Weight Loss Progress

I'm sick of being overweight. Start weight: 138.1kg Current weight: 73kg

[sugarfree-and-green-memes]

Big oof

[fattyrambles]

Prozac and Willpower

It's easy to say the antidepressant/anti-anxiety pill I have started taking has improved my life in a lot of ways. I finally found the get up and go to leave a terrible job and start a new one that will at least pay me properly. I've even been offered an amazing new job in my field starting in 2020.

So why do I feel a bit defeated when I step on the scale?

Because when I stepped up there a few days ago and saw 78kg I nearly had a panic attack. For my height, >77kg = overweight. I can't get fat again. I refuse. I've weighed myself since and I'm sure it was a bit of period bloating/time of day/other factors so 75.7kg is more accurate, but it was a wake up call.

Between the old job and the new I'll have just under 3 weeks to work on this (amongst other life admin). So I'm going to work hard to refocus and get back into good habits before I have a new routine to adjust to.

Would love to keep my downward momentum but if that's not possible then I'll settle for the maintenance window I've been comfortably living in for the last year+

[fattyrambles]

150

I have an idea.

I've fallen off the healthy eating wagon over the holiday and birthday period in early January so I was sitting and thinking to myself about what my goals are since it always helps me to know what I'm working towards. Then I checked over My Fitness Pal and realised I'm at 849 days in a row of logging my food and exercise intake. So that means if I start tomorrow (which always seems the best time to start 😑) then I can set a goal and have 150 days to achieve it. And wouldn't you know it, 150lbs is around about my goal weight (68kg). So that lines up rather interestingly, too...

So, team, I think that's what's next for Fattyrambles. 150 days to get down to 150lbs in time for 1000 days in a row of tracking. I'd put myself tentatively around 74kg (~164lbs) at present due to said bad-eating so this means I'll need to average over 1kg a month loss to make it. I have 5 months to do this and here's hoping I can hold it together.

I've stopped drinking quite as much since I settled down with a serious boyfriend but I'm still making poor food choices more often than I want to. I need to refocus big time and I hope this self-challenge can be the kick I need.

Wish me luck!

[fattyrambles]

Welcome, Resolutioners

January at the gym. I stand and watch my usual arm and leg machines be swamped by new, fresh faces. I'm not one of you anymore. I'm not a newbie at the gym trying to figure out which way is up and how I'll convince myself to come back tomorrow and the day after that.

I feel, in many ways, like I've come full circle. This is the first new year that I can remember where I have not had "lose weight" as a MUST on my list of resolutions. Because I don't need to. I am a healthy weight. I cleared the overweight BMI in January of last year and have stayed under it ever since without having to absolutely kill myself at the gym because I've finally learned the right eating habits. I feel like my brain is finally catching up with my body and that I'll be able to keep this up.

2019 will be my year of maintenance and strengthening. Already psyched watching my little biceps when I flex my arms and how I actually HAVE an ass now thanks to squats and floor work.

Thanks again to the vsg surgery, it saved my life.

[fattyrambles]

Been a while since I posted but was feeling motivated by some old pics so I thought I'd post some new ones. I had my 2 year VSG surgiversary on October 5 this year. Been maintaining around 71-74kg (156-153lbs) for the last 6 months and working on muscle toning. Yes, there's loose skin. No, I will never look like a fitness model or have a flat tummy. But I'm still so grateful I made this decision.

[fattyrambles]

Gained Weight

Started taking birth control about 3 weeks ago, not sure if it's just a coincidence but have been snacking like crazy ever since. Hard to say how much is in my head and how much is a result of the hormone shift but it's like my willpower has evaporated. I need to refocus.

Back up to 73kg or so. Can feel and see a noticeable little gut forming. I need to get my act together fast. Before it's too late and I start letting my defeatist mentality snowball and gain it alllll back. Mental health fucking sucks right now.

[harmony-is-happiness]

[fattyrambles]

Ran The 5km

Aaaaaaand beat my best time! Did it in 32:54 and probably only walked about 1-2min of that in total.

I'm really proud of myself and what I achieved. The morning of the run was freezing and rainy but I dragged myself out of bed and made myself go for it and I'm so glad I did.

Knees are a little sore in the aftermath so taking it a bit easy this week but keen to get back into gym and classes next week. Gonna lay off the running for a bit, I think my body is a little unforgiving at the moment. Hoping to focus back on strengthening muscles and the rest should hopefully follow.

[livinglowercarb]

[ilove2loveme]

[finding-avalon]

“Don’t be so thirsty for validation that you drink from every cup that is handed to you. It is the best way to get poisoned.”

— CKP, Finding Avalon

[fattyrambles]

I decided to run a local 5km at the end of August. Had to pick a race bracket and thought I was being super optimistic estimating as under 45min. Just woke up and decided to time myself and looks like my benchmark time is already closer to the 30! Feeling great but keen to see how much I can beat this by. Stay tuned for August 26.

[fattyrambles]

It’s so easy to forget how far I’ve come and to tear myself down with negative words. I can’t even recognise the person on the left anymore. I’m a new person, inside and out.

VSG 5 October 2016

[thegoodvybe]

[fattyrambles]

Bit of a spiral

So, fam, looking back on my last update post things were going so well for me... They've taken a turn. That guy I was seeing ended things, work has been a drag and my eating has been really rubbish the last 3 weeks or so.

I never thought I'd be the type to let a guy's actions affect me so much but after only 5 weeks of "dating" it still definitely has hit me a lot harder than I expected. I think I'm emotionally eating to get through it and that just makes me so frustrated because I know eating poorly and getting fat again is the exact opposite of how I'll find someone to love eventually. Ugh.

To top things off I lost my virginity to a friend of mine whilst drunk. At least it's out of the way now but it still feels kind of hollow that I waited all these years specifically with the holdout that i should at least care about the guy only to get drunk and just yolo it. Life is tricky like that.

The only silver lining to all this is I've been making some Kickass salads and I've been going to PT once a week and I'm starting to feel stronger and stronger. Just gotta quit my snack game and I hope I can get myself back on track. Peace.

[fattyrambles]

Life Is Good

Hi WLS fam!

Quick update to let you know life is going very well at the moment. I'm consistently losing weight again, getting myself to the gym regularly and... trying not to count my chickens here, but I met this lovely guy and we're sort of going out! Also just changed gyms so I have access to much better facilities as well as free classes like pump, pilates, spin etc. so very keen to start getting involved in those.

Start weight: 138.1kg (304lbs)

Current weight: 71.8kg (158lbs)

Total loss: 66.3kg (145lbs)

Things are really looking up :)

[fattyrambles]

General Update

Hey fam, so nothing too crazy to report here. I was having amazing momentum and the very DAY I hit my goal to leave the overweight BMI behind is the day my brother flew home from the UK to surprise me and stayed for about a week. It was so, so good to see him, and he'd last seen me in person just a little less than my start weight, I'm guessing, so it was great for him to see how far I've come. But, there was an entire week of abandoning the wagon and drinking and binge eating followed by a week of PMS chocolate absorption that threw me out of my routine. The salads and meal prepping and gym behaviours I'd worked so hard to cultivate with my sister this year all fell by the wayside and I'm only just picking myself back up. I definitely gained back 2kg or so and put myself back to being overweight which makes me feel sick. I worked so hard for this and I will NOT go backwards. So now just working hard to keep under my calories limit (1200) and getting back in the gym habit to undo some damage and try to get my butt back in gear to lose these last 10kg. I'll weigh in this week but not optimistic I'll see a loss again for a while. Need to work through my shit.