bringing back the words means bringing back the times i felt them. but it's different. i feel like i conquered something
11/12/18
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bringing back the words means bringing back the times i felt them. but it's different. i feel like i conquered something
11/12/18
I don't know where I went. but I remember where I came from. I know where I am now. I don't know how I got here. I don't know exactly where I'm going.
but I think i’m going somewhere great
Sunset Beach >< Aurora
Before I start, I want to thank each and everyone of you lovely people for the comments and feedback about my first blog. I’ll try to stay consistent with this, but there will come a time where it’s hard to come up with new ideas. Anyways, have a great day! :D
Identity is something we all have. Whether we associate ourselves with a certain group of individuals. Or our preferences and beliefs. Identity is arguably one of the hardest things you can change about yourself, it’s always there, whether you like it or not. There are so many underlying factors that effect our identity. In other words, I like to think Identity is like a portfolio. It shows what you may have done, and also highlights and it forms new relationships.
Sunset Beach was something that I talked about in my last blog. I didn’t elaborate about anything about the server, and only gave a taste of what the people I have personally met are like.
Sunset Beach has gone through many many changes. Some good, and some bad. But it’s a very historic place which brings back loads of memories, whilst making new ones.
The server was owned and ran by a person called Plasma. Plasma was a very kind individual at first, and it seemed like he was very PR oriented. He put a lot of effort into Sunset Beach, and I’m thankful and grateful that he put his hard work into that server. It’s rare to see such a passionate owner.
He tried his best at everything, he was a natural genius at coding, I wish him the best with his future endeavours.
One of the main things he wanted to changed about his server, coming into February, was to make Sunset Beach a lot more like a community. His plans was to reduce the amount of members to only to the people who talk and actually use the server. I actually agreed to this idea. And so did many others, but there was also a group of people who didn’t disagree. They had a fair argument, but I think it was definitely a smarter decision overall to purge around 600 people until there was only 100, active members left.
This wasn’t easy. There was a lot of drama with this “controversial” decision and the actions and events that followed on. Which I won’t be discussing about. But it eventually got to the point where Plasma was facing some irl problems and couldn’t carry on with the plans he desired to do.
Young lad scotty :b: decided to take the challenge of changing the identity of sunset beach into something a lot more modern. At that point, people were sick and tired of the drama and wanted something new and fresh, and that is what they got.
However, I don’t think the Sunset Beach vibes haven’t fully worn off yet. I feel like there’s that light at the back at the room where you can still see. You still acknowledge that it’s there. But you can’t do anything about it. The memory will live on, but the flag that we lead behind will not.
It’s sad to see something so iconic as sunset beach being replaced with something new.
But I like the Scotty regime a lot more huehuehue
Although I don’t really like the name change, Aurora is one in a million. It’s a lot better now then it was like a couple of months ago. And it’s nice to finally see new faces as well as old faces popping up.
I want to thank Aesilk and Scotty for putting their hard effort into the server. And I’m glad we still have the server around.
“In the social jungle of human existence, there is no feeling of being alive without a sense of identity.” - Erik Erikson
Thank you for reading, - 31confidence
Young lad Scotty :b:
Discord Friends
I’ve been on discord for quite a while now. I’ve formed enemies, friends and all sorts of weird, tangled relationships. But today I’m going to talk about my discord experience from the beginning. So chin up, and get ready to read my experience!
So around last year around august, I was browsing through the internet, and minding my own business. Back then I only really watched youtube and wasn’t too big on social media. Because I didn’t really care, and it wasn’t the top of my priorities.
I made a discord account for a joke, because I lost a bet to a friend and “making a discord account” was one of the forfeits.
I named myself “HaAhSy” at first. It was the first 2 letters of my name, middle name and last. It was weird to pronounce, but I was perfectly fine with it. I remember using a site called “discord.me” where I found a lot of shitposting servers ~ which were very amusing and funny to me ~ and some community and youtuber servers.
I used to shitpost a lot back in the day, I was horrific. But I don’t regret all the funny moments I had and some of the relationships I’ve built up back then. But all things come to an end, and I kinda dropped off shitposting for a while, and started to become a lot more into community servers, since they were nice and friendly and most importantly, they were also welcoming.
I met one of my first friends on a community server which, I’ve forgotten the name of. But this person played an important role of why I’m here today and surrounded by the people I am today.
His name was cubeg. A 12 year old Israeli boy who had his moments, but he was a really good person at the time. He showed me to another person called Aesthetic. Formally known as Eden today :>
Anyways, Eden was a really tremendous person to hang around with. I remember the good old days where we used to mess around, and have a good ol laugh. I met people like bricks (furry), Eddie, and Moggy (emo sweden kid).
After a couple months of talking, I began slowly looking for a new server home. I’ve realised up until this point, that all the really popular discord servers were similar and I wanted something unique, and a real community.
I found Sunset Beach.
This is where I am right now. I’ll talk about the people who stood out from the rest, and my experience with some of them.
I think the first ever person I talked to was Nighty and Flammable. Nighty was an over-kind, over enthusiastic person who just loves everyone. Flammy was an edgy emo that was funny to poke fun at, and also mess around with. They both really mean a lot to me, and I want to thank them for all the fun times that we had together <33
I also met people like teacup. She’s one of the kindest, down to earth and probably the most well-rounded person I’ve met so far. She’s a real hero, and it blows my mind how people are so kind in nature, and keep this energy and kindness up for so long.
Speaking of kind people, I met people such as lamb, aesilk, spicy, sappy, Cameron (nonce) and Brad (fix mi touran kthxbye).
Brad truly is one of a kind. Lol, although I joke around a lot with him, and tease him, he’s one of the most consistent, and friendliest person you’ll know. He’ll never hold a grudge, nor will ever get mad at you. Hahah, It’s always a fun time when you’re with Brad.
Cameron has really dark humour, and the funniest person on aurora 100%
“The greatest gift of life is friendship, and I have received it.” -Hubert H. Humphrey
Friendships can be one of the hardest and challenging things that you can have today. Friendships build safety barriers, and develop your own personal identity, they build your morals, and help you through your highs and lows, they serve a bigger purpose today today then they did perhaps 50 years ago.
It’s always nice to have someone support you, it’s also nice to have a laugh sometimes, whatever state you’re in.
I hope you enjoyed my first “blog” thing. - 31confidence
"Do you feel no pain?" I only do when I hear those words.
fucks up with me? I’m not supposed to feel
History repeats itself.
But I,
Do not.
carelessly thrown into the fire. just to tell if it was burning. so many things wrong. so little words. where is everyone? where am I?
what the fuck, bro
who's there? is it me?
who are you? who am I?
yeah. whatever. I toss and turn at night. no, it's cool. I lose focus. haha, i'm doing great. my interests are deferred.
what?
kill my ears to kill my mind
PT
repeat. max volume. drown out the thoughts in my head. the thoughts on repeat. the thoughts screaming at me.
i can hear everything.
what do you want from me? stop asking me. stop asking me. who am I? what do I want? why don't I know? I don't know where I am anymore.
where have I gone?
who are we? who are we going to be? I'm sure we'll be great. just as great as you
10:07pm
nothing good comes expected. everything just happens. is that why ambivalence lurks? I can't put the pieces together. I'm not a master. at least not of my own emotions. y'know when you find a song that match your emotions perfectly? yeah. You're that song. Who pushed replay? Was it me? I'm looped on you.
i don’t feel like saying this to you
you were my favourite reason
and you left
nothing and everything changed.
10:41pm
this isn't even poetry anymore it's just fucked up words connected with profound feelings
you do you PT