✞ Nagito

✰ free to pursue, he/she/they vampire landmine.

[fangedhope]

warnings: mentions of obsession, possession, st4/lk1ng, $h, 3d, this is a yandere & jirai centric blog, and it serves as a vent & diary blog too. viewer discretion is advised. (block me if uncomfortable.)

➔ .☘︎ ݁˖ Nagito ⌇koma ⌇komaeda ⌇ the servant ᐢ..ᐢ

⇵ asian ⌇ pangender ⌇ femneumasc terms ok⌇ queer ⌇ vampkin ⌇plural 🦇 he/they/she ⌇yan4yan ✿

✦ extended info ⌇yan types ⌇boundaries ⌇pronouns.page 🩸

➣ bpd, audhd, depression, you don't need my entire list of disorders just know that I'm mentally unwell and sometimes act before I think. tone indicators and open communication appreciated.

irl yandere, landmine, life style jirai ⌇free to pursue if 20 and up.

minors may interact, no dms unless it's necessary.

dni: basic, radqueers, harmful transIDs, pro-c paras, syscourse please spare me of that hell I don't care what people do, it's not my business.

[fangedhope]

Goodnight everyone! I have a headache and I don't think it'll let me sleep at all but I'm going to try regardless, despite the recent hiccups, I've grown to enjoy having this blog and the chance to meet so many wonderful, eccentric and unique people all with their different stories to tell, personalities to show, I'm deeply grateful to have met you all even if we're not friends, or are just complete strangers, it had been a long time since I've felt genuinely happy meeting new people as that's a rarity for me, due to my social anxiety and all. I hope to see you all at another time. (this is NOT a su1 note, so sorry if I have accidentally made it sound like that) goodnight, and I wish you all a peaceful night.

^ I don't have a gif of me waving so I will use soda instead!

[fangedhope]

.☘︎ ݁˖ I will tear you to shreds if you dare to think about talking to other people! you're not allowed to do that!

[fangedhope]

adding decor later

I see trends all over social media and I naively think "wow! if that many people are able to afford this, then surely it must be ridiculously cheap?" the joke's on me, when the labubu craze was still happening I read the price tag for several of them just to see why people are obsessed with these keychains, THEY COST HOW MUCH? a SMALL keychain like that does NOT need to be expensive?????????? then I realised that most trends only appeal to rich people so then that pissed me off lol.

[fangedhope]

.☘︎ ݁˖ if I was an animal, what kind of animal would I be? I'm curious.

[hpdamechan]

idk why anyone would ever want to be autistic this fucking sucks

[fangedhope]

a list of graphics I made for @/mrbdgrlstr! here's all of them! I'm proud of the work I've done here so I'm showing it off!

[fangedhope]

.☘︎ ݁˖ you wouldn't complain if I stored your precious blood in a vial for safekeeping would you? I need every little bit of you.

[fangedhope]

all this app does is hide when people answer my own asks so now it makes me look an asshole for not replying 😭😭 I promise I'm not just asking and leaving, I don't get notifications for asks, not even asks I get on my blog

[fangedhope]

? my phone rebooted itself when I opened @deusyagami 's blog

[fangedhope]

for the ask game!!

19. share some intrusive thoughts you have?

31. what flower do you associate with love?

37. have you ever had to move on from a beloved?

38. do you consider yourself a hopeless romantic?

45. have you done anything manipulative to your obsession? if so, do you regret it?

Ask game

hope I don't sound corny with this one because I'm trying not to, lol.

ok so. I hope I DON'T get judged for this, these days I've had intrusive thoughts involving a young relative of mine due to how poorly they were raised, they slam doors shut which greatly stresses me out as I'm unable to handle loud noise, they're disrespectful, they never listen to me when I order them to do something (i.e no misbehaving), so there have been times where I've had thoughts about wanting to ki/ll them, I don't ever act upon my intrusive thoughts and this genuinely makes me feel like a horrible person as this is just a kid. but they keep stressing me out so much. (last note: intrusive thoughts and impulsive thoughts are not the same)

pink roses over red roses any day!

yes. I've had to move on from an ex-beloved as he told me himself to stop harassing his girlfriends and force them to break up with him, this was years before I discovered my bpd

yes!! I love everything romance related, I want to dance along with a partner, go on lovely dates, have them recite and write poems to me, take me to shows, write me love letters, buy me gifts, I'd craft them gifts in return, cook for them, read for them and snuggle with them to tell them how much I love them.

pattern of manipulation was common for the previous host and I have to fix his mistakes to this day, but I also do sometimes fall under manipulative behavior when I don't mean to, I can't pinpoint an exact time where I was being manipulative as my memory is pure fucking garbage. do I regret it? I do regret his actions as it cost us friends and it was ANNOYING. having to clean that shit up <- annoying as in I'm upset with him

[fangedhope]

5, 17, 22, 40 for your recent ask game. I hope you are well, mutual. (For some reason it only lets me send this without dividers...)

