Here Lies Cal

BIPOC. Adult. Owner of @npd-confessions. Husband of @boneandbourbon.

[fleshandbrandy]

Intro

Hey. I'm Cal. Pronouns used are he/him. I'm the owner of @npd-confessions. This is my personal account.

As stated there, I have NPD and ASPD. As such I am probably going to be posting things that may be of a mature or disturbing nature. I'm not going to enforce a DNI because that's cringe. But don't come into my house and whine about how my furniture is arranged.

I have DID. We may or may not decide to have our own specific tags. But if posts seem inconsistent in tone or style, that's probably why.

I'm alterhuman. Ask me about it, if you wanna know.

I'm cishet, but consider myself culturally queer.

Don't send me nudes or flirt with me. I'm married to @boneandbourbon and shi's prettier than you ever will be.

I follow back on this account, if you're interesting enough. If you come from npd-confessions, feel free to use your anon tags from there when interacting with me here. I'll remember who you are.

Say hi. I don't bite. Hard.

Tags used: #obituary readings - answered asks. #the shambling herd - hate anons. I seem to get a lot of these #graverobbing - nsfw posts / hornyposting. What. I'm an adult. #the grave bell rings …. but no one responds - Me posting about my wife (sfw) #the night does fall - not for the easily triggered or faint of heart. Heavy tw. Incredibly dark jokes, unmasked thoughts and rambles, generally the darkest recesses of my unhealthy mind. Nothing I say here reflects what I really think or believe or how I actually behave. I am just saying shit so it doesn’t rot in my brain #the unsettled moans of the dead - me whining about things. Not really venting. Just complaining. #walking amongst the graves - reblogs / follower interactions #rage rage against the dying of the light - Discourse tag #carnis talks parenting - me and my discussions about the kind of parent I want to be when I have kids :) #callegations - people who make hilariously inaccurate statements or claims about me (this tag was created by my friends in our discord server)

#cal’s classroom - educational posts / posts where I educate people on things and answer serious questions

[fleshandbrandy]

This blog is inactive

due to my health issues I’m stepping away from social media for a while. I don’t know if I’ll be back on this account, but I wish you all the best.

[fleshandbrandy]

question

do u know what this post is abt

https://www.tumblr.com/protrudingribs/779582080164265984/get-it-right-oh-my-god?source=share

because of vodka

Yeah, a lot of people misremember the VoDkA sign off as VoDKa (because of his initials). I don’t really think it’s that deep but some people get anal about it.

[fleshandbrandy]

thank you for link. i read it all and it makes sense.

Wonderful, I’m so glad it helped.

[fleshandbrandy]

what's wrong with ramcoa?

Much as i appreciate the question, I’m unfortunately very unwell and in no current mind to answer this myself. However, this post at a glance seems to answer your question quite well. If you have further, more specific question, please do feel free to reach back out to me and I will do my best.

Post by @creature-wizard

💬 33  🔁 184  ❤️ 367 · With the far right gaining more and more power, it's more crucial than ever that folks with DID and those seeking ment

[captainstarburst]

personally i think a trans woman should allowed to be able to post takes i heavily disagree with and just generally say things i dont like and not have to worry about people trying to ruin her life and run her off the internet. and i think youre kind of an asshole and a creep if you dedicate your entire online presence to cataloguing everything she's ever said that you didnt personally like. like you can just use the block button and if you are doing A Lot More Than That i think you're just kind of evil and transmisogynistic idk

[fleshandbrandy]

Being able to accept the concept of “we all struggle, but some of us struggle more severely/require more acute attention and protection” is an insanely important thing for your activism. please. i beg you. “we all struggle the same way so we shouldn’t rank it!!!” is rarely ever meaningful or helpful. people WILL struggle more than you. people ARE more marginalised than you. and it’s okay to admit that and still demand your own support. both can and should coexist. you should not be screeching “oppression olympics” when someone is trying to bring light to the difference in degree of marginalisation. someone struggling more than you does not mean you are not struggling.

[serenadeformice-deactivated2025]

Trans girls I am cupping your cheeks in my hands. Please listen to me. it's okay to be annoying. it's okay to intrude. it's okay to take up space. Especially especially especially if you're racialized. You don't have to live a life trying to be as small as possible, okay? You don't deserve to be trampled. You deserve to be loud and have your voice heard. I love you

[valtsv]

nothing will make you think "i have got to get weirder" more than finally feeling comfortable enough around other people to admit to interests of yours that you think make you a freak and a weirdo only to realize with a combination of embarrassment and relief that you're like a normie to them

[valtsv]

"sicko feedback loop" is a warrior's bond stronger and more meaningful than marriage

[lambofkhalaa]

@fleshandbrandy

[fleshandbrandy]

man.

[fleshandbrandy]

I see, thank you for the answer! I didn't mean for the question to be insensitive if it was.

No worries! It wasn't insensitive, just a bit funny. Sometimes my friends will say stuff like that to me as a joke so I wasn't sure if you were kidding :)

[fleshandbrandy]

Yes, the question is serious

Alrighty well.

Blind is an umbrella term that applies to a LOT of different conditions and degrees of sight loss. Not everyone who is Blind cannot see at all. In fact that’s fairly rare. Most of the Blind community are just people who do not have functional sight. i.e. they are not able to function normally with the sight they have.

