cliff's edge.

suzuki 'katsu' hirokatsu, charm, he/him.

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fmdyunyeong:

        simply knowing that he was the one to make the FIRST MOVE blew yunyeong’s mind, but he was glad that he did ; katsu’s confession only making the smaller of the two feel more S M I T T E N towards him. just knowing that he wasn’t all that experienced either made him smile. at least now he knew that he wasn’t ALONE in his innocence. ❝ well, you’re really cute when you’re all flustered like that… ❞ he lilted, his voice soft and sweet like a bell. ❝ you’re not lame at all, okay ?? if it makes you feel any better, i’ve only really kissed one other person before this, so… i’m not all that E X P I E R E N C E D either. ❞ being able to see this side of his leader made him feel all kinds of special, and he hoped that he wasn’t freaking out TOO MUCH that it would read as awkward or uncomfortable, because he felt anything but. in all honesty, he felt completely at ease.

        just then, he felt katsu’s hand affectionately cup his moon — like face, his dainty features alighting with F I R E where the other’s fingertips rested. all of this was too good to be true, and he hummed with SHEER DELIGHT as his kissing cherries were plucked right then ; his heart pounding against his chest as if to reach out for the older male’s. as they drifted apart once more, he couldn’t control his reaction —— overwhelming emotions flooding over his facial expression as he burst into a fit of GIDDY LAUGHTER ; his hands reaching up to cover his face and mouth as he blushed like wild. ❝ i like it when you take charge like that, hyung… ❞ he added, long lashes opening wider so that he could latch his dark chocolate irises onto hirokatsu’s. ❝ c — can you do it A G A I N ?? ❞

"yeah, of course,” katsu responded, a small smile forming on his face as he pressed his lips to yunyeong’s once again. his lips lingered on the younger male’s before he pulled away, his fingers softly brushing yunyeong’s hair out of his face. “it feels really nice to kiss you..” katsu said, grinning. “i’d like to kiss you often, if you’d be comfortable with that.”

being close with yunyeong made katsu’s heart jump. he liked the feeling of being close to him. he pressed his lips to yunyeong’s quickly once again, blushing and laughing. “your lips.. taste good i’m sorry.” he laughed and shook his head, flustered but enjoying himself. “it makes me happy that you want to kiss me too, yunyeong.”

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i’ve sadly come down with a stomach bug, so replies might take a little longer to come out! i was up a lot last night so i’m pretty tired today, so i hope i’m feeling better by tomorrow to get some replies done!

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so.... i’m chilling at the mall, an hour before it closes with my friend who’s getting her eyebrows done for the first time ever and she’s Actually crying it’s so wild and so replies will take a bit, but after tomorrow they should be up the day of!

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grand mal(s)

headcanon: 1/???

settings: akita, japan, 2001 ; bc entertainment 2013

people mentioned; @fmdtheo

tw: epilepsy

katsu was lucky to have been diagnosed with epilepsy at a young age, some people go with it un-diagnosed for decades.

he was first diagnosed at six years old when attending a concert with his parents. the flashing lights and loud sounds caused something in his brain to flip a switch, which caused him to have the first of a few rough seizures.

tonic-clonic seizures, also known as grand mal or big bag, are the worst seizures someone can experience. this was the first type of seizure katsu had.

his family rushed him to the hospital only to find out nothing was severely wrong with him, he was just suffering from epilepsy. this was good considering the other options were different types of brain tumors.

luckily, he didn’t have any big seizures up until his time at bc.

bc didn’t take note of katsu’s epilepsy. he hadn’t had any bad seizures, just smaller absence seizures where he’d momentarily forget where he was and what he was saying or myoclonic seizures, where certain parts of his face or body would tense up.

he was fine with that, but one day he had an aura.

he’d have several myoclonic seizures in a short time, meaning he knew a grand mal was coming. he didn’t want to worry anyone, so he didn’t tell anyone.

as time went on, he had a pain in his head as well as the myoclonic seizures getting more frequent.

then it happened.

for the first time since he was six years old, in over twelve years, he had a grand mal.

he fell to the floor, his body tensing and relaxing uncontrollably and at an incredibly fast pace.

imagine running a marathon in thirty seconds. impossible, right? you can’t imagine the feeling of it. for katsu, grand mal seizures feel as if he runs three miles in the short span of thirty seconds.

