Mostly headcanon (buddie, firstprince, destiel, sterek, stucky (damn you, Not Easily Conquered!)) & other nonsense. Hashtags are the bane of my existence (sorry). Bi, she/her, old AF.
I want so to live that I work with my hands and my feeling and my brain. I want a garden, a small house, grass, animals, books, pictures, music. And out of this, the expression of this, I want to be writing. But warm, eager, living life ā to be rooted in life ā to learn, to desire, to feel, to think, to act. That is what I want. And nothing less. That is what I must try for.
Katherine Mansfield, in a diary entry dated 14 October 1922, from Letters and Journals of Katherine Mansfield
Yeah Mr. Darcyās proposal was a complete turd and a half but you gotta understand.
You got your life together. A good career, stable income, retirement plan, all that shit together. And you meet this girl. And sheās everything. Clever, outspoken, funny, calls you on your bullshit. Grade A cutie, right? And she doesnāt go out of her way to spend time with you but sheās nice, and sometimes you catch her looking your way in a way that makes you think you might have a shot.
But her family. Holy shit.
First off, itās p much ALL women, and mostly UNMARRIED women, which at this time means of something happens to her dad then youāre financially responsible for like. Four grown ass adults, potentially forever
Because mom in law is DEFINITELY gonna need someone to take care of her when dad in law kicks it, and they have like. NO money. So already youāre accepting that if all goes well, youāre gonna be one random old bagās retirement home. Thatās expensive and exhausting, yeah? Imagine asking someone on a first date knowing that if they say yes and things go good her high-strung chihuahua mother is gonna move in with you. IMAGINE.
And girlyās other sisters. Well, one is a sweetheart, yeah, and sheās getting engaged so she probably wonāt be an issue, but that still leaves two more, and those ones are INSUFFERABLE. Never went to school, dumb as rocks, spend cash like itās toilet paper
And while one of āemās young still and might grow out of it the OTHER one is actively torpedoāing her entire familyās reputation by wandering off with random dudes and chasing ass. Sheās never gonna work, she canāt build connections, sheās a fucking sinkhole, and sheās being led on by the same goddamn con man ass leeching tit whoās been bleeding you dry while telling anyone whoāll listen that your family is full of ratty thieving bastards.
And if he dumps her after a week- WHICH YOU KNOW HIS BITCH ASS IS GONNA- youāve got a SECOND UNMARRIABLE GROWN ASS ADULT TO PROVIDE FOR. And you KNOW sheās gonna be a tantrum-throwing little shit about it, and itās not like you can lock her in the basement or something, youāre gonna have to bring her fucking. Everywhere. And give her an allowance and shit while she contributes zero, because again, she NEVER GOT EDUCATED AND HAS NO MARKETABLE SKILLS. Sheās not even good to TALK to. FUCK
So youāre looking to the mom and finally itās making sense how she got that twitch in her eye and as MUCH as she is youāre starting to realize sheās the SMART one, desperately throwing her armloads of girls at random men like theyāre a bunch of fucking lifeboats bobbing around a sinking ship, like yes Jesus Christ sweetly that life boat IS old and ugly and kind of boring but for FUCKS SAKE PICK ONE
And you look back at this girl who is ALSO REFUSING THE LIFE BOATS BY THE WAY and god damn it sheās still the most radiant thing youāve ever seen so fine, fuck it, Christ alive, youāll do it. Youāll shoot your shot. Sheās everything youāve ever wanted in anybody abut itās not even just about that anymore, itās about being her best fucking shot at a future, and even if she doesnāt like you all that much sheās still gonna say yes and that might break your heart a bit knowing itās about the money but who knows, maybe it will at least be civil, or companionable, and even if she doesnāt LOVE you at least youāll know sheās well and cared for
And so youāll do it. Youāll take on the neurotic stress mess mother in law, the absent father, the broke ass wingnut no brain no money no future airhead sisters, the bad mannered relatives and the embarrassing behaviour and the impending future of sharing your entire shit with a clown parade of freeloaders, youāll risk it all and accept the absolute certainty of financial ruin and emotional exhaustion for the rest of your whole ass life and youāll make your own family deal with it too, youāll do it, youāll fucking DO IT, you stupid lovesick motherfucker
And so you go to this chick like ālook. Your whole familyās a shitshow. Youāve got fucking nothing and youāre gonna die on the street. But for some reason- and I donāt get it either- Iāve fallen in love with you, and I wish I didnāt, but I did, so Iām telling you that whether you like me or not, Iāll give you everything. Iāll give you everything even if itās the dumbest shit I ever done. Fuck my stupid Baka ass, Iāll marry you.ā
And she looks at you- having heard or considered absolutely none of your months-long internal debate and monologue- and goes āThe fuck did you just say about my family, you son of a bitch?ā
And the shock of that is enough to jolt you back into a reality where you are able to actually hear and process what just came out of your damn mouth
And yeah
Actually! Mary's fatal flaw in the book is she plays the piano unprompted and that was a social blunder. So Darcy would see her as an un-demure attention seeker with no manners. It's the victorian equivalent of taking every slot for the night at karaokee. It doesnt matter how good you are its still kinda a ballsy move.
