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auden, 24. any pronouns. grad student. talking to myself about medieval literature.

@daniffen = shrieking about ocs, interactive fiction and rpgs

whenever I make a post about Arthurian legend on this blog I’m like “nobody is laughing. but me. that’s okay, I’m my target audience anyway.”

ot3

no hate to op at all im screenshotting this for the sake of Making My Own Post instead of adding a subjective contradictory opinion to theirs. but i just can not relate to this way of thinking at all. when something everyone has told me is really good turns out to be really good im overjoyed. i think its awesome when things are good and they get attention for being good. the other option is that only bad shit ever gets popular and that would be a dark reality to live in indeed... the joy i get from being a contrarian hater is always a consolation prize for not getting to actually experience something good, which is always my main goal. i consider this an important part of the hater's ethos

patches-dark-souls

haterism is basic game theory

lillybean730

#ffxiv

crabussy

small tips for Enjoying Being Alive from someone who went from wanting to die to genuinely loving life. these won't fix your life but they'll make it a lot easier to want to live day by day. I promise.

tell yourself things you do not believe. it feels stupid at first but I've done this for years and now I believe it when I say "I'm good at this" or "I love myself" or "I deserve good shit!"

make a note of every mundane good thing that happens to you. mental or literal notes! could be as little as "the sky is a nice shade of grey, it's calming" or "I ate a piece of fruit today, I'm looking after myself" or "I talked to a friend". again, feels stupid at first, but I genuinely believe this is part of why I have so many "good days". trick your brain into storing things in your long-term memory that you wouldn't otherwise remember.

diet deficiencies can make you properly miserable. your physical health impacts your mental health more than you'd think. get some vitamins, some omega-3s and so on. whether from food or supplements. they can make quite a difference! your brain is responsible for a LOT of the way you feel, and giving it the fatty acids it needs to function at its best can go a long way.

crabussy

I know these all sound like stupid junk people who have never wanted to die tell you. I know they sound like dumb "self-help" tips written by people who have suffered mild anxiety at worst.

they're coming from someone who had multiple daily panic attacks for half a decade. someone who genuinely felt like he did not deserve to live. someone who hated himself so much he convinced himself he was irredeemably evil. someone who loves being alive these days, even though it's difficult sometimes.

you truly don't have to follow any of this advice. but just read through. store it in the back of your mind. come back to it when you want. best of luck. [:

nedzira

These are genuinely great! If I can add a small comment it would be to try to change scenery every now and then, take a different route home and go for walks. And make appointments to meet your friends!

crabussy

ABSOLUTELY. anytime I feel myself descending into a slump where everything feels wrong and bad and gross and hard, I go on a Weird Walk. I choose a familiar destination (the dairy, the beach, a specific hill) and intentionally choose a route I've never tried before. it's crazy but it makes me feel better almost instantly, even if the new walk is worse than my usual route. your brain CRAVES new stimulation! you are a member of a species with one of the most active brains in the animal kingdom. please try not to live like a hamster.

#please try not to live like a hamster #that’s gonna loop in my brain forever

justcallmedom31

These are so beautiful.

Credit goes to the wonderful artist: ChibiGreen

#idc w the little c: is making me cackle

byjove

While watching AKOTSK, you get the feeling that Peter Claffey genuinely loves horses because someone who was not a horsegirl could not fake the loving horsegirl awe-filled gaze like that.

byjove

It’s the same with Dev Patel in The Green Knight and then in the BTS clips he is feeding the horse dandelions and talking about sneaking it apples from his hotel.

#ngl people who’ve worked at medieval times have been like. yeah you just get Attached to them while you train.#That’s My Horse Now.#and i can absolutely believe that actually

muntiller2

Randomly remembered Cid saying "Oh and don't even think about dying, you're too bloody useful" and now I'm thinking once again about how heroism dehumanizes the wol over and over

The worst part is that he likely didn't even realize how dehumanizing that sounded, because at that point you're at the height of the praetorium mission and about to try and dismantle Ultima. We get intercepted by Gaius and it's likely what Cid was fearing would happen the most, hence trying to lighten the mood with a joke that unfortunately lands in a spot that's still tender

There's something to be said about how ARR handles that sensitive reality. The wol is incredible in every way, even back then when our concerns were at most errant primals, but a part of the world still saw them as a human and thus did not take seriously the ramifications of what they were saying/doing. We were still expendable to an extent, a rare skilled adventurer sure, but still replaceable, and so they were constantly going to and fro between pilling up problems on our shoulders and trying not to overwhelm us (which gets thrown out the window during later parts of post ARR).

Telling you not to die because you're too useful is something you do to a friend on their last mission, not someone you expect to keep going afterwards. I think a part of Cid was 100% expecting the wol to either die or to consider praetorium their last escapade of such a scale, which puts into perspective why he was trying to keep things as smooth as possible (including keeping us calm) besides just mission optics.

#ffxiv #arr spoilers #the kind of gallows humour that says it soooo baldly that you’re startled into giggling.#everyone else would have annoyed her by denying it.#we like cid! he’s kind of a shit! that’s a feature not a bug #my wol laughed ngl. you can take a guy out of the empire but you can’t make him not a garlean.#and also bc it was early days for that sort of shit (and it seemed like it would be the last mf day EVER.#who has time to cry?)

sexybritishllama

i think like how healers in ffxiv have the rescue ability to drag people to where they're currently standing, they should give tanks a new ability that pushes people away from them, with the intention tanks can use it when someone is going to get hit by a cleave or something. we can call it 'get down mr president'. nothing bad could possibly come from this

#ffxiv #nodding vigorously (<- shitty tank main)#just HIP CHECK. outta the way!!!

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