[evilslayr]

#EVILSLAYR. incredibly low activity and decently selective ASHLEY J. WILLIAMS of the EVIL DEAD franchise. canon compliant as far as the movies go, but i'll be doing my own bullshit otherwise. cursed by SPENCER ( 24 | they/them | audhd | mst ). heavily affiliated/single ship with @doktorwest.

[evilslayr]

happy pride to this fucking guy

[doktorwest]

full mug of coffee remains cold and untouched, focus unwavering as vibrant gaze remains fixated on storyteller to his left. emotionally distant at best, it had surprised herbert how much ashley's words seemed to affect him; an inherent and intentional cruelty enveloping every aspect of this story. left hand quietly reached out for right wrist at one point, curious as to what that must have felt like in the moment. insensitive. maybe it's something he'll be able to ask about later.

the question he does manage to ask is an important one, of course, for someone always curious about how far the human will is capable of bending before breaking. however —and, herbert is starting to realize this may be the norm— williams surprises him with the answer. a fact that carries a certain weight in and of itself.

❝ you may have been a bit lucky, yes, mr. williams, but based on your own statements i don't think you're a coward, ❞ green eyes soften slightly, a rare absence of harsh judgement in the doctor's tone. ❝ your experience sounds... torturous, to say the least, ❞ —and fascinating— ❝ but a coward would have let himself die in your place, they don't often think about the consequences of their actions. ❞ like myself.

[evilslayr]

IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT. HE'S NOT CONVINCED THAT IT EVER WILL. suddenly morose, ash casts his gaze to the darkness of the hallway beyond the kitchen. ' think you're the only livin' person who holds that opinion, west, ' he says. ' everyone else is pretty damn sure that i killed 'em all myself. ' if he closes his eyes, he can see the headline from the tattler the week he came home clearly, like it had been printed directly to the backs of his eyelids: CABIN CARNAGE! Local man accused of killing sister and friends! with the clearly deranged suspect in custody, they'd swept the entire property and beyond. they sent dogs and volunteer groups that dwindled with each unyielding search. there had been no remaining evidence. no blood. no bodies. the perplexingly barren state of the alleged crime scene had done little to convince the denizens of elk grove of his innocence, however.

in this heavy stillness, ash waits for ridicule, waits for even the man who'd called him in the middle of the night to assist in subduing an honest-to-god-reanimated mutt in his basement to knit his brow and call him a lunatic; a nutcase; a murderer.

the doctor never flinches. this guy's about as crazy as i am, ash thinks, and not for the first time tonight. he swallows thickly.

' . . . that's not the worst of it, really. ' he's still not looking quite at west but just past him. ' the worst came when i woke up alone in those woods again. i could barely see straight, but i still had to find a way around the bridge if i wanted to get outta there, so i dragged myself back up the path —it was hardly a path anymore, whole forest was fucked— but i'm pokin' around, and . . . ' he shakes his head. ' i get up there, doc, and the bridge is just fine. ' a shaky, disbelieving laugh. ' i mean, days ago, it looked like somethin' had just pried it apart, y'know, like a drawbridge— ' he demonstrates with his hands, ' but there i am, staring at that rickety fucking thing like nothin' ever happened to it. '

ash sinks into his seat a bit, drags a hand down his face. ' i'unno how long i was out there, just standin' in front of the bridge. it was like i couldn't move. all i could think of was cheryl. my baby sister, beatin' on the dirt and wailin' about how the woods wouldn't ever let her leave. ' he finally looks at west, eyes verging on glassy now. ' whole time, it had been some— some trick to keep us from tryin' to leave. knowing i could'a gotten her outta there was —is— the worst feelin' in the whole world. '

[electricraccoonincident-deactiv]

– Louise Bourgeois, detail from 10 am is When You Come to Me (2006)

[lustcannibalism]

ok I endured it. now what!!!!!!!!!

[earthen-were]

the pull (2016?) 🏹🩸

stoneware, glaze, coated wire

was reminded recently about this ancient piece from my high school days (💀), but I surprised myself with how much I still like this one.

