Envy's nonsense

Aroallo | Ao3 : EnvyJ | Code Geass haunts my brain every single day of my life | Very sane about Yu-Gi-Oh Zexal and Vrains

[st-pid-c-pid]

Y'all know a lack romance and sex don't make a queer story not queer, right? ... right?

[enderhasentered]

I think that the lack of aromantic spaces that aren't also asexual is a function of both amatonormativity and purity culture.

Either you're having sex for love, or you're a wh*re

So aroallo people struggle to proudly exist because we're labeled "shallow" or "unavailable" when we don't fit into the lines drawn for us, without us.

We're just as real and just as normal as anyone else, but the constant shame surrounding sex pushes us to label ourselves wrong.

I cannot be the only person who labelled myself aroace despite knowing it wasn't true because I was scared of what others may think of me, even in my own communities.

Well that's bullshit. I'm not going to live in the closet because of others' ignorance. I want to be loud and honest and maybe if I'm lucky, I can help someone else feel just a little bit less alone.

You don't have to be afraid of who you are. Who you are is cool as fuck.

[envy-writes]

Late surgers main are devil incarnate istg

"awww look at me I'm stealing your accels bc I forced you to stay behind during position keep and I will still do nothing with it bc I can't beat Xmas Oguri either !" GET THE FUCK OUT. LEAVE PUMP AND MPB TO END CLOSERS WHO MIGHT HAVE A CHANCE TO WIN AND STOP BLOCKING OUR PATH OMG

And don't get me started on Dominators who overcrowd the backline and push actual backliners forward, making them inevitably lose the position for their accels.

[plum-petunia]

Fuck it, today I'm celebrating that I'm romance repulsed! Fuck romance, fuck amatonormativity, and fuck anyone who isn't on board with me! I am so grateful that I don't need to deal with ANY romantic bullshit (no one does!) and I can do what I truly want. I will make my own happy life without it and I love this.

[envy-writes]

Back. To. The. Code. Geass. Mental. Trenches. I miss Lelouch and Schneizel so fucking much and Sunrise and Bandai are over there, feeding me NOTHING.

[envy-writes]

Have you really known true gaming pain if you haven't :

—Gone through the 2nd Kalpa of Amala, then went to do your CM in Umamusume, then finished the 2nd Kalpa after the CM had disastrous results

—Played Café on Trackblazer

—Attempted to make a Stamina Parent, bonus point if the Stamina Parent is a backliner on Trackblazer

—Made nightmares with Chaotic Will in it (iykyk)

—Gone through the Imaginarium Theater when it does not have hydro element in the line up

—Gone through a round of abyss that requires plunge attacks but you don't own Varesa or Xiao

—Played Sekiro, in general

-Known Dekaja into Morning Star from Truecifer in Godborn

-Realized that, when you make a list of all of the umas you want, you end up with almost a perfect 50/50 on Pace Chasers and Backliners

[envy-writes]

You know that you can ship characters platonically right? You know that, right? It's important for me that you know that. Not all ships are romantic, they can exist platonically, if the term ship comes from "relationship" then it's not exclusive to *romantic* relationships. It's absolutely fine to hate romantic ships (I hate some of them too), but don't throw away the joy that can come with shipping just because most people ship romantically. You don't have to follow that pattern. Ship platonically, friendly, family-like, whatever floats your boat! The shipping world is your oyster!

[raichett]

liking a ship but disliking the distinct set of stock fanon that they have been assigned is like one of those punishments dante came up with when he wrote the worldbuilding for hell in inferno

[septiseph]

Thinking about Baal's water goblet…

It's so funny how most ppl assumed that his goblet is filled with wine (same…), but Kazuma Kaneko revealed recently in a twitter reply that it's water lol

Baal acted like this but it turned out it was just water LMAO... THIS GUY...

[envy-writes]

What a good reason to drink water, doing it to follow the words of my goat Baal : 'stay hydrated'

Love that, thank you OP 🫶

[infiniteorangethethird]

It's not that I don't want pride to be about love, or that I think "love is love" is a bad sentiment or anything. It's that I think pride should be about more than just love. It should also be about self-discovery. About understanding. About acceptance. About fighting for our rights, fighting to be respected and allowed to exist in society as we are without the fear of being ostracized or hurt for it. I want that respect and understanding to be based on all my being, and not just a hypothetical romantic partner I may or may not have.

