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Can I just say that in S2 I would like to see some examples of Ilya using '"lazy English".

Lazy English is a term I have come across when non-native English speakers relax how precise they speak when they are feeling safe and comfortable at home after a long day of constant translating in their heads and being absolutely perfect with their English.

I want Ilya's English to be absolutely perfect around others but the moment when he is alone with Shane; he's dropping articles, he is using Russian sentence structure etc.

I think it is a perfect way to show how comfortable Ilya is with Shane and perhaps that his insecurity with English is lessening.

[bleekay]

shane who doesn't really do pet names calling rose babe because that's what a good straight boyfriend would do and rose calls him babe back so he's like i am getting a good grade in performative heterosexuality but then they break up and he's gay and rose keeps calling him babe because turns out she calls all her close friends babe no matter their gender and so he just keeps calling her babe too and if other guys think it's because he's trying to get back with her he doesn't really care but it's actually a term of endearment reserved for his girl best friend and ilya absolutely fucking hates it he hates it so much

[lylylylylylylylyly]

“can i call u?🥺” no u cannot goodnight

[byrondchambers]

[my-2nd-account]

These two kids in eachother's faces:

[alporquia]

Addio, 2008.

Eva and Franco Mattes

[jpegwoe]

Took two people to think this one up

[lostdeepindarkthoughts]

[inkzbat]

As someone who likes being alone all the time usually, you know shit is getting bad when feeling alone starts to actually hurt you for once and you just want someone to hold you and be there.

[beautifulbookishdisaster]

Susan Sontag wrote that "Depression is melancholy minus its charms." For me, living with depression was at once utterly boring and absolutely excruciating.

John Green, The Anthropocene Reviewed (Harvey)

[jaesig]

Can we please make "I'm depressed" a valid reason to out-of-the-blue fall off the face of the earth?

I'm not busy.

I'm not tired.

My plate isn't full.

I'm not swamped with work.

I don't have a cold or flu.

I'm not laying awake at night. (But I am sleepy throughout the day.)

Nothing tragic or traumatic has happened.

I nor anyone I know or work with is going through anything.

You didn't do or say anything wrong.

But I'm not sad, either. I'm not homesick or in mourning. I'm not angry at anyone or anything.

Nothing is wrong...

I just woke up and suddenly being alive sucked, eating became a dumb idea and nothing mattered. I canceled training for the next two weeks, making up a lie, saying I'd be out of town on business.

And I have no other explanation for that, but I don't [can't] say anything because the word "depression" might as well be "itchy" to some people.

"Here, have a mango. You like mangos, right? This should cheer you up!" But I'm not sad.

"Just think happy things!" But I'm not sad.

"Did something happen? You know you can always talk to me!" About what? I'm not sad.

It'll go away just as it came: on its own.

How long it'll stay in my system this time is anyone's guess.

[waitingforthesunrise]

gentle reminder that crying is actually one of the best things you can do to relieve all that tension and emotion in your brain, and not to resist the impulse because it's 'weak' or 'unnecessary' or 'a plea for attention.' if you need to cry, do it, even if you don't always know the reason. your body does.

[alltheworld-willbeyours]

Do you ever notice yourself getting bad again…like, you know you’re not doing work that needs to be done, you know you’re not cleaning, you know you’re not taking care of yourself…you know all the things you need to do to start trying to feel better. But you just can’t. And you’re left feeling like shit bc you thought you were getting better but here we are

[musicalcode]

Best way I have found to deal with this is to give myself grace and treat it like a cycle. It might feel a bit silly but gently coaxing yourself into trying to do things and accepting it when you can’t works better than any negative self-talk.

“You can’t hate yourself into a better version of yourself”

Accepting that this is a cycle, instead of a state of being that I have to drag myself out of, also takes off a lot of the pressure. Yes, I might not be functioning as well as I could be but it will come and go just like it has every time before.

I will cradle myself with soft hands as I work through this time where living feels like a lot of effort, and I will praise myself for every attempt I make at moving forward, successful or not.

[iguessweallcrazyithinktho]

[bilosan]

[stevenrogered]

You should call him. Really? Heck yeah!

[tomi4i]

How 💔

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‘I wish for death’ - Twelve-year-old Alma says. She fled bombing and shelling twice before the third place they sheltered was bombed, She was rescued from the rubble only to find out both her parents and all four of her siblings had been killed. She found her 18-month-old brother in an unimaginable state. Her little brother was beheaded from the rubble after the IOF massacred them.

Source: BBC