HAPPY 13TH NINJA-VERSARY!!!
YES I FINALLY FINISHED THIS BITCH AND JUST IN TIME TOO LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-
I REALLY tried putting a lot of effort into this one despite my crippling motivation ;v; sure that would mean pushing myself a bit too hard for this one which is what I did here and ended up stressing myself too much but I refused to just make this as plain as the last anniversary drawing I gotten to draw last time, I REFUSED TO!! NEVER AGAIN!!! YEEEEE
I’m SO glad I got to actually make SOMETHING for this special day for this special show.
And I not only got this drawing for it but also a long message. Yes, I wrote a little something too because I couldn’t help myself..
go ahead and read if you want. /nf
(Tw!: few small mentions of Suicide and SH. I get VERY personal here)
Rc9gn is honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me, a big special part of my childhood and life in general. I still remember the first time kid me watched the first episode back in grandma’s house, the theme song and intro had me immediately interested and hooked on the show for the next years that passed as I grew up.
I had searched it up on the internet lots of times, saw such cool oc’s that inspired me to make my own, read fanfics (yes they were x Reader’s lol. Randy used to be my first ever childhood crush. I did also make some of my own before-), played some of the games, and so much more. I unfortunately never got to have like merch or anything like that of it and not even today thanks to my parents not allowing it but even so, I never stopped loving the show then and today.
Not only did it become my favourite kids show from Disney XD of all time but it helped me so much through hard and dark times I struggled with during my life at school as a shy teenager who barely communicated with anyone and was even kinda made fun of by a few classmates due to my ‘weird and cringe behaviour’ (this was when I didn’t know I had autism yet), making me develop a fear of being judged just by being myself. (Unfortunately still have that fear today)
At the start of the age of 13, I had tons of horrible thoughts in my head. So many insecurities I gained and still struggled a little with today, tons of suicidal thoughts everyday. All that started because of that god damn middle school that I had to go to after having moved houses with family so many times. It was hell. I felt like no one really understood me no matter how hard I tried to explain myself, not even my own family who I just felt like a big disappointment to. So I just kept it all in and suffered in silence for as long as I could remember. Fortunately, i never actually attempted ending my life completely despite having these HUGE secret urges to do so, mostly due to fear of actually dying, tho I may have almost succeeded on cutting myself that one time, almost. Basically, my self esteem was almost none existing at this point.
But I had something to give me ton of comfort, make me happy, feel safe. And that was no other than rc9gn, with the beloved duo Randy and Howard becoming my number one favourite and comfort characters. I never thought that a show that was obviously meant to be for boys and have some bad jokes like the fart jokes would be the one thing that would pretty much save my life from despair but here we are. And man, am I so grateful it did. I ended up a lot in ‘fantasy world’ cuz of it as a way to escape the harsh reality-
Today, nowadays, I still kind of struggle with my self esteem here and there, especially now with my own identity that I’m kinda questioning right now and knowing how my family isn’t really…supportive…. Of these sort of things doesn’t make it any easier. But I have this show to help me keep going, remind me that there’s still some good in life despite the hard dreadful challenges and problems I still have to face sometimes. It has a special place in my heart and it’s stuck in there for good. But I wouldn’t have it any other way…
Thank you for everything you have done for me. For giving me joy, laughter, hope, inspiration, creativity and a lot more. Thank you for the comfort and support during my dark sad times, for distracting me from putting an end to myself, to give me a reason to keep on living. Thank you for such cool characters I ended up loving so much, always putting a smile on my face whenever I see them or just hear or see them being mentioned even if it’s only once. Thank you, thank you soooo much for being this super bruce, honking fantastic, awesome show that has changed my life forever and ever in the best way possible.
Thank you for saving me, Randy Cunningham 9th grade Ninja. I love you so much, with all my heart and soul and my whole entire being. 💓 💖💕💞
…..Yes, I am still very much attached and obsessed with this show and I don’t regret a damn thing. I may not feel proud of myself most of the time but I’m proud to be a die hard fan of the ninja show. So what if it still only has 2 seasons till this day?? That ain’t gonna stop me! NINJA FAN FOR LIFE!!!
Two other versions here, one only with logo and one without anything,,