O Song of Hope, Lift Us Though The Night

Hi, im Esper ! 35+, Ace, Autistic, General dork, FFXIV appereciator, and baby waxwright. You can find my work at http://www.kuro-neko.co ! Tumblr to Twitter to Tumblr pipeline, I guess ?

[esperian]

Hello Hello !

Hi. im Esper (she/her, they/them, queer) ! Mostly im just a dork, honestly, but happy to have you around !

This tumblr is just going to be a high quality dumpster truck containing all my interests, mostly because I cannot be assed to keep a sideblog anymore. >_>

What you can expect to find here : - Final Fantasy in general, but a lot of 14 (you can ask about my ocs, but I generally don't talk much about them in public) - Fire Emblem - Honkai Star Rail - Legend of Zelda - My cats, if you're really lucky - All the little shiny rocks that shows up on my dash, squirrelled away into my little crow nest.

I own a shop, Kuro Neko, where I sell wax melts, reed diffusers, and scent pouches/air freshners, as well as the occasional pin/merch project. I also have pay what you want assets up on Ko-Fi for others to use in their own works !

[thememedaddy]

[amwult]

my least favourite turn based strategy game is email

[foldingfittedsheets]

Back in 2017 I signed up for one of the Cards Against Humanity sillies and did their Cards Against Humanity Saves America. Basically they were like fuck Tr*mp and his border wall and used the funds from the campaign to buy land and to make all 150,000 contributors part owners of said land across the US/Mexico border.

It was fun and silly and I got a little certificate.

Today I got an email that Elon Musk illegally annexed that land for SpaceX and that CAH are suing him over it. So possibly I’ll get like $100 if they manage to win a lawsuit and stick it to Musk. It’s like even more bang for my original buck.

[ralfmaximus]

Holy shit

[bat-kidsarebi-kids]

unparalleled commitment to the bit right here

[tritoch]

this to me is basically the most important FFXIV tweet of all time

[orcbara]

the way the internet facilitates a sort of memetic decay of phrases related to sexual attraction to slowly, inexorably point towards the same conventionally attractive people in their 20s instead of the original meanings is so disgusting to me

[orcbara]

people want to claim the allure of the unconventional while still treating it with disgust. "fat boy summer" about average men. "DILF" but only if he's under 40. "bear" about a man built like a superhero. "butch" but not if she's too butch. "monsterfucker" about an anime girl with horns. it's exhausting

[suigintou]

50 people in the rain cheekily asking me "miss the summer yet?" No. I Have Done Nothing But Pray For The Age Of Sun's Downfall. May The Gloom Eternal Take Us All

[power-chords]

[maniacalshen]

had to nab these tags from @ravenvsfox

[sainamoonshine]

And people really do try to interact with fandom like consumers! They want « content ». They act like they can get a refund on reading a fic they don’t like. They add fanfics to goddamned goodreads without a second thought without realizing that’s as ridiculous as adding your friend’s dining room as a restaurant on yelp just so you can post a review about it

[cyanwrites]

'Fandom' is a contraction of 'fanatic' and 'kingdom'.

Fanatic, from Latin fanaticus "mad, enthusiastic, inspired by a god."

Fandom is literally the place people go to be enthusiastically crazy about their blorbos! There are no normal people here!

[cacodaemonia]

#just opening livejournal would have killed you instantly

[shebloomedbutwontforgethepast]

And after a while you just stop. You stop watering your plants. You stop watching netflix. You stop reading. You stop replying to your friends as fast as you used to. You stop buying yourself nice things. You stop putting an effort into how you look. You stop taking care of yourself like you used to. You stop sleeping. You stop eating healthy foods. You stop petting your dog. You stop socializing.

You stop with everything. You find yourself sitting in your room for hours on end, without doing a single thing. Days feel like years. And you think you can’t do it for much longer.

[chocolate-lilies]

My therapist told me that you don’t only spiral down. You can spiral up again. So maybe one day

You water your plants for the first time in a while. Surprisingly they’re not dead yet. You remember a movie that you really enjoy and you find the energy to watch it. You feel better afterwards. Maybe you still can’t find the motivation to reply to your friends but you buy yourself a nice scented candle and read your book. You take a nice long shower and you feel refreshed, so you put on an outfit you find cool. Then after what seems like forever, you get a good night of sleep. You wake up with more energy than usual so you play with your dog. Then you cook that healthy meal you really enjoy. You reach out to a friend.

You start remembering what brought you joy. You start again with the little things. You look back on the days that have passed and feel relieved they’re over.

Remember, you don’t just spiral down. You spiral up as well, even if it takes more effort to get started.

