Don’t Laugh :(

25.

[howelljenkins]

having to come to terms with the fact that love is not an everlasting performance in which you attempt to retain the attention of your significant other but rather a release of control and putting faith into them and trusting them to choose to stay with you no matter what you have to offer

[howelljenkins]

to love and be loved is to rest

[enneireika]

Original reblog: New Year’s Day 2024… a classic cry for help. Don’t laugh, I was manifesting from the never-ending lonely void. Nearly two years later and I’m still in the exact same place…

I used to be okay with the fact that nobody I still know has the courage to tell me that they don’t love or care about me. At least when that part is left unsaid, I can pretend that I’m not defective and anything could still happen.

The only thing that has fuelled me is the promise of love. Now I wake up increasingly scared because every day it feels more and more truthful that even hope can’t sustain itself when it’s been stretched this thin.

[phantomknights]

december isnt real december cannot hurt me i am immune to calenders i have never seen a calendar

[prettycolors]

[this-is-passion]

“(…) I think it is safe to say that while the South is hardly Christ-centered, it is most certainly Christ-haunted. The Southerner, who isn’t convinced of it, is very much afraid that he may have been formed in the image and likeness of God.”

— Flannery O’Connor, The Grotesque in Southern Fiction

[enneireika]

I’m never not thinking about every version of God.

[violadvis]

CORALINE Henry Selick | 2009

[enneireika]

Childhood classic/generational fav. Kids deserve more genres to explore in movies. Enough of the CGI musicals, give them age appropriate horror.

[nolancinema]

We must reach far beyond our own lifespans. We must think not as individuals but as a species. We must confront the reality of interstellar travel.

[enneireika]

A modern classic that rewired my brain as a teenager. I still remember violently crying in the theatre. It’s also as big as I think Christopher Nolan should get (in terms of plot/setting).

[midnightmurdershow]

At Eternity’s Gate (2018) Directed by Julian Schnabel

[enneireika]

Beautiful to look at but disappointing. Was more moved by the Doctor Who episode on Van Gogh lol

[archae-heart-deactivated2021012]

every splintered bone will fall

[enneireika]

To stand at the water’s edge in the second photo #when

[hunters-schafer]

My brain just doesn’t contain feelings. And that doesn’t necessarily make me a bad person. It just means I have to work a little harder than everyone else to be good.

THOROUGHBREDS (2017) dir. Cory Finley

[enneireika]

Can’t remember if I finished this lol

[fyeahmovies]

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) dir. Michel Gondry

[enneireika]

No thots, head empty.

[collinear]

There’s a song by Baz Luhrmann called Sunscreen. He says worrying about the future is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life will always be things that never crossed your worried mind.

Domhnall Gleeson as Tim Lake in About Time (2013)

[enneireika]

One of the greatest movies of all time. And yes, I only think it’s amazing because of the creepy/weird script. Why? Cause Domhnall Gleason and Rachel McAdams’ are working overtime to make you believe in an emotional truth that overrides the cringe.

I’ll never forget the first time I watched it. The set-up pissed me off early on but those two genius lead performances reeled me back in. #ILookLikeASquirrel and we love that for them 😭

[lacetulle]

Iris van Herpen | Spring/Summer 2019 Couture

[enneireika]

It’s crazy how quickly aesthetic taste changes cause by 2020 I know I would’ve disliked this cut. When it comes to Iris van Herpen, I prefer the more “experimental” designs. For example, I think about those almost metallic blue-purple dresses with the bubble (?) detailing (am I making that up?? I swear that they are Pinterest classics to me).

Anyways, this is def one of the more uninteresting looks but I definitely ate it up because… ombré!

[victoria-pedretti]

Dakota Johnson as Emily Summerspring in Bad Times at the El Royale (2018), dir. Drew Goddard

[enneireika]

Originally reblogged a week before my 19th birthday. Dakota Johnson remains one of my favourite American actresses. I remember this movie being bad lol.

[messmikkelsen]

you created a family for yourself.

[occultclassicalbright]

RUYSCH, Rachel (1664-1750)

Still life, details 1716 Oil on canvas, 48.5 x 39.5 cm Rijksmuseum Amsterdam Ed. Orig. (Orig. Lic.: CC0) (Ed. Lic.: CC0 1.0)

[filmgifs]

Drunk Parents (2019) dir. Fred Wolf

[enneireika]

It’s Christmas Eve 2025 and my former favourite holiday becomes more painful as every winter moves around me. I think I’m only twenty five so it’s hard to believably explain this to people, but I’ve been feeling a profound sense of grief regarding my entire existence. Don’t laugh…

While I’m grateful to have even made it to a quarter of a century; I still feel weighed down by my brief history as it continues to rapidly disappear before me.

So I’m doing the thing that I know hurts the most, looking back and licking the open wounds I like forgetting about. Given the events of the past few months (trust me, nobody needs to know), I think I’ve earned this self-pity session.

These are my “13 favourite reblog drafts” from February 2019 — March 2020. During this period, I remember comforting myself with thoughts like: “at least my depression can’t get worse/life can’t feel darker…” Dear Reader, you were in a bigger storm all the while.