in honor of buddie hitting 50k on ao3, i wanted to join the celebration and make a rec list of my own too, with some of my favourite fics that (mostly) have a little amount of kudos/comments/hits that i think should be appreciated more.
thank you to all the wonderful writers that carried us here over the years, love you all š«¶š«¶
a poem written by a ghost on a bathroom wallĀ by lifelessframe
The 5 stages of grief as told by the rise and fall of Buck and Eddieās relationship. Or the fall and rise. Grief is not linear, nor the same for everyone.
found a park bench for a throne by @rewritetheending
Set in S7, when Buck goes back to therapy and Eddie is there to comfort him after each session, much like Buck did for him in 5x14. They're friends, of course, but Eddie can only soothe Buck for so long before it becomes impossible to deny that they're also so much more.
all the blood that i would bleed by izzyonionberry
5 times Buck and Eddie almost dying brings them together and the 1 time it doesn't have to
donāt blame it on the alcohol (i love you sober) by kabnd
Eddie and the team wake up hungover in a Las Vegas hotel room with no recollection of the previous night, but amongst the clues scattered in their room, Eddie finds himself wearing a gold wedding ring. As the team makes their way through the city to answer the question āwhat the hell happened last night?ā Eddie is having an existential crisis and realizes that he really does want a ring on his finger, as long as itās Buck who gives it to him.
come by @absolutebuckery
Eddie's moving to El Paso, and Buck goes through the five stages of grief while sucking his dick.
It always leads to you (in my hometown) by graywyck
Eddie leaves Los Angeles, but everything keeps leading back to Buck.
itās just smoke (and you are melting everything about me) by sojinyura
Eddie has some very enlightening conversationsā¦ while fighting the literal itch to grow back a mustache.
the periodic table and the twisted pigeon by @themisally
In which Buck and Eddie do a little off-the-books detective work, a science project, and a lot of flirting.
Breathing You In by magicalzombiebear
Eddie starts smoking when Chris moves to El Paso, but now that heās back, Eddie canāt quite find it in him to quit.
Three Weddings, Imaginary Filing Cabinets, and Definitely No Funeral by bowloftomatoes
Buck and Eddie crash some weddings, Buck loses his grip on a metaphor, and Bobby Nash lives.
it was not my lips you kissed, but my soul by @cathcer1984
Buck comes with Eddie to El Paso. Eddie's family make assumptions about their relationship which they don't correct
imagine being loved by me by montygreenn
Buck copes with unrequited love by maladaptive daydreaming, buying Eddie flowers, and lying to the farmers market vendor about his imaginary husband.
Nurse One and Nurse Two Are in Love by @courtepointeclementine & @justonebigbee
Buck and Eddie watch Hotshots together every Thursday ā and spend all the days in between texting about their nurse characters.
I'd walk through hell on living feet for you by singomuse7
If you ask anyone else, Buck and Eddie have finally figured it out and are extremely insufferable about PDA now. If you ask Buck, he's just helping his very straight best friend out. Very platonically.
against red wallpaper. by hxvnsent
Eddie finds himself in poetry and figures out what he wants.
tell me how it feels (say it aināt so) by @lover-of-mine
Eddie hears Natalia saying Buck's death was cool and things spiral out of control from there.Ā OrĀ just what I've been calling the "Let's deal with Death & Taxes"
every time we stop talking (the universe starts screaming) by @anxieteandbiscuits
Buck gets reckless, eddie gets angry, they talk in all the wrong ways, and the universe decides to intervene
Wild Geese by lilacbarnes
Buck processes his feelings through writing letters and quoting Mary Oliver. When Buck falls into a coma, Eddie reads them.
Visiting Hours by Buddieya
Eddie visits Buck while heās in the hospital.
i wanna get stuck in your head (and maybe i'll be brave enough by then) by @usercowboy
a vaguely 5+1 fic in which buck and eddie are oblivious, they spend a lot of time in the kitchen, the plane does not crash, and buck and eddie figure it out because they always will.
And in-between, is never as it seems by cl0pin
Eddie plans to move to El Paso.
