Queen of the Void

@bipolarbuttercup

I'm here, I'm queer, I'm not coping well with the realities of life and I'd like a nap. they/them. bipolar side blog so I don't clog up my main. cw: depression, mania, psychosis, delusions, unreality, hallucinations, disassociation/derealization/depersonalization, all that good shit. Exclusively mobile. No offense but I dont trigger warn or tag things. Partially bc I'm on mobile, and mostly because the entirety of my blog is triggering. View and follow at your own risk my dudes.

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ephxmera-a

You feel like shit: An interactive self-care guide

“This is meant to be an interactive flow chart for people who struggle with self care, executive dysfunction, and/or who have trouble reading internal signals. It’s designed to take as much of the weight off of you as possible, so each decision is very easy and doesn’t require much judgment.”

I hope this might help some of you struggling lovelies out there!

howilearnedtocope

This is kind of a choose your own adventure style prompt. It will ask you a simple question and then give you advice based on what option you select. I like the fact it asks only one question at a time, so it’s not cluttered, and they use a large, readable font with simple language. This is perfect for days when I have a really bad flare of symptoms from my TBI.

miss-nj-writes

Just remembered this exists and it helped me into a better place tonight. Reblogging for anyone else who might need it

hussyknee

The most basic, intractable fact about mental illnesses is that you simply cannot willpower your way out of them. The only exceptions to this rule are the ones I have, which continue to disable me due to lack of determination and other grave personal flaws

wovi

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sandra cisneros

visit-ba-sing-se

I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle and it hurts but some pain is normal, right? Everyone says it's supposed to be hard. It is a marathon after all. I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle but honestly it could be worse, right? I heard someone once finished with a broken leg. The ankle is nothing compared to that. I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle but you can get used to pain, right? The body can endure almost anything. The problem is always the mind. I am running a marathon with a twisted ankle but I made it this far, that means I can keep going, right? Everyone says it's supposed to be hard. It is a marathon after all.

nonaferatu

This would have had me crucified on tumblr 10 years ago but maybe we are ready for this conversation now:

If you are a socially anxious person, you have to socialize. Your panic/anxiety attacks will only get worse and trigger more frequently if you constantly avoid contact with The Public. Not saying that you need to be a social butterfly- but there is a genuine problem with not being able to order your own meal at a restaurant. And it cannot be solved by always having someone else do it for you.

This is a PSA to about 3/4s of the Portland Youth populace

nonaferatu

everyone who reblogs this and is like "I ordered my own tea this week" or "I only barfed once when I had to give a presentation'- you are doing amazing sweetie. Have patience with yourself, you are relearning a skill so difficult that people get 4 year degrees to do it professionally.

vintage-tigre

Art by Worry Lines

slyandthefamilybook

purely balanced

stuckinapril

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

selfworship

covid-safer-hotties

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she-is-autiblogging

sometimes abuse victims will think they were/are not being abused. sometimes abuse victims will think it's okay they were/are being abused for whatever reason.

sometimes abuse victims will insist to others that they were/are not being abused. sometimes abuse victims will insist to others that it's okay they were/are being abused for whatever reason.

in fact, leading a victim to believe that what is happening is normal and fine and even good or righteous for whatever reason is a common feature of abuse, whether the abuser did it on purpose or not.

if an abuse victim in your life...

questions whether they were abused

goes back and forth about whether they think they were abused

tells you they weren't being abused, and then later says they were

...these can all be very normal parts of living with abuse trauma and don't mean someone is lying or exaggerating about being abused.

teaboot

^^^ These are all things I struggled with for years! Still sometimes I have days where I think "it wasn't THAT bad" or "I had it coming" or "but they're not bad people"- but it was still abuse! It still happened, and it was still bad, and even if I DID do something annoying or bad to make them WANT to treat me badly back, that doesn't mean it was okay!

It's difficult to accept, but impossible to move on without accepting.

grundoonmgnx

Nick Barlow, Clusterfuck/Keep It Together, 2022

Oil on mountboard, 81 X 81 cm

shopwitchvamp

Babe, are you okay? You reblogged Nick Barlow’s Clusterfuck/Keep It Together again

greelin

wdym i have to keep going

thickness-protection-program

memory-of-stargazing

“It just means you have to work double as hard as most people!”

Well maybe I don’t WANT to work double as hard as abled people!! Maybe I deserve a BREAK!! Maybe I’ve been working MORE THAN double as hard for MY WHOLE LIFE and it’s led me to immense burnout & caused me to develop several MORE disabilities!! Maybe I should be ACCOMMODATED so I don’t have to KILL MY BODY AND BRAIN over trying to do what abled people can do!! Maybe I DON’T have to work double as hard!! Maybe if there’s the option to let me NOT work double as hard, I should have it, because I’m already working double as hard JUST TO SURVIVE!!

Why do you think disabled people deserve less rest than mentally & physically abled people?