wish i were skinnier

~pics aren’t mine unless specified~5’5 HW: 160 lbs (spring ‘17) CW: 146 (sept ‘20) GW1: 140 GW2: 130 UGW: 120

[be-artistic-deactivated20230306]

[illbeathinboy]

having an eating disorder means that meal planning/calorie counting/etc and daydreaming about being skinnier become your only hobbies. its your life, its all you think about. everything else fades to the background.

[not-thin-enoughh]

realization

i can imagine all i want about how my life will be better once I’m skinny and how I’ll be happy and whatever but i am 100% more motivated when i picture a month or 3 months from now and still weighing this much. when roundup weekend comes and i can’t wear the cute tennis skirt and crop top i ordered to the frat parties. formal rolls around and my dress doesnt zip because i gained. summer. SUMMER. tanning but feeling self conscious with your friends bc you didnt loose the weight and you are still fat in your old swimsuits rather than skinny in new ones. imagining being this weight in the future is way more terrifying and motivating than imagining being skinny for me.

[richist-deactivated20150511]

I’m trying to get back to my original weight of 6 pounds and 11 ounces

[sickly-blooming]

[oknope]

“summer is coming..”

[ohnoregrettio]

Restaurants Safe Foods Masterpost

Food from my master post, this is just so you don’t have to scroll through the whole thing if you didn’t want to on my masterpost

A&W

Applebees

Arbys

Bojangles

Burger King

Bj’s

Carrabas

Cheddars

Chick-Fil-A

Chilis

Chipotle

Chuck E Cheese

Cici’s

Cracker Barrel

Culivers

Dairy Queen/Orange Julius

Denny’s

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Fire House Subs

Five Guys

Fuddruckers

Golden Coral

Hard Rock

In and Out Burger

IHOP

Jasons Deli

KFC

Krispy Kreme

Little Caesers

Krystals

Logans Road House

Long Horn Steak House

McAlisters Deli

McDonalds

Movie Theaters

Olive Garden

Outback Steak House

Panda Express

Panera Bread Co.

Papa Johns

Papa Murphys

Pizza Hut

Popeyes

PF Changs

Red Robins (yuUUMMM)

Ruby Tuesday

Sonic

Steak and Shake

Subway

Taco Bell

Texas Road House

Tim Hortons

Waffle House

Wendy’s

White Castle

Zaxbys

[skintied]

rebloging because i keep losing this

[sophncherries]

Things I wish people understood about eating disorders:

1. Most people with eating disorders don’t literally starve themselves, they restrict. Just because you see us eating doesn’t mean we’re getting better.

2. The horrible, absolutely torturous feeling we get after we eat. No matter what it is, how many Calories… it’s always there.

3. You. Don’t. Have. To. Be. Thin. To. Have. An. Eating. Disorder. God someone needs to scream this one from the top of a building.

4. It’s life consuming. Food is always on my mind.

What I’ll eat next, when I’ll eat next, how I’ll burn it off

5. I can’t just ‘snap out of it’ and I can’t ‘just eat’

These are two of the worst things you can say.

6. I understand what my disorder is doing to me mentally and physically, believe me I do.

♡

[32-kcals]

7. It’s not a fucking diet

[patheticgay48]

8. We don’t have to be working out 24/7 to be considered mentally ill

[waydownbelow500cal]

9. Some days we can eat a whole bar of chocolate and some days we have a breakdown over a single apple slice, it’s not all black and white.

10. Not everyone with an ED has anorexia or bulimia, in fact, BED is the most common ED. 

[strawbabii]

11. this isn’t for attention :)

[king-decay2]

12. it’s not just cis white girls

[too-fat-to-die-rn]

13. shaming us for it or making us feel guilty won’t make us stop, it makes us isolate ourselves even more, making the disorder even worse. we know we’re hurting people. we know. that’s the problem.

[hatebeinglonely]

My whole eating disorder feels fake

Like, I’m not even a bit skinny

[littleluni]

[z-e-r-o-friends]

reblog this if you started worrying about your weight before you were 16

[gargoylegutz]

[darling-im-starving-blog]

At least I’m not at my SW anymore

At least I’m not at my SW anymore

At least I’m not at my SW anymore

[skinnymeliwish]

!!!!!!

[skinandbonewishes]

S k i n a n d b o n e w i s h e s

[underscorespider]

if you often like or reblog my posts i 100% remember your username and mentally go “oh yes friend” every single time i see you in my notes or on my dash 

[brokencaloriess]

thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin thin

[99g0als]

thigh check, they only look ok from this angle but even here my brain is telling me they look huge hghfgfg