Ask game

Hello light, yes I'm doing well! sorry if I made you worry, I tend to be paranoid a lot, don't worry about it but I appreciate you checking up on me, as always you're so kind! /p

"5. how would you like to be treated in your relationship?"

I often daydream about having a partner who disregards my own well-being, and is abusiv3 towards me but if we're talking about reality, I want to be treated like a decent human being, for someone to be understanding, loyal, patient and loving towards me, but I'd also like for them to be as possessive over me as I am with them, I want them to journal everything they've collected on me, erect a statue or build a shrine in my own image, I want them to show me their jealousy and over-protectiveness! kinda threaten me sometimes too, but that's optional. ideally, I would want them to express their love for me in various ways, for them to be a little direct or aggressive with their love approach such as drowning me in their affections with continuous I love yous or pet names. (I also REALLY love people who are shy or nerdy as it gives me somewhat of a desire to control and keep them to preserve their essence and assume a protective role.) and I also love people who aren't as direct or aggressive but still make it known to me that they love me. I'm not picky! if we vibe, we vibe and that's what matters.

"17. what is the ideal outcome of your romantic relationships?"

as corny as it sounds, maybe marriage? I don't care if the marriage is real or fake I just want to be someone's househusband someday, I'm also good with kids so we can adopt some, I don't plan on having kids biologically, not because it makes me dysphoric but because I can't give them part of my DNA in good faith as I don't want them to be tainted by someone like me. so I'd much rather adopt. or have a partner be the one who carries the child instead of me.

"22. have you ever written a love letter? if so, what did it say?"

I haven't, I don't like my handwriting

"40. what makes you happy when you’re alone?"

it honestly really depends, realistically anything can make me happy, food makes me happiest the most.

[fangedhope]

Hii 👋🏻 :)

4. what songs do you associate with obsession and love?

Ask game

Sorry, I'm not entirely sure. hope the answer doesn't disappoint you, I'm not exactly the most creative person /gen

[fangedhope]

11. Most irrational fear of yours?

12. Early Bird (aka Morning Lark), Night Owl, or Hummingbird?

13. Dere type?

14. Favorite scent?

15. Eggs or Bacon?

ask game

Great question! unfortunately I can't answer this one as it's far too dark for tumblr and I don't want any bad actors to take it as an advantage to use it against me as I'm easily paranoid.

a bit of both depending on my mood, some days I prefer to sleep in early when I can, some days I prefer to sleep in late, most days are tied to distractions, if I'm particularly engaged with something it's more likely that I will lose sleep over it, some days I struggle with sleep just in general.

I'm not sure..! I wouldn't classify myself as a tsun nor dere dere, it has to be something else?

vanilla! I love vanilla and flowery scents like lavender or rose!

Eggs, I don't eat bacon unless it's turkey bacon.

[fangedhope]

I don't like how my pinned looks and I'm too tired to work on it.. If anypony would like to help me organise this mess I will be grateful.

[fangedhope]

Just fixed it!

[fangedhope]

this is lengthy but it's important to read!

.☘︎ ݁˖ Names

I use the names nagito, komaeda, koma, servant and the servant, I'm also asian and english is not my first language! mistakes are bound to happen!

.☘︎ ݁˖ On Nicknames

I LOVE nicknames! feel free to give me any! just not anything demeaning or inappropriate.

.☘︎ ݁˖ Caution

I'm not roleplaying as nagito komaeda! I view myself entirely as him and I feel uncomfortable seeing others who are sourced from him in any fashion, follow me (they may still interact), it will be an immediate block. (friends I consider close are exempt from this.)

however, I don't condone harassment, I will never go out of my way to talk shit about those who are also nagito or harass them, similarly, I will never force a mutual to stop interacting with someone just because they're also nagito, it wouldn't be healthy and honestly? it's not my business who you speak to!

selfshippers of him, casual fans of him, those who are simply using his name, those who are using him as a theme may feel free to interact with me and follow me.

that being said, please don't start treating me like an anime character, I'm human in case you forgot, lol?

any attempts at armchair diagnosing me with whatever condition or disorder you believe I have due to my identity being connected to nagito will also result in an immediate block with no acknowledgement, I'm not delusional! period.