Everything is setāuntil he discovers that recent budget cuts have forced the El Paso Fire Department to close several stations and implement a hiring freeze.
Without a job with benefits, he and Chris are on the verge of losing their insurance. Thatās when Buck comes up with a plan.
Because really, whatās a little insurance fraud between friends?
find me in the water (swim with me to shore) by peachkissed
The one where Eddie leaves for El Paso and finds his way back home.
Do you remember? The very first time you kissed your best friend? (No) by mielydrama
Buck is gonna help. They are going to kiss for the sole purpose of him remembering. Nothing more. Doesn't mean anything. That's what a best friend would do.
self-destructive tendencies (and other love languages) by @absolutebuckery
Eddie picks Buck up, Buck is totally cool and normal about the whole thing.
A promise, silently made by inkpapers
December always forces Buck to confront his deepest fears and insecurities. But amidst the chaos of a Secret Santa, heartfelt confessions, and a few unexpected kisses, he finds the warmth he's been longing for.
If I Could Fly (I'd Be Coming Right Back Home to You) by AmberSunset
Eddie and Marisol break up. A therapy session with Frank helps Eddie realize that he already has everything he is looking for... with Buck. They decide to become Platonic Life Partners. Turns out it is everything they could have wanted it to be, and more.
Eyes wide open by ok555
Buck misses dick, Eddie has a dick
cherry top's by @gayhoediaz
Buck and Eddie have a late night conversation about, uh... milkshakes.
Ā so, hold me down and never let me go by buckstairs
Eddie is struggling after the well collapse. Cue to, his best friend Buck having his back, as always.
more fics i have to rec in honor of buddie hitting 50k on ao3 :) as always these are in no specific order, and i like what i like! so if you dont like one fic you probably wont like any of them.
Lip Locked & Loaded by rhodeys
e | 8.2k
Buckās hand slides up the length of Eddieās arm, his palm catching along the edge of Eddieās jaw. His other hand mirrors it, framing Eddieās face with a careful reverence, eyes flitting across Eddieās features, his lips the focal point.
āOne kiss." Buck's words are so, so soft, laced with the slightest hint of determination.
āOne kiss,ā Eddie echoes, eyes fixated on the dark seam of Buckās lips, the gentle arch of his cupidās bow. āSo I know.ā
āSo you know.ā
The same sweet shock as when Adam first came by @lacerta26
E | 11.5k
The thing is Buck is aware he hasānot a problem, per seāand it's never been this bad before, but he can get overwhelmed, quick to come but, crucially, quick to get it up again. He's always managed to make it work with his various partners, techniques to last longer, but with Eddie it's different, this part of their relationship is only three months old, and Buck wants him all the time with a fervor he didn't know was possible.
Eddie has incredible stamina and when he fucks Buck it doesn't matter how fast Buck comes, because Eddie will just keep going, fucking him through orgasm after orgasm until he's crying and shaking, used up and wrung out and still desperate for more. But on the occasions Eddie puts him on his back, ready to ride him, or bends himself over the dining table so Buck can watch his cock sliding into Eddie's perfect ass, Buck finds himself on the brink faster than he knows what to do with.
SwappedĀ by Coldbam
T | 12k
Eddie wakes up with someoneās arms wrapped around him. Which is very concerning because he went to bed alone last night, like heās done every night for over a year now.Ā
He scrambles out of the bed, completely ungracefully, landing flat on his ass in a room that is unmistakably not his own. His heart hammers in his chest as he tries to make sense of it all in his just woken state. He peers over the mattress, to the person that was holding him, and heās pretty sure his heart gives out all together.
āMaddie?āĀ
She yawns from the bed, not opening her eyes, curling further into the pillow. āItās too early, Howie, the alarm hasnāt gone off yet.ā
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Or, Eddie and Chimney accidentally swap bodies.
Above the fold by @andavs
M | 113k | 5 chapters
And they hadnāt even said a single word to each other.
āYou can, uhā¦you can call me Buck,ā he offered a little awkwardly through his PR smile, still plastered across his face. He was trying not to make it too obvious to the cameras that he was speaking.
There was a pause, long enough for Buck to think he already ruined everything, before he heard the regent offer back,
āEddie.ā
The rose garden at the end of the world by glorious_spoon
E | 36k | 6 chapters
There's a part of Eddie that's tempted to do something insane, something that'll absolutely fuck up this Eddie's day, if he's a real person with a real life that Eddie is just borrowing for the time being, and not an elaborate figment of his own subconscious. Something like hopping on a plane to Los Angeles, tracking down whatever version of Buck lives there now, seeing what happens.
He wants to know if Buck would smile at him again, without the weight of history between them. If maybe, in a different world, he'd want Eddie.