to make things worse, his day goes from coherent to incoherent.

it’s as if his brain takes what happened and deletes it.

after he finishes seizing, he’s tired and his mind feels foggy. he wants to sleep, but he doesn’t know where he is or who he is.

he doesn’t care, though. so he sleeps.

katsu wakes up in a hospital bed surrounded by staff members and a fellow trainee, kwon sangmin.

katsu’s confused. he asks where he is. the staff don’t understand, but theo does. he replies to katsu in japanese. after a moment, he realizes where he is and what happened.

the thought of it makes him tired.

according to staff members, if sangmin hadn’t said anything or seen anything, katsu’d still be on the floor of the practice room.

from that day forward, there’s no one katsu trusts more than sangmin. he’s been there for katsu since trainee days and for every one of his seizures, no matter how big or small.

katsu loves and appreciates theo very deeply, even if he annoys him constantly.

he’ll never be able to repay theo for that day.

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fmdxsamsoo:

[ 📱→ katsu ]  i’m not sure what i could do to help [ 📱→ katsu ] have you tried calling animal control, maybe? [ 📱→ katsu ]  none of your members are there?

[ 📱→ sam soo cool HAHAHAHA c: ] i get certain days to rest for my epilepsy so i don’t have a seizure, it’s usually when members have a lot of different schedules

[ 📱→ sam soo cool HAHAHAHA c: ] what if they kill the bird :(((

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fmdtrevor:

Trevor knew he had already won that argument by the way that Katsu didn’t have a quick follow up rebuttal, and he just smiled at him, all traces of any previous irritation or annoyance gone. He wasn’t really one to hold a grude (most of the time) so if Katsu was going to move past the conversation, then so could he. “Thank God. Doing us both a favor.” He sighed and rubbed the back of his neck with the hand that wasn’t holding his phone. “I have no idea. There’s nothing we really can do for now. I’m not going outside when it’s raining like that.” 

He looked at him with a raised eyebrow, although the expression on his face conveyed his amusement. “A state of deep reflection? We just got stuck here while it’s raining, it’s not like your life is on the line or something. Unless a crazy person comes in here and hacks us up into little bits, but the chances of our lives becoming a live action Texas Chainsaw Massacre are pretty slim, so stop reflecting and move your ass.” He gave the back of his knee a little bump with his shoe. 

“It’s dark everywhere, the power went out.” He started walking down the hallway, towards one of the conference rooms that he knew had a mini fridge. “Ghosts aren’t real. And if they were, I doubt they would bother you. No one wants to risk having your attention on them and having to deal with you.”

katsu begrudgingly started walking, his eyes scanning the dark rooms as they walked by. “ghosts are real, i saw one with my own two eyes.” he said, looking at trevor. “my friend sayuri saw it too. we were staying late at a library to study for some tests when we heard footsteps walking up and down the stairs. we were confused because the librarians let us stay late and no one else,” he began, folding his arms. 

“sayuri called out, asking if someone was there. no one responded, but the room got really cold and the lights started to flicker. as they flickered, a shadow walked right in front of the study room we were in. we looked at each other and both knew what we saw.”

katsu laughed, realizing he probably sounded crazy. “you don’t have to believe me, but i swear on sayuri’s hamster’s life that i saw a ghost that night.” as katsu kept walking, he kept looking in all the rooms to see if he could see something to indicate it had food.

“you need to believe if you want to see a ghost, but i don’t think you should invite that gross energy. we don’t want another ghost haunting the bc building.” okay, now he was kind of lying. he’d never seen a ghost in the building or heard stories of one being in the building, but he wanted to see if he could convince trevor ghosts were real. out of the corner of his eye, he watched trevor closely.

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fmdxtommy:

[ 📱→ katsu ] you are not keeping satan in a feline form

[ 📱→ katsu ]  i will be moving out if you bring a cat home

[ 📱→ katsu ]  i’m in the practice room, so it might take a while

[ 📱→ katsu ]  who left the snacks out of the fridge and pantry?

[ 📱→ tommy >:p ] IT WASN’T ME

[ 📱→ tommy >:p ] i have a snack drawer in my room so no one can eat my snacks

[ 📱→ tommy >:p ] i bet it was............

[ 📱→ tommy >:p ] ...........

