fckimsosorry

my blog where I wallow in my trauma because I know nothing else

[perrfectly]

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[grapefruit-punch]

Reminder: Those who turned themselves in to the psych ward are just as much victims of the system as those who were forced. We are fed so much propaganda that people who admit themselves might genuinely think it could help, especially people who have never been around people who have been admitted or like 4000 other factors that might convince them its a good idea. Victim blaming them gets us NOWHERE as a community.

[fckimsosorry]

I think it's really problematic to suggest that psych wards don't help. I think it's a monumentally terrible idea to deter people from a last resort option.

If you have an uncontrollable urge to harm or kill yourself, then someone should be watching over you and getting you to a point where you aren't an active danger to yourself (or others).

I admitted myself to one a week after I tried to overdose my senior year of highschool. I am so grateful for my time there. It gave me the time, resources, and space I needed to not be in a place where I was actively going to harm myself.

Now, don't get me wrong, there are terrible psych hospitals, and I drove an hour and a half away so I could admit myself to a better one. There 100% be more oversight on facilities and more research into treatment effectiveness and care. But I think it's very unfair to say they aren't needed.

[lylylylylylylylyly]

[paper-wounds]

[traumartist]

sudden flashbacks.

[fckimsosorry]

I turn 22 at midnight and I am so fucking suicidal that I might just spend my birthday in the hospital or just fucking dead.

[qenopsia]

where do i click

[junglejim4322]

Sorry I didn’t reply to your messages I was busy being that one homie that’s not gonna make it

[anxeious]

[shirleyjacksonism]

"I come home - and I have a feeling of returning like a ghost to its haunt."

Katie Maria // Sharp Objects // Bonedog, Eva H.D // Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal?, Jeanette Winterson // The Early Journals , Virginia Woof

[hel7l7]

It all feels so fucking empty now

[flowerytale]

Margaret Atwood, from The Blind Assassin

[saltair-and-webweaves]

and bless the daughter but fuck the family

it lingers for your whole life - katie maria/the sun is also a star - nicola yoon/the lost girls: a poetry collection on girlhood, grief, and growing up - lyra wren/crush - richard siken/unknown/on earth we're briefly gorgeous - ocean vuong/ @emmajadepaige/stick season - noah kahan/promises of gold - josé olivarez/matilda - harry styles/susan smith - wych elm/tangerine - nolune/#6 - aroara/right now - gracie abrams/love & a loaded gun - emily rose cole/someday I'll love - ocean vuong/ @parentless-suggestions/unknown/the burning - venetta octavia/you can love him but you can't keep him - @pencap/a poem from the adult daughter to the narcissistic mother: not your fault, not mine, just is - katherine fabrizio/courtney love prays to oregon - clementine von radics

[cowboylikesubai]

i woke up shivering from my dream this morning (it had you in it)

@/heavensghost on tumblr / unknown / richard siken / susan orlean / cool about it by boygenius / @/annalaura_art on tiktok / @/annalaura_art on tiktok / for your own good by leah horlick / the night we met by lord huron / richard siken / trista mateer / text: I thought id know you forever.. by Olivia Ruby - art: Watchmen by Dave Gibbons et al

[martyrborne]

Devotion: profound dedication, loyalty, or love for a person, activity, or cause.

To love like a dog. To give everything and receive nothing but table scraps. To always want more.

[dying-weeds]

[erzvolnes]

certain kind of tragedy i think in still following your childhood best friends online. like once upon a time you knew me better than anyone. i thought we would be friends forever. now we are Adults and Different and even despite that I so badly wish we could still Talk like we were 13. i dont know who you are. I miss you.