Or: in the aftermath of a deadly car accident, Eddie finds himself able to visit other lives he could have lived: other worlds, other possibilities, and maybe - just maybe - a chance to get things right.
Race to the SunĀ by Sungodlou
E | 5.4k
"Eddie," Buck sighs, "I'm serious. You don't have toā"
Eddie plants a hand firmly on Buck's bare chest and pushes him down onto the bed, rolling on top of him in one smooth motion, cutting him off with a long kiss pressed to his slightly parted lips.
"And what if," he pecks him again on the mouth, then on his cheek, his jaw, the soft skin just below his ear, "I just want you in my mouth. Just 'cause. What about then?"
or; The first time he gives Buck a blowjob, it doesn't go quite how Eddie thought it would
Read you like a book, sing you like a song by Sungodlou
E | 19.8k
"What are you up to?"
Buck leans in and kisses him soundly, thumb stroking over the nape of Eddie's neck. "Nothing."
"Buckā¦" Eddie warns.
"Nothing, I swear!" He laughs, "Just wanted to do something nice for you. Is that a crime?"
Eddie squints at him wordlessly. He's up to something. He's definitely up to something.
Eddie supposes he's going to find out soon enough.
or; 5 times Buck uses sex to get what he wants +1 time he doesn't have to
Melt and spin and fall again by @realreallove
E | 4.3k
He should have been relieved that he no longer had to hide, and he was. He justā¦ couldnāt find his footing. He was hallucinating an elaborate reality where he was a person Eddie Diaz held and kissed and took to bed.
Surrender my body to please you by Lacerta26
E | 10k
He's in bedāit's the middle of the afternoon and with Eddie at work he's sort of lazily touching himself with no real desire to follow through, not that it's working, his cock stubbornly soft under his left handāwhen it occurs to him; he's not been hard since he got hurt, not even an errant morning erection. Which isn't exactly surprising. He's been feeling like shit and he's not worried, sure everything will be back to normal by the time the rest of him is, but him and Eddie have sex a lot. Like every day a lot. Not always with all the bells and whistles, sometimes it's just lazily frotting together, still in their pajamas when they wake up, or quick handjobs before work but with his injury they've done none of that so while Buck's been moping and recovering what has Eddie been doing to take the edge off?
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Buck's broken his wrist and can't get hard - what new intimacies will he and Eddie discover in the wake of his injury?
Playing for keeps by Anonymous
E | 3.9k
āSo,ā says Buck, pulling away from Eddieās mouth. āIām living in your house.ā
āYou are."
āDo you thinkā I mean, I should do something, right? To show my, uh. Appreciation.ā
Eddie squints at him.
Keep you on your best behavior by Lacerta26
E | 6.7k | threesome
Youāre bi, right?ā Chloe says to Buck, raising her voice over the music playing slightly too loud in this bar.
Buck beams at her, it still feels fresh, an exciting thing to tell people, āyeah!ā
āWhat about your friend,ā her eyes cut to Eddie and Buck frowns.
āOh, no, he'sā.ā
āSure,ā Eddie speaks over him and Buck does an actual double take. Did he know that? He didnāt know that. He should have known that. Especially before they agreed to a threesome with this very pretty but totally random stranger.
Chloe is oblivious to his internal panic, it seems, although Eddie might have some idea, watching Buck closely, inscrutably, a smile ticking up at the corner of his mouth.
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Buck and Eddie have a threesome; it's more revealing than they might have intended. Or is it?
To roar by comsortegoya/@punksalmons
E | 9.3k
The Buck thing is new; or as new as anything can be, when Eddie and he have known each other for close to eight years. Eddie knows the face Buck makes when heās gassy, his favorite food (Bobbyās lasagna), the fact he canāt handle the usual heat of Abuelaās alcoholic salsa but heāll try eating it anyway. Buck knows Eddie well too, but not like this: ravenous, greedy, untiring, un-human. Heās careful with who he lets know that.
Buck has been intense about Eddie long before they kissed. Buck has also been pathologically accepting of everything about Eddie āfur in allā since they first became friends. Eddie knows thereās nothing he can do to, or show him, thatāll push Buck away; maybe thatās what scares him so much.
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Werewolf Eddie goes into his first rut since having started dating Buck. He can deal it with alone (he doesn't.)
Canāt think about anything else by @hyruling
E | 11k
Eddie wants him closer, as close as possible, wants him skin to skināand that should feel significant, probably. And the fact that it doesnāt feel significant should also be setting off some kind of alarm in his brain, but it doesnāt. It doesnāt feel new, only heightened; his slated list of reasons not to cross the line he didnāt realize heād been toeing wiped clean in his desperation.
celebrating 50K of buddie fics across two posts! here's a list of my own buddie fic, which I will follow with a post with recs for other fic that I love!
