusive" to become the next TM drama, especially with the FGO collab almost here in NA. I mainly care about Iori himself. I believe in restorative justice, so I don't want Tiny and Aris's reputations ruined forever. But I will still speak up to say these actions were unacceptable.

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Bazett Fraga McRemitz and Kotomine Kirei

言バゼ - 言バゼ

Commissioned by @/kepi_63!

I haven't finished my analysis on their dynamic yet, but I still wanted to post this. I'll post a short version of it under the cut on how I interpret the dynamic.

I find their dynamic interesting as the first abusive dynamic of TM where the victim does care about their abuser. It's really uncomfortable for being realistic grooming and abuse, so I understand people hating it or not wanting to engage. However, the story is not victim blaming Bazett - quite the opposite.

Bazett was someone depressed since birth who found solace in someone similar to her who felt depressed and purposeless. The dynamic was problematic from the start because of the codependence and age gap, but they did care for each other.

It makes Kirei retroactively more interesting because it proves that there's no way he didn't love Claudia, and this makes him a fascinating villain; he chose to double down on being evil when he felt the urge to kill Claudia because he couldn't accept that he had both good and evil in him. You love him for doubling down and hate him for not trying to overcome his problems. The abuse humanizes him; it shows that he did connect with people in a twisted way because abusers choosing to hurt someone proves they cared.

Bazett didn't want to fix him; she wanted validation from someone evil to accept her when she was depressed and felt worthless. That means that she's not a perfect victim, but no one in real life outside of Angra Mainyu is. That's why she needed Angra, the ultimate victim, to teach her that people will suffer in life no matter what. The one thing Bazett did misunderstand about him and Cu isn't that they're too cool for society. Angra taught her that everyone needs each other and that they don't have to be codependent on each other. Kirei and Cu hated that they had urges to harm who they loved, and lose who they loved in life, respectively.

I love that the story ends with Bazett waking up and choosing to live for herself, while honoring Angra and Kirei's advice. In other TM works, Bazett still cares for Kirei but does not want to be with him anymore in Fate/Unlimited Codes and FGO. I'm proud of her for standing up for herself while being human enough to say she'll always care for someone she bonded with.

I hope I can finish the analysis on them soon. The remaster's translation has lines that I like more for my interpretation, and other lines I like less.

If anyone would like clarification on it, I can drop screenshots that involve parts of my analysis!

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My old posts are getting engagement so I need to say:

I really am salty against the "true nature twist" with Nasu's characters right now because of how Iori got butchered.

I have decided that ETD needed to go even farther and make Iori irredeemable (not him winning, but make him undoubtedly evil) to make people get it and the fake villain stans, fake yumejoshis and fake fujoshis fuck off.

I hate how Iori's problems were treated for shock value with the stupid way NG+ set it up on a second playthrough, the "line sated" line and logbook descriptions of him regretting the other endings - even fake Iori fans admitted that's his draw instead of seeing him struggle with his problems from the start.

To be fair, it wasn't Nasu who wrote it, but the Koei Tecmo team. But I still am salty right now.

Also my expressive Iori thread really needs to be reworked! Don't read it. Or if you do, don't get mad.

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This is my new banner, so I'm sharing it lol.

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take the pleasure out of the pain - Iori/Takeru and Iori/Ritsuka fic

This is the fic that has truly stuck with me. This is the biggest elephant in the room in FSR. I wanted to make a proper analysis on their dynamic before posting it, but since I already wrote it, I won't play coy anymore.

This is Iori/Takeru with Takeru being abusive, and Iori/Ritsuka with Ritsuka having one-sided feelings.

take the pleasure out of the pain - Enkelana - Fate/stay night & Related Fandoms [Archive of Our Own] 伊剣 剣伊 伊ぐだ

That's the FSR elephant in the room - I believe that Takeru is abusive towards Iori. All interpretations with textual and image evidence are valid but..I don't know how you can interpret this any other way. Iori is my top 1 OAT - I can't ignore the harm towards him.

I hate what Takeru's done. But I love them as a character because of their superiority complex and never having the privilege to be a good person. The only way they could cope with how their life sucked : "He preferred peaceful times" was by being superior. "Everyone praised his achievements".

That causes their apathy towards Iori's problems, and the stalking I believe is from having lost both him and Ototachibana-hime. I know why Iori needs them too - the one person who understands him and is his ideal he wants to surpass.

Ritsuka's role was inspired by the stupid discourse. People bragged that Ritsuka got "cucked" even though Takeru was the stalker in Iori's Valentine, so I decided, you know what, let's have them get cucked. Let's make a story of humanity's good watching someone be stuck in that kind of relationship.

This is my favorite dynamic, even if there's..so much drama over it.

Writing this made me truly love Takeru as my 2nd TM character because I dug into their head and made them hilarious at the same time. They dominated the scenes with not just power and charm, but humor too. These lines I wrote really stuck with me!

