Wishing I didn't have to leave my bed.
Scared to drive because I just want to flip my car doing about 80 with no seat belt on.
Hoping to fall asleep and never wake up.
Thinking about taking those pills stashed in my bathroom that I've hid from everyone.
Wondering if the next cut isn't gonna be enough until it's too deep.
Curious when I lean over an edge/cliff about what it would be like to just ... jump
Wanting to get in a fist fight with people just to feel something other then emptiness and loneliness, because at lest pain means I feel something, right?
Feeling guilty that I might hurt people once I'm gone but being so fed up with staying.













