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multifandom bullshit, with spoilers // 24 and tired of it ao3: eurydicees

[eurydicees]

welcoming asks and headcanons and questions and random infodumping 100% of the time! fic requests are currently closed, but here are some other relevant links to my writing: 

my tumblr fic masterlist is here

my poetry fic masterlist is here

my ao3 is here (link is also in my bio)

writing tag: #my writing

original writing tag: #oc (not used much anymore)

current nanowrimo tag: #nov nano 2025

currently liveblogging the haikyuu manga (again): #hq liveblog 5.0

[hyakkunosuke]

[nondelphic]

writing isn’t hard. i just have to extract 80,000 words from my brain using sheer psychic force

[waskitty]

i’m so glad i’ve never gotten over anything in my life it makes listening to music so fun

[slowspinningredemption]

people talk about their writer friends stealing their weird habits or borrowing backstories but what you don't know is that we will steal your house. layout location garden colour scheme décor the whole lot. i have childhood friends with entire abodes immortalised in my stories. i have people i met once who would be able to recognise ancient six-month lease domiciles from a decade and a half ago. i'm in your house i'm in your blueprints and i am taking the lot.

[dailynarnia]

is jake gyllenhaal gay??

why would you ask us, a narnia blog, this

[helloitsbees]

happy pride month to this post specifically

[tookas-have-teeth]

I’m starting to suspect that the only way to get my fics written is to write them

[reheatedrivalri]

Hudson mentioned Connor in such a sweet and chaotic way ahhh

“and if i could cut this award down the middle i would because if these gay yearning little bottom eyes didn't have a big sexy russian to feast upon my performance wouldn't be as good so to the honorary canadian connor storrie i share this award with you"

[eurydicees]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

hehe ok <3 in no particular order: 

HOLLANDER & ROZANOV ARE DEAD (hollanov, 13k): newer one!!! i loooooooved writing this one, it was super cool to think about and put together and i’m really really proud of how it came together in the end :D 

weathering / i am holding on (iwaoi, 14k): yeah okay i’m still really proud of this one. i think it’s one of the most vulnerable things i’ve ever written and it’s really special to me for that reason. 

2am, yesterday; and him, with all your love (tamakyo, 12k): an older one, but i think this premise was kind of really neat and i’m quite proud of the execution too. 

a riptide to carry me home (iwaoi, 47k): ok i actually don’t talk about this one all that much, but this one was actually so much fun to write, even if i thought it was maybe going to come alive and kill me at certain points. it was a collaborative piece too, which is always fun!

one day, you will be braver (kuroken, 8k): also filed this one under fics that i feel very very vulnerable about. but i’m really proud of it too.

[eurydicees]

how about 8 with lifespan of a sparrow caged vs free and 18 for the fic writer ask game? ^^

8 ⧽. what part of "lifespan of a sparrow, caged vs free" is your favorite?

oooh i’m truly really proud of all of that fic, despite it being a number of years old by now. i really like the use of the bird’s death as a metaphor for internalized homophobia—i know that’s literally the core of the fic so maybe that’s a cop out answer, but idk. i think it’s well woven throughout the fic and then the bird’s burial is a really strong ending. 

for a more specific answer, here’s my favorite passage from it: 

“You don’t have to say anything,” Iwaizumi continues, eyes steady on the road. “I don’t expect you to—I know—just…I just wanted you to know.”  Oikawa can only bring himself to ask, “Why?” and he doesn’t know what he’s referring to. Why Iwaizumi had to tell him, after years of being in love and not saying anything? Knowing that they can never be together? Why Iwaizumi loves him in the first place, where there is nothing Oikawa has done to deserve such gentle love?  Iwaizumi shrugs, but it’s stiff. He’s thought this through. “I don’t want to graduate next month without ever saying it out loud.”  “I wish you hadn’t,” is all that Oikawa says, and he swears that he can hear the sound of Iwaizumi’s heart going thump and then shattering, entirely breaking in real time, but—it turns out to be just a bird, dying.

18 ⧽. how do you want your writing to feel to your readers?

ooooh this is a good question,,,,, i think that the fics i feel the most proud of are fics that aim to make readers feel seen and/or understood in one way or another, and fics that say something important that readers need/want to hear—whether that’s a message about self-acceptance, or about growth, or about hope.  i also feel incredibly honored when people tell me my writing inspires them in some way. those are truly amongst the greatest compliments i’ve received; things like my writing inspired them to write, or inspired them to live more authentically, stuff like that.  so overall, i think that i want my writing to feel comforting and inspiring, simultaneously like coming home and like finding the bravery to jump into freefall :)

thank you for asking!!!! have some more questions for anyone interested<3

[eurydicees]

3 & 4 for the ask game ^^

thanks for askingggggg<3

3 ⧽. what's something you like about your writing?

hmmmmmm. i think i have a way with metaphors and, like, visuals that get threaded consistently through long works. sweeping allegories and images and such. things like the payoff of the bus dreams in frankenstein’s theory of being alive, the coin coming up again and again in HOLLANDER & ROZANOV ARE DEAD, the snow imagery in there are things i was never meant to keep (will you be another one of them?), the ideas of games and play(fulness) represented in different ways all throughout JOYRIDE, or the use of mirrors in body(s), to name a few.

