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#Being obsessed and desperate for something while simultaneously feeling absolutely unworthy of it is actually a curse

I believe you 100% mean what you say, and I l know the only way to get better is through. I know, I know, I know.

I know all this and the rational part of me understsnds that that's all I need to keep in mind, but my brain is fucking terrified that I'm going to slip and show you my worst one of these days and you'll realize that this isn't what you want.

#I wanna turn this thought off so fucking bad but idk how

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azula (final agni kai version)

#I don't deserve all the grace she's giving me but I can't get into that rn #because I want her to communicate #and I want to be open with each other #I'm scared of all this guilt I'm feeling will cause her to stop being so honest and open #So I'm trying my hardest to process it before I properly get into that with her again (if I do)#we had a deep talk and she messaged me the next day about how she wants me despite what I think she deserves #and I proceeded to make her eat her words by being so fucking careless and inconsiderate #she doesn't wanna hear this so I'm just dumping here #but I feel so bad for her #because no matter what she thinks #she does deserve someone more than what I am right now #and I know that the only thing I can do is put in the effort to be better #but the most shallow part of me (that I'm fully aware isn't 100% rational) just hates myself for not just being perfect for her right now #and for being so inconsiderate of her #I just needed to dump this somewhere #because I don't want to be tense with her just because my ego's making me feel like shit about it #and voice memos aren't an option at work #unfortunately #I love her and I need to get my fucking shit together #I can't fuck this up just because of something I should be able to stop easily #Spotify

barblaz-arts

Pre-debut Zoemira, anyone?

These are stuff from my fic "Pyrite" where Mira and Zoey meet each other when they join an idol survival show in the hopes of debuting. Some stuff I wasn't able to add in the fic is here too

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Their dynamic is like... You know when you're dating someone and you find out they have a kid and they're so weird so you lowkey don't like them and the kid fucking hates you too? Yeh.