1) people will say we're in love E, 20k
The one where Buck confesses his love and Eddie suggests a queerplatonic relationship that rapidly becomes...not.
2) a colony of ants underneath my skin M, 20K
The one where Bobby lives, Eddie comes back, and Buck falls apart anyway
3) Firehose91: 4.9 stars M, 8.5K
The one where Eddie offers to help Buck improve his dating app profile and everyone at the 118 knows exactly where this is going
4) deep in the heart of texas M, 30K
The one where Buck goes to visit Eddie in Texas
5) castle me E, 4K
The one where jerking off together doesn't count for no-nut november and the rest of the 118 wishes they would just shut up
6) the madman in the attic T, 1.5K
The angsty coda to 9.05
7) a ghost in this house M, 10K
The one where Buck never quite managed to move into Eddie's house after Eddie moved to Texas
8) don't trip and fall in love E, 30K
The one where they're absolute freak4freaks who have sex with each others' exes instead of confronting their feelings for each other
9) all the boys dreamed that they'd be your partner M, 2.5K
The one that's five times Eddie wasn't so straight
10) almost a whole shift T, 1K
The one where even when Buck tries to daydream that first day differently, he can't make it casual
11) facing the competition E, 3K
The one where Tommy gives Buck a threesome with Eddie for their six-month anniversary and never really stood a chance
i've wanted to do a list of my all time favorite buddie fics forever, so this couldn't have come at a better time for me <333 (shout out to @thirdwheelravi for the idea for this fic rec celebration!!!)
as always, i'm keeping this short (or trying to) as to not be a mile long, but you can always check my fic rec tag and my 911 bookmarks on ao3 to see what other works have enchanted me. these all generally have a pretty high word count since that's my kryptonite, but trust the process (and trust me -- read them!!!)
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time after time by salt_tides (@eddieeddieeddieee)
47,060 words / one-shot / time loop, eddie pov, self-discovery, friends to lovers
Eddie finds himself waking up on the same day over and over again. Ignoring the issue doesn't help, and neither do any of Buck's ideas. So what exactly is he supposed to be fixing?
if you're only going to read just one fic from here, i NEED it to be this one. i was paired with this fic for the buddie big bang 2025 and i couldn't have been more happy about it, because in just one read this became my ALL TIME favorite 911 fic. incredible eddie voice and sense of momentum as the story goes, and it couldn't have used the time loop trope better. i'm a big fan of direct plot paralleling the characters' inner conflicts, and time loops couldn't work better for edmundo 'keeps going in the same circles' diaz. i love this to pieces -- and eddie too. go read it!!! artichoke <3
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love me gently (in the daylight) by thelonggoodbye (@hawkslonggoodbye)
67,337 words / 5 chapters / alternate season 8, post season 7, chris goes to texas, eddie goes through it, buck pov, emotional infidelity, (part of a series but can be read as standalone)
Buck doesn't know why he expects to be able to fix everyone else's lives. He can't even handle fixing his own.
Or: Buck learns to let himself be loved and spends most of his summer in Eddie's house. He isn't a guest, after all.
i can't even begin to say how important this fic is to me. it's a part of a series that individually follow christopher's, eddie's and buck's jorney after christopher's move to texas, and this entry (buck's pov) is single-handedly the reason i love season rewrites as much as i do. i would not have written it's only happy if you want, or boomerang, if i hadn't read this, and i do mean this. i love this fic to pieces and it's dangerously underrated. please read this!
About a week after starting back at the 118, and about three weeks before he was supposed to start getting a steady check again, Buck quietly moved out of his loftā
āand into his jeep.
the lawsuit fic of all time!!! i started reading this as soon as the first chapter was posted and it occupies suchhh an important place in my heart -- especially because it handles post-lawsuit angst (and buck whump) in all the best ways. one of my first things i commented on this fic was how i appreciated the way it wrote chim and hen being supportive of buck (or trying to), and that's the first sign of a good lawsuit fic -- a fair (and canon-compliant, btw) handling of the characters. this shows all the ways buck's trauma and insecurity makes him sabotage himself without needing to demonize anyone from the 118, and the focus it gives to buck and bobby is incredible as well. the platonic ideal of a lawsuit fic š
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you're a-bor-able, please never shut up by znks
7,085 words / one-shot / eddie pov, emotional hurt/comfort, past childhood emotional abuse, buck being eddie's #1 guy
Every time one of them would inadvertently - almost always jokingly - tell Buck to stop talking, Buck would.
the condensed form of buddie friend4friend. friend to lovers enjoyers go here RIGHT NOW! buck and eddie care about each other so, so much, and that's always going to be one of the favorite parts of their dynamic to me.
