Literal Trash

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[bloodhon3yx-deactivated20230724]

do you want to kiss me until we both lose our breath be honest

[97emt553-blog]

“You’re going to watch people die. You’re going to see them die and hear them die and everyone is going to look to you. Stay calm, take a deep breath, and remember why you’re here. To help them. And every time you do, a piece of yourself will stay with them no matter their outcome, but the key is to not let it ruin you. Don’t let it take all of you because if it does, next time you’ll have nothing to give. No one should suffer because of that.”

— - my senior paramedic after one of our calls (via blindleading-theblind)

[afatlittledog]

me @ the demons that stand at the end of my bed:

it’s a lot warmer under the covers if you wanna come cuddle

[fluffymcmuffins]

No WONDER I have back problems.. I b carrying around this BIG ass heart all mf day

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

soft reminder: you’re alive. you survived the worst nights you’ve ever experienced. you picked yourself up when you were at rock bottom. you made it through the worst relapses, loneliness, heartbreak, failure and darkness in your life. when you wanted to disappear you stayed, time and time again. you can make it through anything. you will get through this too.

[spideyyeet]

[misterindecisive]

I’m a paramedic, but nobody taught me how to sit an 86 year old gentleman down to tell him his wife of 65 years has died in her sleep. Nobody taught me how to watch as the desire for life leaves his eyes the moment I break the earth shattering news that would change his life forever. Nobody taught me how to accept a torrent of abuse from a complete stranger, just because they have been drinking all day and want a lift home. Nobody taught me how to reason with the aggressive patient I’ve just met; overdosed, but needing my help to breathe. Nobody taught me how to talk to someone so depressed that they have just slit their own wrists, panicked and called for help. Nobody taught me how to respond when they turned to me and said “I can’t even get suicide right”. Nobody taught me how to bite my tongue when I went 2 hours over my finish time for someone who’d been ‘generally unwell’ for 24 hours. Nobody taught me how to accept that I would miss out on things other people take for granted; birthdays, Christmas day, meals at normal times of the day, sleep. Nobody taught me how to hold hands with a dying person as they take their last breath, how to hold back the tears because it’s not my grief. Nobody taught be how to keep a straight face whilst a young man explains exactly what happened to the end of his hoover. Nobody taught me how to act when a patient pulls a knife on me. Being a paramedic is so much more than swooping in and saving lives; it’s about dealing with the most unique, challenging experiences and just going home at the end of the shift, being asked ‘how was your day’ and replying ‘fine thanks’. Being a paramedic is about constantly giving a bit of yourself to every patient, because although it’s our 5th patient of the day and we can’t remember their name it’s their first ambulance, their loved one, their experience. It’s about the bits that nobody taught me how… It’s about providing pain relief and reassurance to a 90 year old lady who’s fallen and hurt her hip, and despite all the pain she turns and says “Thank you, how are you?”. It’s about a hug that you give someone on Christmas Day because they haven’t spoken to anyone for days, they have no relatives or companions but you’ve brightened up their day. It’s about climbing in the car next to someone and saying ‘Don’t worry, we’ll have you out of here in just a moment’ It’s about everything that we do that the media doesn’t publicize, It’s about knowing that we couldn’t attend to the dying man because we were dealing with a drunk… who then assaulted one of us. I’m a Paramedic, But Nobody Taught Me How…

Julia Cornah (via misterindecisive)

[emslifestyles]

Bravery is being the only one to know you are afraid

(via emslifestyles)

[lostandfound-chronicles]

“Oh, you’re a firefighter, paramedic, or EMT? That’s cool. I wanted to do that when I was a kid. What do you make?”

“I make holding your hand seem like the biggest thing in the world when I’m cutting you out of a car. I can make 5 minutes seem like a lifetime when I go into a burning house to save your family. I make those annoying sirens seem like angels when you need them. I can make your children breathe when they stop. I can help you survive a heart attack. I make myself get out of bed at 3am to risk my life to save people I’ve never met. Today I might make the ultimate sacrifice to save your life. I make a difference, what do you make?”

[chloroscythe]

in my head theres a little mouse wearing a little apron and she makes all my emotions

[catchymemes]

[juansendizon]

“What is an empath? A person who feels like everything has a feeling and absorbs that energy to release love, healing, and kindness to the world.”

— juansen dizon

[spiritualseeker777]

[taking-care-of-you]

(Credit: @oliviaherrickdesign)

[bad-days-are-ok]

[books-n-quotes]

“Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones.”

— Nikita Gill, Almost Feelings (via books-n-quotes)

[remanence-of-love]