from your local gay

just a local gay trying to figure out life and importance. he/him bisexual + pan/demiromantic. doesn't rlly matter.

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hey sorry to the 2 people who look at my account in passing for being incredibly inactive but i need to get something off of my chest

i don’t intend to be rude and dismissive towards my luck when it comes to smarts, but i have something to say.

i’ve noticed, again and again, when i score high marks regularly in whatever; maths, sciences, french, history; i am disregarded as a person and as a friend due to others’ suffering self-esteem, and all i have to say is this:

get the fuck over it

in life there are going to be people who are smarter than you, who achieve better than you. if they’re your friend and they rant to you about getting 75% on a test because they usually get 80%+, even when you’ve gotten lower marks, empathise with how they think and see it through their eyes; don’t just block them out because you believe they are unappreciative of their talents and/or intelligence.

constantly i am made the butt of jokes and apathetic dismissals when it comes to the subject of revising, tests and/or just school in general.

this is especially the case when i have a different problem unrelated to my intelligence in a certain subject;

if i am having trouble revising for a specific exam because i cannot concentrate, i am refused help and/or revision guides because i “have it easier” and i “should be able to do it myself”. otherwise, when i make a mistake in class because it’s something i struggle in mentally, i am laughed at and essentially shit on by classmates. this has relentlessly lowered my self-esteem and confidence overall, by the way.

y’all need to get it into your heads, furthermore, that being math-smart or otherwise does NOT in any way relate to other mental conditions. you can be adhd and score high in tests, despite not having the patience to revise. you can be dyslexic and score high on an english paper, despite relentlessly getting things muddled up in your head and in writing.

and finally, i’d like to reiterate: get over yourself. because people with ‘smarts’ have feelings too, and especially don’t enjoy being the runt of the group because they ‘can’t relate’ to your struggles in academic subjects or otherwise.

this has been a rant, by me.

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#tbt closing my computer halfway through Beautiful and opening it again only for spotify to be stuck on Heather Duke’s throwing up. an endless cacophony of bleeegghhhhhh

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going through my notes and loving that people liked my carrie post lmao

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# when you realise you were only ever close to your supposed “best friend” because they only bothered to get to know you because they had a crush on you and now that you’ve rejected them and they’re onto crushing on others, they can’t be bothered to spend time with you anymore

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y’all

how,, in the h * c k is it already april tho

usually it’d feel like it’s been so long since january, but it literally feels like last month. i cannot understan

oh and i came 1st for leadership points in my whole school in my term assembly!!1!1!!!1 i got a £10 as an amazon gift card :))))

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The Only Reason

I wish i had more body fat is so that i can roll up my sleeves when it’s cold and not need to roll them back down again because i have sufficient insulation, all so that everyone, 24/7, knows i’m gay

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you: megalovania

me: song that might play when you fight sans

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beans vs tea discourse

ok so.. i am seeing all these things (not really) about spill the beans vs spill the tea, and that ‘tea’ is the gay culture whereas ‘beans’ is the straight version;

i propose, as one of your fellow bis, that rather than beans or tea, we say,, wait for it,, ‘spill the bees’

eh? eh? ok that’s all i wanted to say :l

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my sexuality (again)

ok imma keep it short this time because no one wants to read a full length thing about me being confused and changing labels once again.

i identify as bisexual, panromantic, demiromantic. 

bisexual because although i am substantially more attracted to men, i still am attracted to women and am not disgusted at the thought of sex with them.

panromantic, because, remarkably, i acquired a crush of someone of the same gender, and felt that it was no different to the one i had of the opposite gender. therefore, pan.

demiromantic, because, although i was confused as to whether i was demi-, quoi- or just allo- romantic and looking too far into it, the same time i discovered i might be panromantic, i got that crush after being relatively connected to the person it was directed towards. therefore i have settled with demiromantic as a conclusive tag.

so, bi-ce and pan- and demi-ro

yup,, for now. until i make another weird discovery lmao.

k night.

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honestly?

sue should’ve just sucked it up and asked carrie to the prom herself

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sincerely me

ok why does noone talk about how sincerely me is the only, and i mean o n l y upbeat/happy song in the whole deh soundtrack?

all the rest are either happy sounding but have sad/angsty lyrics, are just sad in general, or are happy but are serious and based around the themes of the play (e.g. you will be found, only us)

but Sincerely Me is the single truly happy song, because it’s the only song where evan gets lost in his imaginary friendship with connor, the only song where he can fool around and be open with someone he imagines he can trust, the only song where he can just be a kid- free of his anxiety, depression.

sincerely me is the only song in which evan is truly comfortable in his skin before the conclusion of the play, which makes it especially sad because... it’s only a fantasy.

the family he found in the murphy’s wasn’t the only reason he didn’t want to stop his lying - it was also the comfort in his imaginary relationship with connor that kept him in this cycle.

