GUILTY
Your boys met me at the gates
Dangled keys and hazed
with promised fates.
I wish I could unknow what it’s like to have my body made a battlefield.
They paid until I owed,
felt so trapped
like I’d been bought and sold.
While they played power games, got stoned,
I blamed myself and forgot who was in control.
I’ve walked too deep inside a man’s world,
Lost my strength
Forgotten what I came for
And I know I’m not the first,
that you’ve made defend her word.
When I refuse to be coerced,
somehow I’m subversive?
I’ll take the blacklist, I’ll do time
but I’m not guilty.
So why do I feel guilty?
As the gavel pounds,
touch my navel and I know deep down:
came all this way to see the shape your silhouette makes
when you turn from me.
I’ve walked too deep inside a man’s world,
Lost my strength
Forgotten what I came for
And I know I’m not the first,
that you’ve made defend her word.
When I refuse to be coerced,
somehow I’m subversive?
I’ll take the blacklist, I’ll do time
but I’m not guilty.
So why do I feel guilty?
Can I forgive myself, for myself? Too heavy to carry.
Can I forgive myself, for myself? Too heavy to carry.
