In My Feelings

The randomness in my head and in my heart...

[hushed-words]

“I would be happy if you were the last person I loved.”

— B. E. Barnes

[thepersonalquotes]

[feelsshewrites]

I lost sight of what I wanted, what I deserved, to settle for what you could give me....

[coral]

A concept is a brick. It can be used to build a courthouse of reason. Or it can be thrown through the window.

Gilles Deleuze, 

Thousand Plateaus: Capitalism and Schizophrenia (via coral)

[feelsshewrites]

You don't love me, you just love what I can do for you and how I can make you feel

SC

[feelsshewrites]

I was a fool for thinking you were different

SC

[thepersonalquotes]

[thoughtkick]

I will not beg you for your time or try to convince you to choose me, the world is too big and I have too much to offer.

Unknown (via thoughtkick)

[feelsshewrites]

Regrets

You should never regret anything that you did in your life. Mistakes and regrets often shape us into becoming the person we are. It may be something that you look back on and wish you had not done, but at one point it was exactly what you wanted to do or felt you had to do. We should never judge anyone on their past, because as the saying goes “they don’t live there anymore”. The only regrets I try to have in my life are the chances and the risks I did not take. Live for the moment, don’t overthink.....

[feelsshewrites]

When you decide to ACCEPT, life goes a whole lot smoother...

We often struggle with acceptance because we want for things to go a certain way and when they don’t, we aren’t happy about it. Accepting does not mean that you agree with the outcome or that you’ve given up, it means that you are taking things for what they really are, not letting it affect your life in a negative way, and moving forward. We can’t control people or certain situations, but we constantly stress about them. Acceptance can be hard but can be the first step in the right direction toward living a happier and more peaceful life. Let it be and I promise you will feel so much more at ease...

[feelsshewrites]

You understand me and you get me like no one else does. Even in my darkest moments and through the madness that takes place in my head, you are always there. I fell for you because for once, I feel that someone will catch me if I fall. Maybe I’m a fool for thinking this way, but I’ve never met someone like you. A soul that’s so understanding, so forgiving, and so warm. Please don’t ever leave...

[feelsshewrites]

Without you, it’s like nothing even matters…

[feelsshewrites]

When I’m with you, nothing else matters. Everything I was stressing about no longer seems to be important. All that matters is enjoying your presence and taking advantage of those short moments where I can pretend that you are mine.

[feelsshewrites]

You still have the most powerful yet the weakest peace of me; my heart...

SC

[feelsshewrites]

Reflecting...

I want to be a priority not an option. I want attention that's consistent, not just when it's convenient. I don't want fake love, I need real love. I want to be heard and not just listened to. I want for my feelings to be addressed and not dismissed. I don't want anything sugarcoated, I want honesty at all times. Don't try to spare my feelings, just keep it real. I don't want just the physical, I want the mental and emotional. I want to be irreplaceable and not just someone to settle for. I want something permanent, not temporary. I don't want half of anything, I want it all. I don't want to be the first choice, I want to be the only choice. I want time, not money. I want loyalty, respect, support, and unserstanding. & so much more...

[feelsshewrites]

You push me away, yet you won't let me leave...

SC

[feelsshewrites]

Rough day...

Today has been rough thus far. Some days are easier than others, but on this particular day I feel the daggers in my heart and I am fighting back the tears. I still can’t understand why things are the way that they are, but I know that the only way for me to find peace is to accept it, no matter what or how long it takes. I hate that I love you, but even more so I hate that you don’t love me...