“Another one, Iori!” Takeru’s laughter pierced the air. “Another woman chasing you as soon as she laid eyes on you. Aria, Dorothea, Yui, and now Ritsuka. That’s all you are to them - a pretty face to drool over. They really can't help themselves.” “Am I really that attractive?” Iori quietly asked.

The first one says..that elephant in the room out loud.

“I just wanted to make sure you two were alright, is all.” Takeru finally turned on Iori with widened eyes. “I also wanted to make sure that Yui wasn't doing anything weird to you. Was doing that bad?” Iori’s head spun at how quickly Takeru had changed moods in just the blink of an eye. Why didn’t you choose to hang out with us, then? “I didn't like it,” Iori managed to get out, despite his confusion. “I don't like anyone watching me like that.”

The second one is the gaslight girlboss grindset.

“Or what?” Takeru’s lips curled into a sneer. “You’re going to cry about how you’re forced to kill people? That’s what you weaklings do.”

The third one is the cruel yet relatable superiority complex. When YOU used to struggle with something and overcame it, and can't stand to see others go through it too when you used to be like that. That's how I feel seeing people who had struggles I used to have.

Anyway, this fic was so good I almost wanted to stop writing after it. My masterpiece. It hurt so much to write, but also was very cathartic, and I laughed my ass off too!

This is the song that inspired it! If you read this, please listen to this song called Dear God by Tate McRae, or these two sad Full Metal Daemon Muramasa OSTs! I listened to these while writing it!

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killshot - Iori/Yui fic

Decided to finally go public with my fics. I've had these anonymous for a few months, but I decided no more playing coy. No more drama. Just sharing my passion.

This was my first Fate fic - Iori x Yui. It was something dumb, fun and bittersweet in a good way. It didn't stick with me much, but people enjoyed it!

killshot - Enkelana - Fate/stay night & Related Fandoms [Archive of Our Own] 伊正

Basically - Zheng calls Yui a slut, Iori punches him, Yui comes to confront him, they have a silly interaction, then Yui goes home and talks to Ushi while her body is failing. I characterized Iori as a yandere..I think that makes him interesting especially since I saw one Iori/Yui like that.

My interpretation of "Iori is envious" which comes from this screenshot, and "Iori hated the forced kills" which comes from these have both caused bloodbaths on other places so..if you don't like those, don't read, ofc.

Oh and um, this is the song that inspired it!

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Oh, I forgot to say! Happy birthday, Kinoko Nasu. Thank you for creating Miyamoto Iori, such a transcendent character. Some other transcendent characters from you are Bazett Fraga McRemitz, Romani Archaman, Morgan, and Oberon. I respect you as a human being rather than hating or idolizing you.

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Yui Shousetsu punishing Miyamoto Iori for what he did in ETD

Commissioned by @/pttyr_ on Twitter

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Miyamoto Iori doing drugs from Tohsaka Rin to try and become stronger

Wow, where was all this coolass Iori characterization in the first playthrough?!

Iori has found an alternate solution to his problems - he has decided to do drugs from Tohsaka Rin to try and become stronger.

Thank you so much for helping him, Tohsaka Rin. Lately she has really grown on me as someone really likable in FSN, even though years ago as a teenager I had the surface-level take that she was too lucky like Sakura initially thought. She has helped Matou Sakura and Emiya Shirou, and now she is helping Miyamoto Iori.

A big thank you to my goat KuroeDrawsStuff on X for this!

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I'm so sick of the Iori and FSR drama, christ. I know this is on me. I know.

Also, I don't condone harassment over this, especially when some people are still teenagers here. The 20+ and especially 30+ adults should know better both morally and intellectually, but they're still human. Everyone is. I can say their behavior is wrong and clownish without hunting them down like they do to others.

People have got to understand my POV, however. What choice did I have? A few months ago I finally was allowed to interact with others again and the entire fandom is like..that. And the one time I tried to civilly engage with someone, they went nuts. Screw you, socostx. It's fiction. Nobody is gonna fuck you if you mald at the source material. Passive aggressive loser.

I was pretty much like Morgan in LB6. Every single interaction I saw or had was like this that I decided I had no choice to make a clever analysis saying why it's wrong to be a bigot. I copied others' behavior over other TM fascists, and I got punished for it.

Try and imagine yourself in my spot here. Every public fan is a bigot or harasser, and the worst Iori fans are a mixture of the worst Tohno fans (bigots), Kiritsugu fans (sigmalords) and Artoria fans (only like their appearance, don't care about their flaws or suffering, go fucking insane over shipping). What choice should I have done? Let bigotry and harassment slide? Get bullied? Please tell me.

I know it's just fiction and I should relax. I own up to this. But think about how deadlocked I was. 2 years of nothing but this. Somebody was going to be the scapegoat of enjoying it normally. There was no good decision here whatsoever.