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muscle memory by daisies_and_briars (@cal-daisies-and-briars)
40,051 words / 14 chapters / memory alteration, character study, and i quote 'buck's literal worst fears surfacing'
After a disappointment in his personal life, Buck wakes up one morning to find everyone he loves has forgotten him completely. No memories. No recognition. Almost like he was never really there.
i needed to have a daisies_and_briars fic on here because they're one of my favorite 911 writers ever, and after a lot of careful consideration i chose this one because it encapsulates everything i like about their writing: really inspired concepts with incredible resolution. the second to last chapter of this fic will always be my favorite depiction of buck breaking-down.
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leave the light on (i'll be coming home) by hmslusitania
44,415 words / 7 chapters / presumed-dead!eddie, grief, getting together, angst with a happy ending
An accident on a call leaves Buck with custody of Chris after Eddie is... missing presumed.
While they navigate their new family circumstances -- and fight to stay together, despite Eddie's parents' best efforts -- a John Doe wakes up in a coma ward with no memory of his own life beyond the knowledge he has a son named Christopher and, somehow, he needs to get home.
i'm just going to copy-paste my ao3 bookmark for this one: š³ļøš the hole of grief. š« but then the delight of hope! yipee!!!!! gorgeous stuff.
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buried beneath by mxrvxl
7,457 words / one-shot / major character injury, self-sacrifice, (heavy!!!) angst with a happy ending
āAre you hurt?ā Eddie breathes, searching Buckās face wildly for any indication of why heās not talking, why heās not doing anything other than looking into Eddieās eyes.
āBuck, what-ā
Then he feels it. The warm, wet, sticky feeling seeping into his pant leg, and he looks down between them, sees the tatters of Buckās pant leg, sees the blood seeping between them, and sees the cause of all of it - the jagged edge of an old wine bottle, half embedded in the wound and half not.
Eddie thinks back to highschool anatomy. He thinks back to medic training in the army, he thinks back to hospital stays and x-rays and blood transfusions and he thinks back to Weston, the cheerleader with the open book fracture, and the fact that he could only thread the balloon for the REBOA into his femoral artery to save his life, because itās the largest artery in the body.
The largest artery in the body.
And Buck has just lacerated it.
i have recommended this before but IDGAF!!! genuinely one of the best pieces of angst out there and the display of absolute devotion between buck and eddie is sickkkkk.
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make it true by rotisserie_marie_chicken
23,115 words / 18 chapters / season 6, post-lightning strike, feelings realization, angst with a happy ending
Buck is about to drop it, but he notices that Eddieās fingers are turning white where theyāre squeezing each other. And Buck thinks, somethingās about to get punched.
āYou sure youāre not mad about something else?ā
āNot mad.ā
āāCauseā¦ Chim kind of thought you might bring me home. Keep an eye on me while I recover.ā
āNo,ā Eddie answers swiftly, āI was never going to do that.ā
THEE post-lightning fic. i love what it added to that arc, especially where it relates to buck trying to physically recover and a fallout to the sheer grief eddie was showing during buck's coma
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a distant echo by asplenium and quietlittlevoices
45,111 words / 5 chapters / season 6, post-lightning strike and coma, slow burn, unreality, unreliable narrator
Buck was told, after being struck by lightning, that it would take time for things to heal. That, after dying, he might not feel like himself again right away.
What he hadnāt been told was that he would start seeing his dead brother everywhere he went.
incredible concept and execution. i'd call this psychological horror, which i know can see very daunting to read to a lot of people, but i cannot recommend this enough if you want post-lightning whump. so, so good and totally underrated.
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a million little starts (you lyin' next to me) by idiotsinkdaisies (@idiotsinkdaisies)
13,829 words / one-shot / post season 8, grief/ morning, AND YET: bobby nash lives, mutual pining, buddie roommates, eddie pov
Three nights after Eddie moves back to LA for good, Buck sleepwalks into his bed.
(grief, change, and homecomings.)
maybe my favorite post-s8 fic ever. there's so many moments here that made my chest ache and my stomach flutter. lovely lovely eddie pov.
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the red means i love you by etoilegarden
20,714 words / 3 chapters / buck pov, ptsd, post-shooting, mid-season 5, heavy angst, suicidal ideation
Eddie's left the 118 and Buck is definitely coping with that.
from what i gather this was written during the season 5 mid-season hiatus when nobody knew that eddie was going to have a breakdown. buck is the one that gets one here and the slow spiral he gets into is depicted incredibly. really heavy stuff, but it just makes the comfort by the end even more satisfying when buck and eddie come together.