[kaban-bang]

[memingursa-deactivated20250625]

[kaban-bang]

To be fair, you have to have a very high IQ to understand Rick and Morty. The humor is extremely subtle, and without a solid grasp of theoretical physics most of the jokes will go over a typical viewer's head.

[kaban-bang]

[gareef]

All of the FFXIV soul crystals and some stones from real life that could serve as their analogues!

Special thanks to @robboybot for lending me his awesome rock knowledge to help with this!

[orteil42]

Wait, you were actually born in the 1900's? Thats so cool

i am going to eat my own entire skin

[idabbleincrazy]

Reblog if you were born in the 1900's.

[avoiding-claws]

[my-random--thoughts-deactivated]

[evaconly]

every time this post comes across my page on a new platform i smile because we’re all just enjoying her adorable joy

[wildxwired]

How fucking annoying is it when you feel so restless with creative energy but you can’t decide what to do with it and when you finally try to create something it comes out shit so you just give up and sit there being all creatively annoyed and jittery.

[lianabrooks]

1 - Decision Making Fatigue is a thing. --> Make a list of possibilities. --> Use a random number generator to pick something off the list. --> If you hate the idea cross it off and generate a new number. --> Continue until you either find a project or cross off the whole list. --> If you cross off the whole list pick a random short story prompt, write for five minutes, and call it a good work day.

2. Yeah, of course your rough draft sucks. It’s supposed to. --> Let it suck. --> You can fix it in edits. 

3. When you’re stressed you aren’t unbiased about your work. --> Don’t judge your work while your are actively working on it. --> Remember to drink water, take your meds/vitamins, eat something, and get sleep. --> Double-check to make sure the restless creative energy is not displaced emotional worries over something else. If it is, displace with intention and let the worries go into your work. You shouldn’t keep stress in your head, put it on a page, or canvas, or in a carving, or a meal, or something. Get it out and let it go.

4. No work is ever wasted. --> All time spent planning and creating is useful in some way.  --> Failure means you tried, which is good. --> Try again. Fail harder. Fail better. --> Keep going until you like what you’re making.

5. Love yourself enough to allow yourself to not be perfect. --> Seriously.  --> If this is a struggle I highly recommend seeing a doctor or therapist about depression. --> Because you are dang lovable, my friend. You rock. You do great things. I’m proud of you.

[jackabbot]

"how can you multiship?" well you see honey, when two people love each other very much and neither of them is real...

[jackabbot]

rbing this again just to say that some of the people bringing up polyamory/polygamy are kinda missing the point.

yeah ot3s are a thing but multishipping means shipping the same character with more than one character(s) separately, as in not within the same relationship. because they aren't real and you don't have to find a "morally acceptable" way for them to be with multiple people, so they "aren't cheating", such as being in a poly relationship.

[jame7t]

Do we seriously have to skip both ads on YouTube now. Like we press skip on the first then we have to wait five more seconds to press skip on the second. Are you actually fucking kidding me

[jame7t]

Before one of you chucklefucks says “get an adblocker” or “download this sketchy software to block ads on phones:” this sucks because companies are doing it, not because there are ways around it. Do not be stupid on my post where I complain.

I am complaining about ads being shoved into everything because it fucking sucks. Smarmy advice will help neither of us

[prismatic-bell]

Also if that’s your response to OP’s problem, you should know YouTube back in the day promised it would be adless.

Then they added one ad sometimes.

Then they started putting ads in the middle.

Now if you don’t have your browser configured all to hell and back there are more ads in a YouTube video than on regular network television.

OP IS RIGHT.

[talisidekick]

A while back my pharmacist saw my deadname on my profile and accidentially called it out, he corrected and deleted my deadname from the system so only my preferred name shows up now. There was a crowd of people behind me, so as he hands over the pills he apologized, in equal tone and volume as when he called my deadname and lied saying it's been a long day and he didn't mean to call out -his own- name. I quietly told him it was fine and he didn't need to do that for my sake.

His response: "No, it's my name now."

I went to the pharmacist yesterday, his nametag is my deadname. He informed me he's immigrating and in the process he's changed his first name to my deadname to have an English sounding name. That's why he's now able to get a reprint of his nametag to be my deadname. And repeated, with the intense seriousness of someone who is going to die on this hill: "It's mine now. Not yours. I'm taking." His tone indicated that decision is final.

Bro literally deadnamed me once, and has committed to flat out stealing my deadname. It's his now. Legally. Officially. I over heard his co-workers call him by the name.

[foone]

King shit! I need someone to steal my deadname(s)