hollowed out and filled up with hate

hello. The name's felix. it probably wasn't nice meeting you.

[felix--flint]

Wow, what a surprise. You’re not sorry about anything.

[flint-beaumont-deactivated20140]

What can I say? I’m shameless.

[felix--flint]

Good for you. I think.

[twinsrpt-blog]

I actually do, but I’m not sure if you wanna hear it.

[felix--flint]

Well, now I definitely want to hear it.

[twinsrpt-blog]

I beg to differ.

[felix--flint]

Do you have a story to go with this, or do you just expect me to believe you?

[twinsrpt-blog]

True. But there are other ways to taste good other than pouring Orange Crush on yourself.

[felix--flint]

But those probably aren't as interesting.

[flint-beaumont-deactivated20140]

I’d say I’m sorry… But I’m really not.

[felix--flint]

Wow, what a surprise. You're not sorry about anything.

[flint-beaumont-deactivated20140]

Cat got your tongue, kid?

[felix--flint]

Well, uh, yeah. 

[flint-beaumont-deactivated20140]

I think my working out is paying off. 

[felix--flint]

I...wow.

[alexander-browning]

I guess this works.

[alexander-browning]

I’m not sure. Probably not. It’s the fools who think their life can’t get any better, most likely. Only an hour? What do you do? Get drunk? Of course you’re meant to be happy, the intelligent minds are just hard to satisfy. Yeah, I guess.. They’re.. still my parents, though. I mean, I want to not care, but.. yes. Anyway, I hardly think they’d hate you for having feelings. Putting up a bitchy facade doesn’t always help you. But I totally feel that it’s easier and safer. It’s harder to get hurt if you don’t let people in. Well, you know I have feelings, as well. So we’ll have to keep each other’s secrets.

[felix--flint]

Yes. Exactly. The only way I can be happy is if I'm drunk. Actually, the only time i got drunk, it just made everything worse. So I'm probably not going to make that mistake again. You've always got a nice way of looking at it. Let me tell you, not caring about your parents will make you feel better in the end. If they're anything like mine, anyway. But feelings always get you into trouble, and then people start to not like you, and it's just a mess. Everything's always a mess. I just don't think I can handle getting hurt anymore. I came here to stop getting hurt, and I'm just scared I'm going to find someone else that's going to treat me like shit. At least we've got each other. Kind of. I guess.

[alexander-browning]

I guess this works.

[alexander-browning]

I think it’s actually that most people are too dumb to realize that it’s very hard to be happy in this world. Smart people are usually the unhappy ones. Let’s say they’re.. stubborn and, well, strict. And very, very closed-minded. Is that really true, though? Do you sometimes not wish people knew how you really feel, rather than have them assume you’re the cold-hearted bitch they think you are? Together? Well, that might be hard, because I already know your secret.

[felix--flint]

Is it even really possible to be happy? Because, I mean, whenever I actually am happy for once, it only lasts for a maximum of an hour. I don't think I was meant to be happy, really. I guess that makes me smart or something. Well, they sound stupid anyway. Well, they wouldn't really like me. And I'm not sure that I could handle them not liking the real me. It's just better that they dislike the stupid bitch that I pretend to be then to just hate me as a person. Yeah, I guess that's true. I really fucked myself over on that one, didn't I?

[alexander-browning]

I guess this works.

[alexander-browning]

There will always be stupid people when you can’t take it, sadly enough. I.. guess. I mean, I wouldn’t call them shitty. Just.. difficult. Must be some reputation if it’s one of not having feelings. Then again, perhaps most people think the same of me.

[felix--flint]

Yeah, I've noticed that. The world just hates us smart people, doesn't it? Well, I guess all parents are difficult. Were they just more difficult than the average parent? Well, it keeps me from getting hurt anymore. So it's kind of nice, I guess. We can just...not have feelings together.

[flint-beaumont-deactivated20140]

You should show me sometime. That’s how I felt when I worked in a bakery back home. I was so sick of pastries. I enjoy them now though.

[felix--flint]

Oh, come on. You don't want to see my stupid old drawings. Do you still cook? You should cook cupcakes or something for me. Maybe if I stop working at the movie theater, I'd eat popcorn again. But hey, at least it's a job.

[flint-beaumont-deactivated20140]

Only time can tell. Draw stuff, huh? What kind of stuff? Popcorn isn’t the worst thing you could smell like, trust me.

[felix--flint]

Wow, that's comforting. It's probably going to be a bad thing, isn't it? Well, it depends on what I'm feeling like, really. Well, that's true. But now I'll probably never enjoy popcorn ever again.

[twinsrpt-blog]

It sounds sticky, and makes me want to shower just thinking about it.

[felix--flint]

Hey, at least you would taste good.

[twinsrpt-blog]

I’ve heard of a fetish where people get turned on by having Orange Crush being poured on them.

[felix--flint]

Wow. That sounds...delicious.

[flint-beaumont-deactivated20140]

Cause you interest me, kid. I don’t know. Pick something. 

[felix--flint]

Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Well, uh, I draw stuff. And I work at the movie theater, which was stupid of me. Now I smell like popcorn all the fucking time.

[alexander-browning]

I guess this works.

[alexander-browning]

Of course I can, I’m not that stupid. Or, well, not really at all, I believe. I don’t believe you’re fucked up. And, yeah, I suppose I do. I mean.. when your parents don’t appreciate you the way you are, it does feel like some kind of emptiness. I won’t tell anyone you’ve been cheesy.

[felix--flint]

Thank God. I don't think I could handle another stupid person today. Well, you probably should, but I can't tell you what to think. Did you have shitty parents too or something? Good. If it gets out that I actually have feelings, my reputation might be ruined.

[twinsrpt-blog]

Yeah, obviously. Unless you’re some crazy person who has a weird fetish where they like drinks to be spilled on them.

[felix--flint]

Please don't tell me that's an actual fetish.