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where i walk alone by kermytheefrog
19,384 words / 4 chapters / soulmate-identifying marks, not actually unrequited love (and all kinds of love!!!)
Everyone knows that when you touch someone who's going to be important to you for the first time, you'll leave a mark on them. It's not just romantic love; parents and children, siblings, close friends all share marks too. At least, they do in theory. Maddie's the only person who's ever touched Buck and left anything behind.
my favorite soul-mark au EVER!!!! i love the idea of platonic soulmates and this fic does it incredibly, especially with the way it makes textually material in the plot all of buck's self-worth issues
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people will say we're in love by meriwethersays (@meriwetherwrites)
19,194 words / 3 chapters / E / post season 8, getting together (in the most chaotic way possible), friends with benefits in a way, platonic life partners to lovers, demisexual eddie diaz
Eddieās brain is still stuck on the fact that it would, it would be Buckāif Buck was a woman, or if Eddie liked men, it would be Buckā āIt doesnāt have to matter,ā he says.
āThe fact that Iām in love with you?ā Buckās voice sounds raw and his eyes skip away.
āNo, Buck, the fact that Iām straight.ā When Buck looks back at him, Eddie shrugs. āWe could just not have sex.ā
āWeāre already not having sex,ā Buck points out.
āNo, I mean that we could date anyway.ā
buck and eddie decide to be platonic life partners and then platonic life partners who have sex. this, of course, goes very well. read this oh my god!!!
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if night falls in your heart by allisonrw96 (@allisonrw96)
12,510 words / oneshot / post-shooting, ptsd, pre-relationship, buck whump AND eddie whump
Itās been more than six days.
Thatās the thing that Eddie doesnāt know and what Buck knows better than to tell him. Eddie was shot in the street four weeks ago and Bobby was shot in a fire a few days later and Buck can barely close his eyes without ending up covered in someoneās blood. Even when he doesnāt have a nightmare, he canāt seem to stay asleep. Heāll catch an hour, maybe two, and then the anxiety thatās thrumming nonstop through his veins will wake him with a vague but powerful insistence that somethingās wrong.
i loveeee all of allisonrw96's angst and this one is the perfect rendition of buck and eddie going through it in their own ways after the shooting. people who are broken down on their own and still try to comfort each other.
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every lie is true at the same time (baby, that's the thrill) by claryharry
12,894 / oneshot / E / post season 8, freak4freak, sexuality crisis, getting together, EDDIE BEING FUCKING INSANE!!!
In an effort to make Buck stay, Eddie has him blacklisted by every landlord in Los Angeles.
the amounts of time i screamed and laughed reading this was crazy, but not as crazy as eddie acts. read this!!!
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however i can gave you by anonymous
27,227 words / oneshot / E / magical acquisition of a vagina (TRUST ME), idiot4idiot and freak4freak at one go, love realizations, season 8
Buck finds himself in possession of a vagina. Eddie, because he's such a good friend, volunteers to help Buck--first to relax, and then to get his dick back. Because he is so nice, and a good friend, and straight!
the iconic buck-pussy fic you might have heard talked about. i cannot overstate how good this is, from the smut to the feelings. please, please give this a chance you won't regret it.
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imagine being loved by me by montygreenn
20,584 words / oneshot / maladaptive daydreaming, post season 8, dead bobby
Buck copes with unrequited love by maladaptive daydreaming, buying Eddie flowers, and lying to the farmers market vendor about his imaginary husband.
simultaneously more and less heartbreaking than you expect, but heartbreaking nonetheless. there were moments while i read this that i genuinely said out loud 'oh buck'.
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old habits die screaming by waywardghost (@vibecheckd)
10,232 words / oneshot + additional epilogue / season 9, post-dia de los muertos, pov alternating, grif/mourning from buck and eddie about bobby, abuela and, somehow, their own relationship
āYou donāt have to do that,ā Eddie says.
Buck shrugs. āYou also donāt have to smile at every person who says āsheās in a better placeā like that helps, but here we are.ā
The joke is soft, an opening. Eddie almost steps into it. āYouāve already done a lot,ā Eddie says instead, faster than he means. āGo sit. Or eat. Itāsāā
He hears it lining up and canāt stop it.
āāthis is family stuff. Iāve got it.ā The words are wrong the second theyāre out; he hears them like Buck must. Buckās hands still on the plate.
this fic!!! all of demi's s9 codas are amazing, especially in how they deal with buck and eddie's strange limbo-state post season 8, but this one takes the cake. both buck and eddie are allowed soooo much depth and internal conflict, and the conclusion, when they finally allow themselves to meet in the middle, is incredible. go read this!
