the smelly smell that smells

i like stuff

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About me!

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Name: Harlow/Flower

Pronouns: idc man any is fine atp🔥

Age: Minor

Birthday: Dec 12

Nationality: Mexican/American

Hobbies: Scrapbooking, Graphic designing, Writing, and reading

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• ┈ • ┈ • ୨୧ • ┈ • ┈ • ๋࣭ ⭑ —Extra..🫧 ✧ Basic dni ✧ Feel free to interact! ✧ I'm still new to tumblr, idk how this works.. ✧Pls no nsfw aimed towards me specifically!!

Strawpage: https://sillyflowerweb.straw.page

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I'mma kms if these tests keep going

[chuukiyouwu]

He's so annoying

[unfortunately-ginger]

Choice

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edluca and flori >3<

idv fr pissin me off w the ai atm tho

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EDLUCA MENTIONED HOLY SHITTT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

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Nobody likes me and I'm a NERD

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dare I say. dare I say this is canon compliant shuake.

- Akechi being his stalker, scheming (stupid) self.

- Ren seeing this very well but not giving a flying fuck, still grossly in love with him.

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Persona 30th Anniversary x Sea Paradise collab character artwork

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MY TWO SPECIAL INTERESTS HOLY SHITTT

[crowwithclaws]

✂️let it all fade out

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unused akechi rat model you will always be famous

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Should I post my very lame joker mii that I made on the new demo

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Am I the only one that cant talk to strangers without coughing at least once, I probably saw it on TV at a young age or something and thought it was normal and now its just habit what the fuck

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I DONT CARE WHAT IS TRENDING RIGHT NOW SPOTIFY, IM ONLY GOING TO LISTEN TO THE SAME PLAYLIST OVER AND OVER AGAIN FUCK OFF

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I genuinely hate autism, and I dont mean that I hate autistic people, I just hate it in me, I hate how much its ruined my life, ive been stuck in this goddamn house for years now, I havent gotten out and if i do I only feel like crying, i cant even talk to the shop owners or even when my neighbors come at the door i cant understand most conversation, even ones with my family, even in fucking video games, im still young and im throwing it all away

I hate that diagnosis, I knew it would come out as positive, but some part of me prayed that they would say I didn't have it. Now that they told me, it's been hell cause ive already been seen as an outcast by the world, now that will make them never truly see me as "normal", people and friends from school have already treated me differently ever since that fucking label was put on me, I havent learned anything new about myself

I just genuinely want a friend but they all suck and everyone is fucking annoying, they don't even see me as human they see me as a pity pet and its fucking pissing me off

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TW: Sexual abuse, sa, and suicide

Can I also ramble on about how much I hate lust?? Its so fucking disgusting. I know lust isn't necessarily a bad thing, it's normal human nature but all my experience on it has been fucking terrible.

The only friend group I had just saw me as an outlet to their desires, twisting every word and move I did into something sexual. My mental health was already deteriorating at the time, but I genuinely believed that if I acted like I didn't mind it, I could at least keep my friends and not be as lonely. I still remember all those messages, threatening to put their hands on me, threatening to fuck me.

I never showed them my face. I was a mere concept to them. A concept of a human. And I still couldn't escape others human urges. Its fucking disgusting. They were able to do all that, without a clear image of me. It wouldve never mattered if I was human or not, they would swallow me with lust. I did eventually leave, resorting to other friends that i opened up to, but they werent any different. I made so many boundaries only for them to still say all those things to me, even tried to help those people from before contact me again. I eventually couldn't handle it and did attempt to kill myself, and when i came out about it to my friends, he just said it was my fault, how selfish I was, and I couldn't help but cry that day, being home alone and my cousin having to be called to comfort me, only for my stupid mouth to spill everything to him, I barely even talk to him. Im so fucking stupid, he told my mom, she knows. She read them. She now probably sees a tinted image of me now. This has happened before, even worst before, and I fucking let it happen again, I deserved it since I clearly didn't do anything about it.

I did leave and am no longer with those friends, but my cousin can't even look at me anymore, he never acknowledges me anymore. I'm so sorry. I tried to talk about it to my therapist only for her to brush it off.

I genuinely want a friend, but I hate how it always turns into love, and love is instantly turned into lust.

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I genuinely hate autism, and I dont mean that I hate autistic people, I just hate it in me, I hate how much its ruined my life, ive been stuck in this goddamn house for years now, I havent gotten out and if i do I only feel like crying, i cant even talk to the shop owners or even when my neighbors come at the door i cant understand most conversation, even ones with my family, even in fucking video games, im still young and im throwing it all away

Its gone to a point that even when I grow up, I still feel like I would be stuck in here till I die

I hate that diagnosis, I knew it would come out as positive, but some part of me prayed that they would say I didn't have it. Now that they told me, it's been hell cause ive already been seen as an outcast by the world, now that will make them never truly see me as "normal", people and friends from school have already treated me differently ever since that fucking label was put on me, I havent learned anything new about myself

I just genuinely want a friend but they all suck and everyone is fucking annoying, they don't even see me as human they see me as a pity pet and its fucking pissing me off

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Hi

Fart

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I think I should add my thought process because it looks like shit because its meant to be what I think childhood looks like

I grew up having to force myself to be mature and never let myself actually live my childhood as a kid, so I wanted to imitate the childhood I could've had if it wasnt consumed by disgusting people and the internet. So basically I made this out of jealousy of the kids that I knew before. I want to point out random details that I think are important

I purposely colored most things and the back coloring pages the wrong color. I did this because I always say kids do this in elementary, I never did the same, I found that childish and wrong at the time, but now I understand how they were simply exploring and playing around with the colors of their world, which I'm sad I never gave myself the chance to.

2.some of these stickers are from therapy or from the hospital, which makes me sad that even though this is supposed to represent joy, its still tainted by my own suffering, even the coloring book was bought just to waste time waiting in the hospital

Anyways

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Im back and alive but I think nobody gaf😂😂😂😂😂