trap kat

On my future freebanz shit

[detrillmental]

But you don’t hear me though………🤔

[peachpitgirl]

no sorry I can’t hang out I’m busy feeling nothing and then feeling everything all at once and getting too overwhelmed

[tattoogood]

[black-and-white-tattoo-social]

// FLORAL INK // 

[fairestisshe]

Of course one of my post popular posts ever (tho I'm no longer very active on here) would be drugs lol. Can't even lie though the picture is pretty dope

[fairestisshe]

just a little pickup the other day, i had to introduce a friend ;)

[yuzupool]

[askmichigan]

#southern Michigan problems

[jbwarner86]

Southern MIchigan? You mean this isn’t just a Massachusetts/Rhode Island thing?

[waggtoon]

Hold it, I’m pretty sure this is a Virginia thing too. How many states does this thing air in anyway?

[achievementoothaus-deactivated2]

We’ve got it in Ohio too.

[jenlog]

southern california

[afloweroutofstone]

North Carolina

[butchflirt]

Texas

[kuno-chan]

Washington

[smolviolin]

New York

[reverbpotato]

Connecticut

[chaosbuster-deactivated20160719]

dude i saw this shit living in fucking Ontario, Canada

[shishkababoo-deactivated2018121]

We have it in Florida too

[tabularojo]

New Jersey too, I’ll admit I thought it was just a local ad too

[fairestisshe]

Minnesota

[belle-ayitian]

Danielle Brooks | The Coveteur

[drunkreinhardt-deactivated20170]

Markiplier just became my favorite Youtuber

[stoppromia]

It is real.

[recoveryisbeautiful]

This is the truth.

[livehealthyandproud-blog]

My Experience with Lamotrigine (Lamictal)

   When I was in the hospital this past summer, they put me on Lamotrigine, (Lamictal is the brand name) an anti-convulsant that can work as a mood stabilizer in people with Bipolar Disorder.  I took it in the form of a pill (I don’t know if there are other ways to take it properly).  I’ll never forget my experience with Lamotrigine the first time I took it.  It had been less than an hour when I first felt its effects.  I was started out on such a low dose, I did not think it was possible to feel that much of a difference.  I told one of the nurses there how it made me feel and asked her if I was just feeling a placebo effect.  She told me no, that Lamotrigine often works very quickly.  I talked to a couple other bipolar patients in the facility if they had similar experiences.  They did.  One guy said his kicks in within a couple hours and he feels completely fine when he’s on it.  When he stops taking it is when he gets impulsive and brutally self-harms himself.  In the article “The Role of Lamotrigine in the Management of Bipolar Disorder” by Felicity Ng, Karen Hallam, Nellie Lucas, and Michael Berk, it states that “the absorption of lamotrigine after oral administration is rapid, complete and unaffected by food ingestion” (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2655087/).  So I am convinced that I was not imagining things when I first felt the effects of it. 

   It’s difficult to describe how I felt in words.  The best way I can describe it is that I felt normal and level.  I hadn’t felt that way in so long, I forgot what it felt like.  It was the biggest sense of relief.  My mood felt lifted just enough where I felt like I could deal with life.  I have been on Lamotrigine since (my dosage gets upped when my psychiatrist tells me), and it has improved the quality of my life immensely, that is unless I get a little alcohol in my system.  

   I was advised to not drink alcohol while on Lamotrigine.  I looked up online to see why not.  Depending where you look, alcohol can affect your body more quickly while on the drug and it can also worsen bipolar symptoms.  I have only drank a little at time while on the drug (up to three shots of alcohol in one night) but it has the potential to effect me drastically.  Before I was on any kind of medication for bipolar disorder, I felt happy when drinking.  I very rarely felt sad or empty when drinking.  I have been in good moods when drinking on Lamotrigine, but I have realized that I can be triggered extremely easily when drinking on Lamotrigine.  It only takes one instant to make me sad or mad to make me spin out of control.  I get ridiculously sensitive, cry easily, have a tendency to run away to strange and unsafe places, have persistent intense pangs of guilt, lash out on others, feel intensely suicidal, and self-harm.  The way I feel and behave when drinking on Lamotrigine is exactly the way I would feel and behave during depressive episodes before I was ever on any kind of medication for the disorder.  These episodes are dangerous and scary, and I know this but it is almost impossible to get out of them quickly, even with all the coping skills I have learned in therapy.  It sucks to not be able to drink socially, but I have had more bad experiences with it than good since I have been on Lamotrigine and I am realizing it is not a safe thing for me to do.  I’ve never been a big drinker, but I do like to go out with friends, and it’s hard for me to resist the temptation to drink when I’m out.  I’m still learning ways to convince myself it is okay to resist, that I must resist.  Being on Lamotrigine when not drinking has changed my life drastically; I know going off of it any time soon really isn’t an option for me.  It’s a tricky balance. 

[fairestisshe]

This. My story, from the hospital, lamotrigine, alcohol, everything !!

[bipolar2you]

That moment it becomes clear you’re hypomanic. Mental illness, or mental illest?

[freeasdawind]

[hopelxss]

x

[amberrosedaily]

[fairestisshe]

Luv me some #muva

[fairestisshe]

Just wanna get off work n get hiiiigh

[fuckyeahcomicsbaby]

[i-am-but-a-humble-frenchfry]

@nosetriangle for your project if you want

[feminismandhappiness]

even if vaccines did cause autism (which they don’t) wouldn’t you prefer to be autistic than to contract a deadly disease? wouldn’t you prefer your kids to be autistic rather than dead? autism is not the devil…

[ashleyyyyyylove]

That autism shit pisses me off so bad would you rather contract and incredibly deadly disease or have a learning and behavioral disorder that by the way with work and patience can be over come and my brother stands to prove that but you know what he doesn’t have mumps measles or small pocs. Thanks now sit down.

[alexander]

People act like Autism is bad, autism is an epidemic, Like autism is a disease that can be “cured”. Its a development disorder that when a person is given the proper environment can prosper and live comfortably.

Autism doesn’t spread. Autism isn’t abnormal. Autism isn’t an epidemic. AUTISM ISN’T A DISEASE/THAT NEEDS CURING.

[downergal]

as a black woman, my mental health is often overlooked and I’ve come to realize that the world does not sympathize with sad black girls. I’m trying to remind myself that my pain as much a part of me as it is to the pale girls we so often see romanticized. my struggle with depression is in no way invalidated by my skin color. I matter. black girls matter.

[vintageeveryday]

Prince Rogers Nelson freshman yearbook photo at Central High School in Minneapolis. R.I.P Prince!