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i failed again

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i just compared a progress pic with a pic from like 4 months ago and the difference is so obvious it's crazy, i was feeling so unmotivated but im so ready to keep going now

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its so fucking hard to have a crush and constantly tell ypurself youre not skinny enough to like them

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im fucking losing it over fucking food like i literally need this to survive but im here sobbing like a fucken crazy person because what because i ate are you kidding me this isnt normal

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genuinely so afraid to eat recently

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crying over my breakfast because i have to have breakfast

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ive officially lost 10 pounds which seems crazy written down but idk why i feel kind of discouraged right now because i feel like i look the exact same. body dysmorphia going crazy i think i even look bigger than before. im so distraught i wanna be skinny im so close to being in the 120s ugh this is driving me crazy.

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what are some of yalls safe foods ?

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today was my only day home from a busy week and i kinda ate a lot and am regretting it so lets see if ill feel better if i look at it written down

- pancakes

- small seaweed snack

- strawberries grapes and melon

- party mix leftovers

- 3 tbspn of ice cream (idk how much it was my brothers left overs)

oof that did not make me feel better. i had hella tea and water though ugh i hope i wont hate myself tomorrow

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what i ate today :

- slice of grilled vegetable pizza

- passion fruit green tea boba

- some bites of a cheese corn dog

i ate more than i expected to today and felt bad and bloated so i wrote it down to make me feel better and i guess i do kinda

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im starting to get used to the hunger, eating less than needed, not having a full meal for days at a time. its coming back its getting so addicting. i have to keep pushing i gotta keep going this is finally happening. im finally myself again. this time i can do more i can go further i know it

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how to ignore hunger pangs

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shaya thinspo

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when you wake up weighing more than you hoped so that sets your mood for the day and makes u feel gross and fat and then you get home after a long day and end up losing weight XD