[ 📱→ tommy >:p ] YUNYEONG DID IT

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fmdnamsoo:

[ 📱→ katsu ]  [ namsoo sent a gif ] 

[ 📱→ katsu ] how did you accidentally let a bird in your house?

[ 📱→ katsu ] should i come over and watch you catch it?

[ 📱→ katsu ] oooohhh you’re so dead, you let it poop and mark it’s territory. that’s his fridge now.

[ 📱→ nam soo cool lol :DDDD ] i was opening the door and it charged in

[ 📱→ nam soo cool lol :DDDD ] the other members have schedules, i have an off day for epilepsy rest

[ 📱→ nam soo cool lol :DDDD ]  AND THIS BIRD SURELY ISNT HELPING

[ 📱→ nam soo cool lol :DDDD ]  do you think it speaks japanese

[ 📱→ nam soo cool lol :DDDD ]  i told it to fuck off in japanese and... it went “SKWAAAK” i think it understands me

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fmdyunyeong:

        he hoped that the older of the two didn’t mistake his hesitation as rejection because there was nothing that he wanted more than to KISS KATSU again. after all, he recalled the memory of their first act of affection incredibly fondly ; unable to get a good night’s sleep due to it playing over and over in his mind —— making his heart skip beats. ❝ YOU make me feel comfortable, hyung… really, i’ve never felt U N S A F E around you. ❞ looking down for a second, he concealed the tickle-me-pink blush that colored his expression ; chills racing down the length of his spine as his back was rubbed soothingly. ❝ if you’re okay with all of this, then i am, too. i promise. ❞

        in that moment, he felt the other’s lips embrace the smooth skin of his forehead, and just like that, HIS ENTIRE WORLD WAS ROCKED. ❝ d — don’t be sorry, love… ❞ he cooed, daring to be bold for one of the first time’s in his life. small hands reached up and rested upon the broadness of his leader’s shoulders ; pulling katsu’s strong body on-top of his own as he laid on the bed they rested on. when the two became situated, he initiated the FIRST MOVE —— angling his face appropriately so he could lean up and capture the other’s lips against his own, letting them linger there together, before pulling away. ❝ w — was that okay ?? ❞ he asked, hoping that he wasn’t moving T O O  F A S T.

katsu didn’t expect such a bold move from the younger boy, but he was pleasantly surprised at how he took initiative in the situation. he kissed the male back, slightly sad when the younger pulled away. “yeah! i really liked it..” his cheeks, turning the same red as before. “i’ve never really been good at all this stuff, it makes me flustered...” he confessed, laughing awkwardly. “i hope i don’t seem too lame or anything. people in japan are normally more focused on school or work than relationships.” he wasn’t lying. most of his friend’s parents were focused on work more than anything. his parents wanted nothing more than to support their son, often attending their concerts and fansigns in japan.

katsu bit down on his thumb nail softly, his eyes scanning yunyeong’s face. he wanted to be bold; he wanted to show yunyeong he wasn’t completely scared. he moved his hand to yunyeong’s cheek, cupping it softly before leaning in and pressing his lips against yunyeong’s softly. after a moment, he pulled away. his eyes were wide, eager yet slightly nervous to see yunyeong’s reaction. “was that okay?” he asked, chewing on his lower lip. “i hope it was... i’m not that used to everything yet...” despite being nervous and flustered, he’d had his first kiss. however, it was when he was twelve.. and since then he didn’t kiss anyone. of course, until he kissed yunyeong that night...

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durifmd:

[ 📱→ katsu ] i’ll give this knowledge to my grandfather! when i was younger, my grandparents had a neighbor that really liked to feed the birds and they’d sometimes get into her place, so he had to go over and get the bird out, while she and my grandmother stood outside hoping for the best. [ 📱→ katsu ] okay, okay i’m on my way!! i’m sure it’ll be fine if you just stay underneath the table if you want to.

[ 📱→ decipher duri ] i got out from the table, but the bird flew at my head

[ 📱→ decipher duri ] so now i’m back under the table

[ 📱→ decipher duri ] is this how i die?!?!? a BIRD FLYING INTO MY DORM?!?!

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fmdxjerome:

[ 📱→ katsu ] ??? seriously.

[ 📱→ katsu ] how the fuck do you get a bird in your dorm?

[ 📱→ katsu ] better question yet, why are you bothering me with it?