[notmorbid]

the change.

dialogue prompts from the change: animorphs #13 by k.a. applegate.

i am human. partly.

don't hide stuff from me because you think it'll hurt my feelings, okay?

i can't handle you feeling sorry for me.

you know, how you think of me is sort of important.

are you lost?

have you ever heard the saying, 'the enemy of my enemy is my friend'?

it sounds complicated, but you get used to it.

have i ever mentioned that you are extremely cool?

just keep running this same direction. don't stop.

i remember when you were fun.

i was never fun.

it makes me sick when you take risks i can't take.

i would give anything to go in your place.

you can open your eyes now.

i'm not going to be left out. not this time.

humans invent all sorts of things that are not true.

i guess everyone has problems, right?

you heard me? i was trying to be quiet.

it's good to have someone to talk to.

someone or something is using me, and i don't like it very much.

no one is going to use me.

you don't look like a _____ to me.

why stick me with this job?

what am i, some kind of hero?

i have to go for a while.

i don't even know if anyone looked for me.

what the heck is happening?

oh, man, am i glad to hear your voice.

i'm hungry, and i'm tired, and i'm mad.

you can relax. we're all here to help you now.

i'm not exactly the same as i used to be. i've changed.

come on, you big baby. say it.

you should never be singing anything. i've heard you sing.

i have the feeling we're on our own.

are you going to whine the whole way?

i've had about all the close calls i can stand for one day.

a predator is never angry, just hungry.

any day i stay alive is a good day for me.

this isn't their place. it's ours.

i hope you haven't lost all that anger.

would it be wrong for me to say i love you?

you're lucky i'm in a hurry.

i don't want pity. not even yours.

if somebody's nice to me, i'll totally fall apart.

i'm the same as ever. i really don't want to talk about it.

i'm just feeling sorry for myself.

i just need a good night's sleep. i'll be fine in the morning.

have i kept my promise?

are you happy?

[7bitter]

i keep my stupid heart WIDE OPEN at all times #myStupidHeart

[shockyhorror]

Bruce Campbell as Jack Forrest MANIAC COP (1988) dir. William Lustig

[evilslayr]

@doktorwest said: if you wanted to die, why didn't you?

' 'CAUSE IT WOULDN'T'A BEEN THAT SIMPLE. ' of this, ash is certain; death had come calling for the others far too soon for it to have put them out of their misery. he leans back in his seat, dragging a hand down his face before he finally meets the doctor's inquisitive gaze. ' killing us wasn't the worst that those things— the deadites— could do to us, and they were hellbent on provin' it. ' he'd seen it himself, he'd felt it, that all-consuming terror as something slammed itself into his body, thrashing and clawing and violent as it fought not just to subdue him, but to consume him. he could not see beyond the thick fog that suffocated him, could not hear beyond that hideous laughter, could not feel beyond indescribable agony. it had delighted in his suffering, would've been pleased to cling to what shreds of him were left for as long as it could've, forcing him to endure and endure and endure. he doesn't know what would've happened had the sun stayed hidden, if its rays hadn't punched holes through the inky darkness that bound him.

ash tries not to think about it.

' to give up and let them kill me meant handing my soul over on a silver platter. no thanks! besides, ' he continues, voice becoming low and distant, ' one of us had to make it outta there. all that couldn't'a been for nothing. i just-- y'know, i never thought it'd be me. ' it's quiet, suddenly, too quiet; the air around him seems to stiffen at the admission. ash clears his throat a bit, tries to shrug it off with a wry smile. ' i mean, from the jump, i was a total coward. when shit hit the fan, i just froze. scotty, though . . . ' gaze drops to the mug in his hand, the abyss of stale coffee within reflecting his grief. ' yeah, scotty was an asshole, but if he had just listened instead of stormin' out like that . . . well. i really do think he would'a made it. ' guys like that are meant to. ' selfish bastard had what it took. all i had was luck. '

[notmorbid]

maddalena and the dark.

dialogue prompts from maddalena and the dark by julia fine.

you're joking. you must be.

you must be desperate.

i am more like _____ than i care to be.

what do you want? what will you pay for it?

you're so experienced.

i'm trying to see what you see.

are you staying here?

for everyone's sake, you should do as you're told.

i'm not afraid of you.

we have a good life here.

it's not a better life. just different.

how could i not want you?

who would you be without the costumes, the artifice?

do you speak?

i want to be recognized.

the order can collapse, if we question it.

i could _____ in my sleep.

was someone singing?

i want someone to remember me.

there's no need to be so jumpy.

nothing is gained for nothing.

you knew where to find me.

only you have ever missed me.

do you trust me?

there's only so much sensation a body can take.

where do you go?

if you could have anything --- and i mean, anything at all --- what would it be?

you aren't what i expected.

i thought you'd be harder, shinier. does that make sense?

i've never felt more myself.

what men do, women can do, if they're given an opportunity.

it feels good to be chosen.

if you can't be the star, you might as well polish it.