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friends

ok so am i the only queer who thinks that if Friends was made in this decade, chandler, joey and monica could have been gay/bi/pan and phoebe could have been aro/ace??? because i feel like that would fit more into their dynamic and obviously relationships. don’t get me wrong- i love force-coupled hetero-normative Friends as it is, but this would give it so much more flavour.

ok so lemme just explain as some people might not get me-

chandler and joey, obviously, what with their whole roommate situation and closeness- ALTHOUGH, they could just be bi/pan and live together as bros nevertheless and never get together to represent that gay/bi/pan men that live together don’t have to be in a relationship.

monica, as she’s sometimes the odd one out- especially in the first/second season; chandler and joey are best bros, ross and rachel have that whole ?are they gonna get together?? arc and phoebe is in the midst of her career ((s m e l l y  c a t)) and this would so fit with her character- her experimenting, her several relationships. etc.

phoebe should have been aro/ace as well, because, honestly, all the relationships she’s in are so forced and unnatural feeling and it would work so much better if she was aro/ace. other than that, that would leave the romance to the other characters, and she would have more time fiddling with her career and family issues that i think are already so well explored in these seasons and could use more exposure.

ross and rachel have their whole relationship thing, though, from season 1, and i think that should stay - especially with the whole comedic theme of them breaking up and getting back together again all the time. 

anyway, that’s all i had to say - sorry for being inactive - and i’ll be off for you to think about this lol.

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ok ma dudes the video has been released for over three hours and noones watched it!!! i dont wanna sound needy but the last video was the same and what am i making them for if noone will watch em????

so idk i’ll link all three posts announcing my videos here so u can go watch it if you like but if you dont then just let me know!! or keep ignoring the videos that’s enough of a signal.

episode one:: https://everything-saga-fromyourlocalgay.tumblr.com/post/181500786583/im-actually-playing-nitw-nitw-playthrough-ep

episode two:: https://everything-saga-fromyourlocalgay.tumblr.com/post/181895239048/eeeeeels-honey-nitw-playthrough-ep-2-ben

episode three:: https://everything-saga-fromyourlocalgay.tumblr.com/post/182302737098/gregg-rulz-ok-die-anywhere-else1-a-hand-ah

have fun sfhjs

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gregg rulz ok + die anywhere else!!1! + A HAND AH | PB Alberts

ok so idk this was an ok video. i intentionally waited two weeks to post this, yes, because i want to seem like i have a consistent schedule lmao. anyway my ...

another video! so i didn’t like upload this several days too early so you would have to wait ages and lose interest, instead only like a day early.

so set ur reminders!!! it’s coming out at noon tomorrow (saturday the 26th) GMT so whatever that is for you chaps (technically just in like 15 hours and 25 minutes from noww)

ok ok cool seeya

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Excuse my terrible voices and mumbling throughout the whole episode! I am kinda sick (not really) and I am still getting used to this whole, let's-play thing...

Okay so apparently I decided to continue with this series. I don’t know why; I am such a shit YouTuber.

Anyway, I decided I wanted to try out the new Premiere feature and so now you can eagerly wait the arrive of this shit-ass video on the link provided until it releases at 12:00 GMT on the 12th of January.

Eh. its there if you want to.

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Happy 20biteen!

What a brilliant start to 20189.

Now, before I tell you my awesome start to the year, bear in mind that my little half-siblings were staying over at my house, and so I had to spend my whole New Years Eve with them instead of with my friends eagerly awaiting midnight. And, to top it all off, my dad managed to piss me off (not a hard feat for him, though, it seems) about how if I wanted a doctor’s appointment that I would have to call the office, rather than him doing it for me, as all parents naturally should if their child is sick.

Well, all that turned into me going into 2019 with a bowl of sweet+salted popcorn and coke, sitting in my bed frantically trying to find a countdown in time before noticing that it was already 00:01. Then I started freaking out at the fireworks outside still happening past 00:10, when, really, to my pissed caveman brain, it should’ve been over and done with by then. Then I spent the next 2 hours ranting to my friends about everything and nothing and going to sleep slightly depressed way past my bedtime.

Needless to say, it was a great way to start the year!

Happy New Year guys and I hope it’s a good one for all y’all.

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(spoilers for Bandersnatch coming up)

just watched bandersnatch

it was rlly cool watch it guys if you haven’t

if you have keep reading for spoilersss:::

idk if there are multiple endings that you have to get by playing it several times, but I got the ending where Stefan gets the toy back, is in time to go with his mum on the train, and they both die (presumably) as it fast forwards to him in the chair at Dr Haynes’ office dead and they’re all like whaaat how did he die he was just sitting there so yeah that’s cool

i assume that i could’ve gotten a different ending by jumping off the balcony instead of colin, or not following colin, or killing dad immediately (i went through several different timelines before i ended up killing him)

idk