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this is gonna be so stupid

if youknow me from my main no youdont

this'll be a journal blog ish and also just stupid vents of mine ew its so embarrassing please ignore this

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bro about pelles wife account or whatever that could seriously be mental illness coming from a mentally ill person on the schizospectrum. like them believving pelle is in love with them is a sign of erotomania, a delusional belief in which someone is in love with them. but the best thing to do isnt to bully tgem and say "touch grass" but for them to genuinely get some help because it could be a psychotic breakdown/them experiencing delusions. im not 100% sure, but it does look alot like erotomania in my eyes (im not here to diagnose people, just saying the situation looks pretty similar to erotomania)

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but also please stop replying to them with ableist comments. ive seen many people in their reblogs say stuff like "any sane person would know youre not dating him" or "youre delusional and insane" or "stay in lala land" which by the way id NEVER fair on a psychotic person's behalf, its still ableism and sanism and even if they say the rudest things to you it does not give you the right to be sanist. psychotic and schizospecs deserve to be treated like actual beings instead of monsters. alot of these people arent treating the situation well, and its obviously making it worse. if youwant to talk to them, dont bully them because that wont do anything. dont reality check without consent, that'll only worsen the situation. maybe ask them about pelle, listen to them, but dont reality check or feed into delusions. anyways the point is, this person isnt great but neither is your sanism.

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yea genuinely THIIS is the childism im talking about. sorry if youre offended, but ya cant hate kids. young people ? cant hate them. literally imagine yourself replacing yhat with like. idont know. queer people. "ihate queer people" sounds wrong ?? queermisic ?? so why is it morally acceptable/ok, or at least neutral to hate a young person ? its not.

[tavros-nitramm]

it pisses me off how people act like minors cant also be sexual beings, or if they can be they better not consume erotic media or else they’re the scum of the earth. like im sorry but minors have just as much of a right to be horny and consume pornographic shit as everyone else. obviously there are a lot of safety things that have to be taken into account, like for example if you’re watching porn on twitter or other social media, dont talk to the poster or comment on their posts, be careful of what you consume, masturbate n shit in private, be safe, dont post pornographic material, educate yourself, be careful who you’re talking to online, and just general internet and general safety stuff, but as a whole its not inherently bad for minors to be sexual and consume porn. a lot of people are born sexual beings and start doing sexual things from a young age, thats fine.

obv adults shouldn’t try to be sexual with kids or sexualize kids bc of this tho bc um ew. but sex isn’t some adult exclusive thing.

[ri5k]

the assurance "nobody is judging you" is straight up false... people ARE judging you and you have to find a way to be ok w it

[giritina]

My methods as someone with schizotypal (feeling of constantly being judged disorder)

1. Even if you do something embarrassing AND someone judges you AND talks about it to others, you really haven't done anything but improve their life. People like bonding over interesting stories. If I'm at the mall and I look strange or act weird, people at best don't care and at worst have a little story to tell their friends.

2. Talking about people is part of life. You probably have done it to others. What comes out of people's mouths when you're out of the room doesn't necessarily reflect their true feelings. Getting words out of your head can be how you check if they're true. Many people might say something mean so they can come to a more neutral understanding. We often think "said behind my back = true feelings" but it isn't true.

3. If someone is actually consistently talking behind your back in a cruel, mean way and being two-faced to you, that's actually them being in the wrong. You aren't responsible for that. You don't have to burden yourself worrying that you're doing something that would make someone act this way. You can operate as though everyone is being upfront and honest and not make concessions for passive aggression.

4. If you talk behind people's backs a lot and operate in a judgemental way to others, try cutting back on that behavior. It honestly helps you feel less scared of others talking about you.

5. If your friend group talks a lot behind people's backs and judges or harasses others for fun, try to discourage that behavior or step away. Seeing people obsess over others isn't good for your health, and those people's behavior isn't normal. Same with hanging out on dramamill websites etc.

6. If you actually concretely find people actually talking behind your back a lot, analyze why. It could be that it's bullying, but it could also be that people don't feel safe telling you their feelings. Think about how you treat others.

7. There's always a risk of being judged and hurt by others, but the rumination on the possibility of it being the case is going to hurt you. The goal should be to live life in the moment and deal with cruelty when it actually emerges. Constantly being on guard for tragedy doesn't actually make it any easier, it just makes you really tired.

[giritina]

Oh, also 8. Imagining a scenario where people are judging you or talking about you behind your back doesn't make it true. You will think "obviously but it can actually be very hard to tell that it isn't true. You start judging people for what you assume they're judging you for. The hard thing is you really can't know what people are talking about, even if they are talking. You can't read anyone's mind, and you have no knowledge of their life when you can't observe it. This is hard to accept, but freeing once you absorb it.

[errrr-vent-blog]

i like how when you go into the paranoia tag, you see many, MANY unsettling, "unrealiity" black eyes that could actually cause you paranoia !! i really did want to be paranoid today !! 😊😊

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the fact that children are tone policed on the words they can even SPEAK is crazy. criminal.

[wanderingmindthoughts]

I think we have an issue about how we characterise young teenage girls as "sexualising themselves" because they start wearing makeup, adult dresses, short skirts and red lipstick.