.☘︎ ݁˖ On behavior

I have mood swings that change rapidly alongside some anger issues, persistent boredom, prone to paranoia (which I may act upon) and chronic emptiness it's difficult for me to stay entertained for long as I will inevitably get bored of it, and this also includes people, please don't take it personally, you don't have to reduce your role to a jester just to keep me entertained, talking to you would be more than enough.

I have a terrible memory, I tend to repeat things, forget things don't take it personally if I repeat the same thing to you over and over

I have an awful habit of saying things too straightforward or too blunt and people misreading it as me being "rude" I'm not rude, half the time when I do type something, I do it with a neutral tone, I don't like beating around the bush I will tell you something directly as is.

my behavior may read a little as "two-faced" and this is only true for people who have seriously wronged me, such as two of my ex-fps, family or old friends of which you will sometimes see me talk shit about, I never talk about someone's character in such a way unless they themselves are downright evil. trust me when I say this.

sometimes I act before I think and it has caused me trouble times and times before, I also have a habit of saying the wrong thing without realising it until much later or when told, let me know politely if I have done something to offend you or make you uncomfortable, I promise it's not on purpose at ALL. (autism)

I'm prone to distractions a lot, which makes me take a really long time to reply to others messages or comments wise, this would even extend to how I also reach out to mutuals and interact with them, I promise I don't hate any of you, I just get distracted way too easily, you may feel free to spam me in dms if we already have one open if you want to redirect my attention back!

Similarly to the point above, I get overwhelmed just as easily as I can't handle speaking to too many people at once in short periods of time, it stresses me out greatly, I will still try my best interacting with everyone, I wrote an-in depth post about it here read this post if you see that I didn't follow you back as it explains why.

I'm oblivious, a little too oblivious if you have an interest in me whether platonic or otherwise I will most likely never be able to tell, lol. I miss out on friendships because of this, you'd have to resort to telling me straight up

lastly, please don't let all of what I've shared scare you from talking to me, it takes a lot for me to genuinely hate someone, even if you mess up and apologise earnestly I will not pin it on you, I'm intimidating <- I've been told by several people that I'm intimidating, that's not true at all

.☘︎ ݁˖ On Asks

You may feel free to send me asks out of a whim or genuine interest! I love talking about myself, my friends, just don't send me anything sexual it will be ignored without acknowledgement, similarly, if you have an issue with someone I'm following and you have drama with them don't drag me into it unless the person is genuinely fucking evil in which case I will not answer the ask itself on my blog but I will silently block them and move along.

.☘︎ ݁˖ Interests

for animals I love horses, cats, dogs, rabbits, sharks, sea creatures, foxes, ferrets, hamsters, skunks!

I do sometimes cook, nothing too fancy, I don't have the greatest luck when it comes to cooking but I have been told before that it tastes good, I do it as a hobby, I also do some baking when I'm in the mood for it.

for coffee I sometimes go for something foamy, these past few days I've been having black coffee as I love the bitter taste.

as for music, I listen to anything! I have a preference for classical music and music that is repetitive in melody!

I love vampires and everything that has to do with them whether story wise or aesthetic wise!

I love zombies, stories that involve viruses or infections

I love stories or stuff that involves the supernatural, haunted objects, abandoned buildings

I also happen to like syringes, bandages anything that has to do with nurses aesthetic wise

I sometimes read / watch bl and gl I love queer stories quite a lot!

I love jfashion, lolita and gyaru subcultures (agejo, kogal, hime lolita, hime gyaru, sweet lolita, nurse lolita)

I love stuffed animals especially ones with pastel coloring, muted colors or soft texture

I love sanrio! my favorites are hello kitty, cinnamoroll, Pompompurin, dear daniel, charmy kitty, kuromi and my melody, with a preference for hello kitty, kuromi and cinnamoroll!

I'm a little bit into astronomy! not to be confused with astrology, astronomy is the study of the stars, galaxies, planets, moons and anything else that exists outside of earth, in space!

I'm also an artist and an editor, I don't draw as often, but every other thing that you see on my blog here was edited by yours truly.

.☘︎ ݁˖ Self ships

Junko enoshima (idol) (queerplatonic) I'm a follower of junko enoshima, I worship her and I'm entirely devoted to her, compared to the other f/os I have, she's the only one I consider to be an idol.

Hajime Hinata (romantic) (no surprise there)

[fangedhope]

My yan types, to be honest I'm not entirely sure if these are accurate so I chose based on what I believe is accurate to me. I may add onto this if I find another yan test that intrigues me!

open, direct, intense, agreeable and controlling (50/50)

reverent, delusional, honest, strict

delusional, dominant and submissive (50/50), manipulative, lethal