hello! it's me, flynn. i'm formerly crox (@pxnkcigar & @notpxnkcigar). i'm already in college and slowly find myself crawling back here. the content you should expect here are my edits, possibly my writing, and even art if i can. maybe even something abt my life? idk. but it's great to be back again! if you wanna know more stuff about me, check out my straw page! :3
i have been busy with uni, struggling with my mental health, and discovering new things about me. i also have been very into yumeshipping! i got into postal as well, i looove postal 1 dude and shtopor.
anyway, face reveal under cut ft my coyote smith cosplay x3
i heard this song for the first time and thought abt multiple ships, but i will talk abt RED/BLU oktoberfest
angst ahead !! xb
if it was medic who retired, i feel like heavy wouldnt call for the new medic that much .. not bcs he wanna die or anything but hes still trying to get used to the new company . he doesnt hate the new guy or anything, but the weight of the breakup also affected him lowk + the fact mann co had already found a new hire once medic turned in his two weeks notice (idk if this works w the way mann co is set, but i couldnt care less <////3)
they talked it out, and i think heavy is the type to let go (not w family tho) bcs he respects medic's decision, but it also hurts him ofc but i think hes the type of guy to "if you love them, you will let them go" or whatever that quote was . he didnt pour his feelings out in front of medic, but he did tell him how he felt .
if the new medic didnt wear glasses, they would be confused if at one point heavy mistaken them as for ludwig, until he gets hit by realization and lowk feels embarrassed when he asked where are their glasses….
seeing the 'same' enemy medic on the field would lowk affect him tbh . like i think he'd just look at him if they encountered each other instead of killing him, bcs that guy is the only remnant of his medic, he dgaf if that enemy medic kills him bcs he'd rather have that and have his face be the last thing he sees before he respawns
(^^this is kinda inspired by one of @dailyheavymedic's drawings!!)
in medics pov, he wants to redeem his medical license back and work as a doctor again in germany. in this case, he does love heavy, but hes more goal-oriented + mann co isnt really the place he wants to keep working in forever.
i feel like he wont actively look for a new partner, but theres someone that approaches him, and they lowk clicked … and that guy probably reminds him of heavy, but somethigns just missing yk. the way he treats him and sees him is like heavy . and their relationship gets conflicting bcs yk there are things that that guy has similarities and differences with heavy. like say medic keeps making sandwiches for this guy just the way heavy likes it but he doesnt like sandwiches at all .
if it was heavy who retired bcs he wants to go back to his family, medic would think it was ridiculous but he cant rlly fight him abt it bcs ofc heavy is his own person he would be controlling if he stopped him + thats his family . if there was a new guy already i think he would try to make him similar to heavy as much as possible that that guy resigns but mann co doesnt let him bcs he just got there,, and no one is lined up for his position . so in short the new heavy doesnt like him.
when they talked about it, medic probably almost cried abt it and if he did, heavy hugged him and tried to comfort him but medic cant accept it . i think this guy rlly loves heavy so he didnt take the break up very well at first . he ofc respects heavy's decision still, but he cant accept it
the new heavy probably didnt like sandwiches, and medic keeps forgetting that he ends up eating the sandwiches himself or with the other mercs.
it felt weird when the new heavy wasnt calling his guns sasha, natascha, sheila, oksana, and svetlana . he also probably didnt pocket him, instead pocketing other mercs.
seeing the 'same' enemy heavy, he'd avoid him as much as possible . he'd convince himself that "i dont need him, hes just some other guy" when theyre not even in the same team .. but at the same time he would probably saw the guy
heavy, in this situation, is back with his family,,, this guy has probably talked abt medic to his family before . maybe by a lot. now, he doesnt . i also dont think he would find another partner, bcs his focus is on his family . and medic ofc . he would see someone that reminds him of medic but wont talk to them , just look at them before leaving .
this guy would probably keep doves as pets, bcs yk . thats wht medic has . thats probably one of the only things that keeps him close to medic
Everything changed the day Amira was born.
The world outside was collapsing — bombs, dust, screams, and fear. Yet inside a small room, by the dim light of a single candle, a new life began.
While others were running for shelter, I was holding my newborn daughter, trembling, crying, trying to believe that something so pure could still exist in a place like Gaza.
I named her Amira, because I wanted her to feel like a child of life — not a child of war.
A year has passed since that night, but nothing has really changed.
Our house is still rubble, our streets still carry the smell of smoke, and the sky still echoes with sounds that make Amira flinch in her sleep.
She has just turned one.
She’s learning to walk, holding my finger with her tiny hand, laughing at the smallest things — as if she doesn’t see the destruction around her.
She doesn’t know the word “loss.”
She never met her father, but when she smiles, I see him there.
Sometimes I watch her sleeping, and I wonder what kind of world she will grow up in — whether she will ever know what peace feels like, what home smells like.
And yet, when she opens her eyes in the morning and says “mama,” everything becomes bearable again.
I want to rebuild our home.
Not just for the walls — but for her future.
For Amira to have a small room, a safe place to dream, a life that belongs to her, not to war.
I’m not asking for much. Only for a chance to give her a beginning filled with warmth instead of fear.
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My name is Saja. I am a mother, a wife, and just one of many women in Gaza trying to hold on — to hope, to my family, and to a life that no
💌 A Mother’s Message
To everyone reading this — thank you for listening to our story.
Your kindness means more than words.
Every share, every message, every donation — it all helps me rebuild not just a house, but a future for Amira.
From the heart of Gaza, from a mother learning to hope again —
we will live. And I will make sure my daughter grows up in a world that knows love more than war.