I mean, when we see a 14-years-old boy wearing a suit and a tie, we don't think he's sexualising himself. we just think "oh look, a teenager that's exploring his autonomy and adulthood by distancing himself a little from children, something which is pretty normal at his age". and you can't tell me that it's because suits aren't sexy, because many people think suits are sexy and it's in fact a common fetish.

but whenever a teen girl tries to dabble with a more adult and "mature" presentation, we think of sex. we think she's sexualising herself. I think the root of this issue is that we have thought-patterns based on a fundamental idea inherited from patriarchy that's rarely verbalised explicitly, but that we believe anyway. this unspoken assumption is that the only difference between a girl and a woman is that you can fuck the woman legally. and when that's only difference between a kid and an adult, we can't help but see every sign of teenage normal growth (social, physical and even mental) through the lense of sex. this puts an unfair pressure on girls because we force them to self-police and second-guess every one of their thoughts because *we* (the adults) cannot help but see normal teenage exploration of adult apparel as sexual -but only when it's a girl teen and female adult apparel.

therefore, a girl tries to visually send a message that she's not a little kid anymore, that's she's growing up and maturing, and rather than acknowledging her development and need for autonomy (like we do with boys), we think of sex. and how could we think otherwise? we sexulise adult women as a reflex, everything from their clothes to their bodies. boys can wear a suit; do girls have any equivalent to that? any form of visual self-expression that signals adulthood that is *not* sexualized?

we deny girls the possibility of a nuanced teenagehood, because we (the adults) cannot see a girl separating herself from childhood without somehow thinking about sex. that's disgusting.

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teacher of mine was explaining the proper school uniform. most guys sag their pants in my school. he brang it up, but not once did he sexualise it. men sagging their pants was just seen as "silly". then came up girls rolling up their skirts. immediately the women were seen as "attention seekers", "trying to sexualise themselves", "trying to get raped" and all the women were blamed for men being unable to control their sexual urges. when a student put up her hand and asked why cant we just teach the men to be better then that immediately "men cant control themselves" and "boys will be boys" came up. all the girls were apparently trying to sexualise themselves for simply rolling up their skirts whilst for men it did not matter.

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"what are you, 12 ??🤓🤓‼️" dude soooo whatttt. what if iam ?? stop using age as an insult

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by the way ageism is a thing. stop belittling it because youdont see it as a "true" form of discrimination. stop belittling it because youdont believe in children's rights. stop belittling it because youdont see people under 18 as actual beings.

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little reminder being under 18 isnt bad. being a 12 year old or 10 year old or 13 or 11 or whatever isnt an insult

[chibidashie]

by the way July is disability pride month, so let's go over some things, shall we?

are you normal about incontinent folk needing aids such as diapers or catheters? if you think they're wearing one for fetish reasons or think they're inherently gross for something they cannot control, you're ableist full stop. stop assuming incontinent people are immediately sexual for having a disability aid! this can be applied for countless other disability aids that have been unfortunately sexualized (especially from people who have no idea what consent is) too!

are you aware about the fact that finding a good therapist can take a really long time, especially in the United States in which healthcare is seen as a privilege and we're still fighting for universal healthcare? if you don't like someone, especially if someone is mentally ill and struggling, stop weaponizing therapy towards them and acting like therapy will cure every mental illness ever instantly. you're not only ableist, but classist when you say "go to therapy" or "seek psychiatric help" towards someone you don't like for something VERY trivial. HEALING. IS. NONLINEAR. there are so many therapists that absolutely suck and will invalidate your struggles and finding the right one that will fit your needs is a literal treasure hunt that can take YEARS.

are you trying to reclaim the r slur? guess what! i hate you! even if you are disabled, you cannot reclaim a slur that people still use as a means to discriminate against intellectually and developmentally disabled folk, and you sound like a conservative dipshit! even if you say you are disabled and "reclaim" it, i do not trust you. a good chunk of people in the disabled community will gladly beat your ass.

are you autistic? if so, are you going to shame other autistics for having autistic traits that you don't have? if yes, you are 100% selfish. even comparing autistics you don't like to people like Chris-chan is also dehumanizing and adding to the stigma that we're dangerous and should be dehumanized and made fun of for having autism! Wow, sounds familiar, huh?

remember this too, that you cannot pick and choose around disability advocacy for your own comfort. Disability advocacy is about unity around all disabilities and we will fight tooth and nail for our rights to be respected and acknowledged. Even if you do not like someone who happens to be disabled and mock their disabili(ties), perhaps you should side with the oppressor with all the infighting you're doing.

(disabled folk feel free to add on, abled folk can reblog!)

[errrr-vent-blog]

"let me shut up because this is just your world im just living in it" glad we can agree

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"wait but how can that work ?" instead of asking how their queer identity works, and how can it be valid, maybe ask them their experiences. ask how it feels to themself being a mspec mono, or lesboy, or turigirl, or whatever. instead of getting angry at queer identities which dont fit your standard, just perhaps let it go and ask them as a person what their identity means to them. stop policing identities and open up your mind a little.

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and even if said person just says "it fits me" dont judge !! YOU dont know THEIR experiences with identity. it could be influenced by anything, or just be how it is. "i identify as a lesboy cause it kinda just fits" if the label fits, use it !! "i identify as a pan lesbian ithink the label is just more comfy and lets me explore my identity with sexuality and gender better" and theres nothing wrong with that !! people having diff experiences to you does not make them invalid.

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if someone on the schizospectrum says "dont say schizo" maybe DONT SAY SCHIZO !!!!

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this disability pride month i challenge non schizospecs to stop saying "schizo"

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boo pintrest ihad a gwourtney post saved and it deleted it for "adult content" thats called a homophobia pintrest

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ihate pintrest bro. saved a pin that says "save this pin if youhate terfs !!" and it got flagged as "violence" and "hate speech/harrassment" when one of their rules is literally "dont disrespect peoples gender identity".