I can type because I can somewhat see where the letters are, I have adaptive technology that reads out what i type to make sure i’m actually typing what i think I’m typing, and i’ve just been doing it so long that it’s basically muscle memory.

I do make a lot of typos, but that’s what autocorrect (and the aforementioned adaptive technology) is for.

feel free to ask more questions!

[fleshandbrandy]

How do you type if you’re blind?

Is that a serious question

[fucks-spock]

THIS THANKSGIVING

five things white folks can do instead of celebrating a genocidal, settler holiday.

1. pay your settler taxes to indigenous land trusts.

2. Relearn your own ancestral holidays, pre whiteness, that center community, gratitude, wellness, and sustainability.

3. Honor the people and the land by committing to a no waste holiday season. Boycott black friday and only spend money at small black and native owned businesses.

4. support native food sovereignty and seed saving movements with time and money.

5. Pay bail for indigenous and black people held captive by the state during the holidays.

you can help us! you can make a difference. it doesn't have to take up much time. please, help spread the word.

[buffalo-tracks]

If you actually learned anything from the past or event current events y'all need to act like it.

Thisnpostbis about thanksgiving but I don't think OP or anyone else would be upset if I said this needs to apply to July 4th, too.

[bff0f7]

so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

[adamtheredbeard]

The full picture is even more heart breaking after you open the uncropped version. Just a heads-up, it's rough

“The Roman Catholic Parish in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan was just grafitted.”

[afronerdism]

Nah let’s post it. Let’s feel it. Don’t look away.

[doobiebenson]

[butch-bakugo]

I notice alot of my followers on here skipping these posts just to mess with my lgbt ones, suspiciously the white popular ones.

Heres a not so friendly reminder, as an lgbt metis person, i dont give a single fuck what your blog is themed or if this is too painful for you to look at. Reblog this post. Reblog this post with the sources of the 751 children who were found.

Your compliance and silence as well as the compliance and silence of your ancestors is what allowed these schools to open and kill first nations children. The children of MY people.

Dont follow me if you cant reblog this post or the one with sources to your political blog or your most popular blog. Add trigger warnings if you must but if your political blog is only focused on the harms you personally face like being lgbt then you need to see some bigger pictures and stop being afraid of angering your racist mutural or actually saying some shit about racism. If you can reblog some antifa graphics or add blm to your bio to be a surface level ally, you can reblog some sources on the genocide first nations people faced and still face today.

They were CHILDREN.

They were murdered in cold blood.

[churchoftheconfusedchicken]

I’d like to add this photo I took last night in Victoria of the statue of Captain Cook. Though I myself am not indigenous, I 100% agree that these murderers, kidnappers and rapists shouldn’t have huge statues and plaques that decorate them and say how “great” they were.

Here’s another photo of the legislative assembly from yesterday. Later on there were more items, candles and signs at the memorial, as well as a big poster with 1505 painted on it but I didn’t get a picture

People need to see this. Not just quickly glance at the photos and keep on scrolling. They need to see this.

Reblog this or just stop following me

[ifiknewiwouldtellyou]

I had seen the first picture of the church, but not the second.

I went to a “Cancel Canada Day” event and burst into tears - not because I was surprised to learn of the unmarked graves (survivors told us they were there. Our government pushed it aside, and we let them), but because seeing all the people gathered in mourning drove it home: They. Were. Children.

This is my country’s legacy - and it’s not history. The last schools closed during my lifetime. My Father went to school with students who lived at the local residential school, after it was changed to a boarding house (read: holding centre) for indigenous youth who went to local schools.

They were all children, injured, abused, and killed in my country’s attempt to erase them. I want the world to see this and hold the state accountable to *active* reconciliation> I mean we could at least truly adopt UNDRIP in action instead of words for god’s sake.

[gayvampyr]

here you can read an article about a survivor of the church and some of the things he experienced to help put into perspective how awful and just how recent it was

[nothingweirdhere]

this is the memorial at the vancouver art gallery. 215+ pairs of children’s shoes (as well as stuffed toys and flowers) cover the steps…

[fleshandbrandy]

We were children.

[fleshandbrandy]

hey. hi. i’m holding your hands. you must learn to love everyone on humanity alone, else your activism is worthless. no. no. listen to me. listen. you must look past identity. past politics. past ideas or constructs or faction. you cannot be the kind of person who will draw lines in the sand over who you will or will not help when the world goes to shit. you do not have to like them. you don’t have to care about them as a person. but you must care about them as a human. that is the only way forward. you are not a punk nor an anarchist if you would deny someone aid because you don’t like the opinions they have.

[fleshandbrandy]

1. Bluntness!! Your honesty and willingness to share things is very fascinating. It's like observing a Belousov-Zhabotinsky reaction for the very first time.

2. Your opinions! (This is the primary foundation). Example, your cultural queerness. One thing that really stuck with me was that "there is more than one way to be queer while still being cishet" (or something similar along those lines)

3. Running some type of business! Technically not a personality trait, but I think you mentioned you run a business or work at one at least.

4. Death. I associate both you and your wife with death and the undead.

5. Something to do with skulduggery (mostly came from you mentioning that you know how to pick a lock but also comes from Duality by Slipknot). This will be developed later on.

oooh…. i’m flattered :)

[fleshandbrandy]

You have a lot of lore to you. May I borrow some traits of your personality and give them to an oc?

Yes but only if you tell me about what you’re taking from me to give to them. I’m intrigued