[ 📱→ katsu ]  just catch it. i’m busy.

… 3 minutes later

[ 📱→ katsu ]  though if it’s a young bird don’t catch it with your hands. it’ll smell like you and be rejected by its mom. so be careful.

[ 📱→ katsu ] also don’t be loud. they don’t like that. it’ll panic them. 

[ 📱→ katsu ] just stay calm, make some bird noises, place down some seeds (or if you don’t have any, peanut butter is great as well) and you’ll be good.

[ 📱→ katsu ] only text me again if you scared the bird.

[ 📱→ katsu ] …or if it pooped on you. i’m in dire need of a good laugh.

[ 📱→ jerome hyung ] JEROME PLEASE HELP

[ 📱→ jerome hyung ] we’re just looking at each other... i’m using the voice thing to send this text

[ 📱→ jerome hyung ] sorry if anything wired cames out of it

[ 📱→ jerome hyung ] the staring is too intense to look at what it’s tie ping

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fmdxtaeho:

[ 📱→ 2nd favorite leader hyung ] what [ 📱→ 2nd favorite leader hyung ] how [ 📱→ 2nd favorite leader hyung ] actually don’t tell me anything [ 📱→ 2nd favorite leader hyung ]  just note that i’m permanently moving into the knight dorm

[ 📱→ the straight one ] NO SERIOUSLY TAEHO

[ 📱→ the straight one ] YOU ARE NOT LEAVING

[ 📱→ the straight one ] it just flew in when i opened the door and it hasn’t left

[ 📱→ the straight one ] i’m going to give it potato chips and try and befriend it

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Theo: Look, Katsu is great, but he doesn't have a life plan. He doesn't even have a day plan. I once found a note he wrote to himself that said 'put on pants' followed by a question mark.

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fmdtheo:

Theo simply patted the other’s head as he faked cried; there were times were Theo truly didn’t know how to react to Katsu’s dramatics thanks to him being the more serious and quieter of the two. Allowing himself to be dragged out of the convenience store, he let out a laugh at the other boy’s attempt at adventure music - he guessed there was a reason why Katsu wasn’t in charge of composing.

“We can buy something at the coffee shop, don’t worry,” He replied before nodding. “Yeah, we’re eating well! Don’t worry, everyone!” Theo smiled, thankful that he could actually eat something that wasn’t a salad. As much as he liked salad, there was only so much a person could handle. “I’m really proud of the new music video, I think we all look great in it,” He replied. Letting out a sigh that was probably only audible to Katsu, Theo had to resist the urge to roll his eyes. He loved their fans, but he hated how entitled some could be; why click on a stream that clearly has only two people’s names in it and demand to see someone else? Sometimes it hurt him a little, making him feel less appreciated as part of the group. Smile returning to his face, he turned to look at Katsu before speaking. “I’m too used to calling you Katsu now, it’d be weird.” He laughed, shaking his head. “Oh, there’s the coffee shop!” 

"let’s go go go!!” katsu cheered, making a mad dash for the door. fans sometimes wondered why this hyper boy was the leader of charm, but other times bc’s choice of katsu as the leader was perfect. “come on theo!!” he said with a little laugh. “i think they’re playing wish in here.” katsu grinned and looked at the camera, doing the dance to ‘likey’ with a laugh. “i likey theo,” katsu was obviously holding back a laugh at his own joke. “theo do you likey me or coffee?” katsu asked, turning the camera to the other male. “don’t say coffee,” he whispered while wrinkling his nose.

“i’m kidding, of course!!!! everyone likes coffee. except me, it’s too bitter for my tastes. i like water or juice or hot chocolate.” katsu nodded. “katsu oppa, i’ll buy you all the hot chocolate in the world.” he read softly. “aww!! thank you!!” the male always enjoyed reading the comments. it made him feel like he was able to connect to his fans on a more personal level. “what is ‘theo is serving looks’?” katsu read, speaking partly in english. his english was not even close to good, which made it so much funnier as he read the sentence. he looked over at theo, hoping the other male would have an answer.

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“Katsu,

Happy Valentine’s Day!

Here’s a little treat for doing so well and enduring the long exhausting schedules that CHARM has. I hope you like this little gift and enjoy them!

CHARM fighting! Katsu, Fighting!

- Anna.”

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happy valentines to all bce artists ♡

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