4 ⧽. is there an au or trope that you haven't written before, but would want to try?

hmmmm i dunno. i kinda feel like if i want to write something i just kind of do it? or at least try it? i don’t hesitate too much when it comes to ideas. if the idea feels too big or large scale for what i’m capable of at any given moment, i’ll jot down a few notes or even ideally a scene or two if i can manage it, and then i’ll come back to the idea later. i do wish i could write more humorous stuff though. i’ve got one or two i think but also damn it’s hard to be funny. 

more questions here if anyone's interested i'll be here all night o7

[eurydicees]

13 ⧽. do you have any writing projects/goals/plans you're working on/want to work on?

oh soooooo many!!! actually thank you for asking, this feels like the perfect opportunity to give an update on my yearly goal<3

so my word count goal this year is 404,013 words! i’m currently at 154,078—which is 38.14% of my goal and just right on track to finish on time. 

i fell behind early in the year (didn’t complete my january or march goals LOL), but i hit this month’s goal (31,000) on the 18th, and i’ve officially gotten back on track for the yearly goal as of, like, yesterday. here's my daily graph for this month (missing today's update obviously):

i’m a little concerned about getting through june bc i have lots of summer vacation plans, but we’ll see. i’m trying to get ahead of it now by writing more in may, so i’m about 17k into my june goal, which is awesome. 

as for current projects, i’ve def got some i’m excited about! i'll talk about a few wips below the cut, but i dont want to jinx anything about the ones furthest along LOL.

so i’ve got a few versions of drafts that i’m tossing around which take concepts from maggie stiefvater’s raven cycle, specifically blue’s curse and the trade for gansey’s life, and map that onto both hollanov and iwaoi. not 100% where i’m going with those yet, but i had fun starting them out. this is the (wip) summary for the hollanov version:

The beginning starts at the ending: Shane Hollander dies when he is twelve years old. It is not permanent.  The ending also starts at the beginning: the curse has been written out for Ilya Rozanov from before he could even understand it. If he kisses his true love, that person will die. So—he’s never going to kiss anyone.  Unfortunately, Shane Hollander seems to have outlived his own death solely for the purposes of playing hockey and making Ilya want to break all the rules.

i’ve also got two drafts for potential follow-ups to frankenstein’s theory of being alive! one of those i’ve spoken about lots before, but the other is more recent—it’s about osasuna, who i’ve never written before, which is exciting 👀

i also started a sillier draft, one that was probably more writing exercise than anything i’ll ever complete (i’m so bad at humor, man), but it’s about the centaurs betting pool. this was the summary: 

In the winter of the year that they win the Cup, the Ottawa Centaurs are given a game: they have 20 questions and 10 days and one guess each to figure out the season Shane and Ilya first got together. They should make a bet off of this, is Ilya’s suggestion, so the first one to get it right wins the pot; they’re fucking idiots, is Shane’s private thought, because for every day that no one gets it, each of them puts in another $50.

[eurydicees]

shoutout to the ask game that i reblogged and then never answered any asks from lmaooo. i'm answering them now promise<3333 feel free to send more asks for this game if you missed it on the first round

[herssian]

online numbers can really fuck you up when it comes to your creative work because you're sharing something you worked on with all your heart but it's very important to remember there's actual people behind those numbers. even if it's 1. that's one whole actual person. that's a human being who said "haha nice". that's a connection with a REAL person with a REAL life and REAL thoughts and feelings and experiences. like. damn. that should mean something

[fluentinbird]

shane hollander - "who are you when you aren't performing?"

Paul Butler, “Untitled (Two with Puck – Red)” - Collage, 2018  / Detail from Kazuo Nakamura, Suspended Landscape, 1967 / Heated Rivalry 1x01 / Ralph Ellison, Invisible Man / Detail from Kazuo Nakamura, Suspended Landscape, 1967/ Heated Rivalry 1x04 / David Hannan, Falling from Grace, 2024 / Paul Butler, “Untitled (Two with Puck – Blue)” / Detail from LEE U-Fan, From Line (1976) / Rebecca Bellmore, At Pelican Falls/ Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Heated Rivalry 1x01 / Sally Prasch, Neon Series / Ocean Vuong, Night Sky with Exit Wounds / Robert Matta, Bleuêtre, 1993 / Heated Rivalry 1x04 / Kazuo Nakamura, Blue Reflections, B.C., 1964 / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Sally Prasch, Shattered Shell / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Carmen Maria Machado, In the Dream House / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Kazuo Nakamura; Blue Morning / Detail from Rebecca Bellmore, At Pelican Falls/ Jennifer Walton, Frozen Lake Series / Heated Rivalry 1x04 / John Steinbach, East of Eden / Koichi Nabatame, Morning Mountain Range

[chessys]

i wish i could be the person i want to be but im too tired

[errortdmn]