Pride, as the name suggests, is about being proud of who YOU are. For some, that may be about their love. For others, it might be about their lack of love. And for some, it might not have anything to do with love at all. And none of them belong more or less at pride than the others.

[envy-writes]

Istg the people who are crashing out about Okumura's "difficulty" as a boss are paid actors. I know it I just can't prove it.

[envy-writes]

I haven't finished Nocturne yet (barely met Sakahagi & reached the Obelisk)

HOWEVER

I need a crackfic where Demi-Fiend goes to therapy with P5R's Maruki, except that it's Pixie who does all the talk for him, tells Maruki about the horrors™ and Maruki just starts crying, while Demi-Fiend stares at him with a blank face like none of what happened affected him.

"Wait- what do you mean LUCIFER put an insect in your EYE?? When Tokyo was being....erased from reality???"

*shrugs while Pixie yaps further*

kinda scene

[envy-writes]

Update on this :

The moment Pixie is gonna talk about Raidou hunting down Demi-Fiend in the 3rd Kalpa would be EXTREMELY comic to witness.

"Let me sum this up— A guy chased you in, what, a weird space where souls go after they died that, said like that, ressembles hell or the after life but whatever— He hunted you down and shot bullets at you and— ... Are you OKAY??" Absolutely concerned and with his eyes out of his sockets while, then again, Demi Fiend just shrugs. No nods because, ofc he's not okay but he's forgotten what it meant to be okay a while ago.

[envy-writes]

Being in the niche of the niche is, for exemple, enjoying the Shin Megami Tensei main line games (the 1st niche) and finding yourself strangely vibing with this absolute bitch of Mastema. So, like a normal person (no), you look up the Mastema tag on AO3, expecting nothing but still ending up disappointed.

Why has no one written my guy having a time™ out there for shits & giggles? Come on, he's silly, he's fun, accept Mastema in your heart, you guys are clearly lacking some whimsy 🥀

[envy-writes]

Nocturne might throw a lot of bullshit at you. It might be cruel. The world is literally against you and it makes you FEEL it deep down your bones.

BUT IT'LL NEVER BE AS MISERABLE AS TRAINING MANHATTAN CAFÉ ON TRACKBLAZER WITH HER USELESS GROWTH AND ABSOLUTELY HORRENDOUS ABILITY IN MILE 📣

[this-is-arophobia]

holy fuck! I saw your latest post and omg I genuinely didn't know that being romance repulsed was a thing! for years now I've been called a hater for not like romance in my media or in real life. So much so that I used to physically have to go into another room whenever something slightly romantic happened on screen. I thought something was wrong with me because it took over a decade for me to be desensitized to romance, it used to fill me with so much disgust i felt nauseous to the point of vomiting. someone in my personal life would always drag me into watching romantic shows or movies (no matter if i was comfortable with it or not) and I've grown to look at it almost scientifically and pick it apart like a bug under a microscope. I'm still called a hater and a couple months ago that person called me a femcel and it really hurt my feelings because I didn't know that they saw me that way. they were the first and only person that I've ever came out to and that moment really made me reevaluate our whole relationship. anyway, thank you for that post, it was an eye opener!

i too never used to know about romance repulsed. i used to think me being grossed out was just an 'ewwww people kissing grosss' thing most kids do despite being in highschool. eventually i did find out about romance repulsion but came to the conclusion that its not me because im not asexual. even after figuring out im aroallo i still thought i was just neutral and didnt care because i basically did this thing where id just zone out during romance scenes or just assumed they just wanted sex. even have this memory of hating slow burn fanfiction because they didnt do the deed quick enough. eventually after getting actual friends i realised 'oh! i actually really dont like it when they talk about romance with me' and realised im way more repulsed then i once thought.

[envy-writes]

That's. That's my experience as well and I never felt so seen by a post in my entire life. Thank you for having shared this.

[aro-culture-is]

Aro culture is hating the "we can still love" framing that is rather persistent throughout the aspec community. Why are we framing our lack of certain forms of attraction as a deficit we need to "make up for" by loving in other ways? I'm a big enjoyer of platonic love but my relationships with others shouldn't be a substitute for the kind of love expected of me by society. And what about people who don't identify with the idea of "love" because of its romantic connotations? Are they not wonderful people with lives that are important outside of their connections with others? Idk it kinda rubs me the wrong way personally

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[envy-writes]

I'm a simple person, I just need one fic where Futomimi gets saved after Demi-Fiend brutalized Uriel, Gabriel and Rafael 🥀