what do you have to be afraid of?

what could stand against the two of us, together?

you're better than _____.

there is always the girl with the fire, and the girl warming her hands at the flame.

threes are for fairy tales. they unlock what's forbidden.

surely this place is still safe.

what appears effortless often requires the most work.

the stars seem close enough to eat.

you make me feel like what i'm doing is important.

look. then listen.

if you're going to sell your soul, at least know what you're getting in return.

who are you to feel sorry for me?

you'll be happy, i promise.

we all go home to bed, do we not?

you think i haven't realized what you're doing?

you only know as much as i do. don't pretend to know more.

try to be less obstinate.

if i cared about the gossips, i would die.

don't you have anything to say to me?

i can't get a read on you.

they can't prove anything. we've made sure of this.

you seem like you mean well.

is _____ so terrible?

you only ask for what you know you'll get.

you're nowhere near as charming as you make yourself out to be.

was it worth it? was it fun?

they're all staring at you.

i haven't prayed since i left home.

what are we to each other?

where are you taking me?

how much do you think you've changed?

does desiring something make it worthwhile?

i'm sorry i didn't tell you. i didn't know what to say.

you're not mad? or disappointed?

i was certain you'd be here.

you don't want to be anyone but yourself. that's a rarity, but also a danger.

if you want an angel, you don't want ____.

things don't look good for any of us, i'm afraid.

you're giving up on love?

what do i have that you want?

everything i've done is for you.

what is it like to be adored?

what is marriage like?

a person is capable of anything when they can hide behind anonymity.

such a place doesn't suit you.

i never imagined you told me everything.

we'll have everything we wanted.

you know the rules are antiquated, don't you?

_____ fooled us all.

what good is naming the fish you've caught to eat?

the risk amplifies the reward.

you are a light at which the moths will gather.

i need you, however i can have you.

pity is the purest poison: it goes quickest to the bloodstream, and works in all manner of ways.

i'm not angry. i'm tired.

what good is your promise?

anything that can hurt me already has.

you taste just like i imagined.

the space between submission and loss is so small.

[evilslayr]

kisses u?

who are you again

[notmorbid]

all the little raindrops.

dialogue prompts from all the little raindrops by mia sheridan.

hush. i'm here. you're safe.

someone has to let go first.

how long do you think we've been here?

i don't know what to say.

what did they do to you?

i survived it. i'm here.

i still talk to _____ in my head.

people rarely catch me off guard.

do you want me to tell you a story?

it's not too late to do the right thing.

i won't leave. no matter what.

i won't leave you. not for a minute.

i can't forget. i want to.

i feel like i could sleep for eternity.

you're whole. you're here.

shhh. it's okay. you're safe.

i'm glad you're not alone.

we need to stop this. it's not right.

there's always a dirty cop somewhere waiting to be bribed.

you're taller than i remembered.

i'd know you were near, even with my eyes closed.

you look good. damn good.

that's the first time i've said that, even to myself.

i think it's fair to say we see the world differently than most people do. for better and for worse.

i prefer to be on my feet, moving. working.

are you dating anyone?

you could explain, to the right person.

lying to you feels like lying to myself.

we can make new memories to replace the others.

breathe. look at me.

i feel empty when i'm away from you.

you know. living the dream, as always.

i appreciate you listening to me.

forgetting helps for a while, but then it doesn't.

where there's evil, there is always money.

most things are just a matter of time.

you made me feel welcome. loved.

what really kills me is that of all people, you should have known what that would do to me.

'complicated' doesn't even begin to cover it.

you are the strongest person i've ever known. find happiness.

funny, the things your brain files away without you even knowing.

i was really sorry to hear what happened to you.

you don't have to explain anything to me.

apparently you have a few more layers than i've imagined.

you could sell ice cubes in a snowstorm.

you deserve to feel young and dauntless. just for a little while.

we said we were never going to talk about that.

i wish i had something to throw at you.

if you wanted to die, why didn't you?

i would do anything to protect you. haven't i proved that?

you knew me and loved me anyway.

you became one of the monsters you claim to hate.

i help those who can be helped. i'm quite good at it.

if i have trust issues where ______ are concerned, you'll kindly understand why.

we're together. we can handle anything.

no one can save you if you aren't brave enough to save yourself.

noncompliance pays off, in the end.

i know what it's like not to feel. it's no way to live.

you need someone. why not me?

at least one cup of coffee before i'm conversational. preferably two.

[evilslayr]

sneezes loudly

[evilslayr]

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