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SHAMELESS SELF PLUG:
this year was my first one actually writing 911 fic (and fic in general really) and i'm really, really proud of i managed to do. my favorite fic to have ever written is probably going to be once in a long while for the rest of my life, but since that's not really buddie, i'm going to say my NEXT favorite thing to have written (right after my mpreg):
april showers by comsortegoya (@ meeeeeeee)
39,321 / 6 chapters / MCD, lab rats, grief/mourning, hurt/no comfort
Eddie is getting ready to bed when a sharp ache strikes him in the rib cage.
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Bobby doesn't die in the lab. Buck does.
my sick and twisted mind briefly became obsessed with the idea of buck dying in place of bobby in lab rats, and apparently a lot of people were willing to torture themselves alongside me because i surprisingly got sooo many wonderful readers when i first started posting this fic. buck is (evidently) my favorite character and i loved exploring all the relationships he has with the main cast and the absence i felt in the show of actually portraying the immediate grief over losing someone (i also wrote an alternate ending to this of buck's equivalent of alobby because if there's something i love more than angst it's comfort)
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i love LOVE buddie and the writers on ao3, and i want to say i big thank you to everyone who writes for this fandom. i can't wait for the next fics we'll get next year <3. enjoy your reading!!!
How incredible isn't it that we've reached this milestone! It feels like we just yesterday were watching the total tick closer to 10k, and here we are at five times that already!
Those who have followed me for a while know I've been doing rec lists of older fics, because fandom and rec lists tend to be more biased towards newer fics, which makes many incredible older fics fall through the cracks. But here I am again to happily shout out some of my all-time faves; some older and some newer!
a good day to be by @hetrez
50.3k, rated T
This will always be my first rec, I think, because I fell so head over heels in love with the longing, Eddie's headspace, and the perfect version of ballroom dancer Eddie before it was even confirmed in canon! Every time I finish it I want to immediately reread it again!
Like Any Unloved Thing by @hmslusitania
18.1k, rated M
Gorgeous, gorgeous urban fantasy noir with a worldbuilding that takes my breath away! Buck who is lost, and Maddie who can see ghosts and asks Eddie, who doesn't believe in capital-M Magic, to find him before he disappears into the fog that has taken over LA.
Something Dumb To Do by @glorious-spoon
8.5k, rated E
"Too bad we can't just date each other" Buck said. Hmm, and then what? Absolutely delicious situation of both of them getting smacked over the head with their realizations, after reasoning that they could try kissing, just to see. Idiots, I love them!
in a week by gracieli (@buttercupbuck)
78.9k, rated E
The 118 as field botanists for the U.S. Forest Service. This fic paints such beautiful images of the sites they visit that I felt the longing to study botany myself, or maybe go on a several-week-long field trip.
darling, the future's better than yesterday by rarakiplin (gmontys)
28.7k, rated T
After Eddie leaves the 118, Buck wakes up in El Paso in his 19-year-old self's body and runs into an Eddie who has just found out that Shannon is pregnant. Buck's adventure with the ghosts of Christmas past, present, and future makes me want to gnaw on something, it's so captivating!
you've got the antidote by @hattalove
4.2k words, rated T
Eddie picks Buck up after a Medical Procedure (what kind? don't worry about it) and Buck high on meds allows Eddie to be more open with his affection as well. Sooooo soft!!
Leave Me Alone (I'm Renovating) by @kitkatpancakestack
30.3k, rated G
A collection of loosely linked one-shots featuring Eddie being a nightmare/dream (ymmv) amateur interior designer, usually in Buck's POV which makes it all the more fun! Eddie with his decorative pillows and seasonal decorations owns my heart!
where all of the people dancing and clapping would greet me with such warmth by @try-set-me-on-fire
15.6k, rated M
When people are at risk of dying they start turning invisible to Buck. Eddie and Buck get engaged at Henren's vow renewal. In the fall, Buck beings to disappear. I cannot describe the emotional turmoil I went through reading this. In my fic log, my only comment besides a short description of the plot is "Beautiful!!!!" yes with four exclamation points. I highly recommend reading part 1 in the series too, for some more background information!
if you say it with your hands by hammersmiths (@henswilsons)
9.9k, rated T
Starting early S2, Eddie starts falling asleep on Buck's shoulder, and Buck feels some kind of way about it. Another one that makes me want to gnaw on something, or maybe scream into a pillow!
steppin' into fate by r_holland (@onward--upward)
71.5k, rated M
THE hockey AU to me! Written by someone who loves and understands the game, and lets buddie pine just long enough before putting them (and us) out of their misery!
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