mr. self-destruct

[forever-pained]

20 y/o , ramcoa survivor . blog for our morbid and twisted desire + memories. conabuse content , 18+ only

[zavierspeaksshit]

its hard to creep a creep out but theres a first time for everything. LMAO

[forever-pained]

What's ramcoa?

ramcoa stands for ritual abuse mind control organized abuse. its a bit of an outdated term, we are more accurately a victim of extreme organized abuse, but we use it because its what we’ve always used

[semissweetboy]

oh haha nice.boots can i lick my.own blood off of them or

[pngzoid]

≛

[s0u1less]

[forever-pained]

that one oomf who is lowkey a dog. that one oomf who is lowkey a traumatized dog trying to make it through life. that one oomf who lowkey gets frightened by fireworks the same way old military dogs get scared. that one oomf who

[arcticwolfs]

oh to be someone's beloved. to be collared and owned ♡.

[tranen-eines-engels]

[forever-pained]

06 , 10 , 14 , 17 , 31 <- for the ask game ! !

-- @lovetissue

hi lulu..

006 — “The age you get mistakened for?” we were cursed with fatter cheeks but a strong jaw, so people tend to mistake for four years younger … trying to go and get anything is always hell. at the same time though people also think we’re way older . so it’s either way older or younger for us . sigh…. one day we’ll get plastic surgery.

010 — “Want any piercings?” a ton, actually! A lip piercing, a septum piercing, eyebrow, snake bites .. so many ! we love piercings .

014 — “Biggest turn-offs?” people who expect us to automatically bow our head .. when we tell people we are an old afghani war-dog people seem to think it means we’re pathetic and won’t bite back. they’re wrong, and i hate being seen that way.

017 — “Someone you miss?” at this moment , our friends hrjeheje… p sure they’re sleeping. in general , the people who have hurt me in the past .. ( dont worry im getting therapy . )

031 — “What my last text message says.” considering i am texting you while writing this , you have just sent a luka from alnst gif .

[pinkertoast]

Sighs loudly and dramatically in a way that suggests I desire attention

[hoesluvshoko]

nosy asks 𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧₊˚

0: Height

1: Age

2: Shoe size

3: Do you smoke?

4: Do you drink?

5: Do you take drugs?

6: Age you get mistaken for

7: Have tattoos?

8: Want any tattoos?

9: Got any piercings?

10: Want any piercings?

11: Best friend?

12: Relationship status

13: Biggest turn ons

14: Biggest turn offs

15: Favorite movie

16: I'll love you if...

17: Someone you miss

18: Most traumatic experience

19: A fact about your personality

20: What I hate most about myself

21: What I love most about myself

22: What I want to be when I get older

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

24: My relationship with my parent (s)

25: My idea of a perfect date

26: My biggest pet peeves

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

29: A reason I've lied to a friend

30: What I hate the most about work/school

31: What my last text message says

32: What words upset me the most

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

34: What I find attractive in women

35: What I find attractive in men

36: Where I would like to live

37: One of my insecurities

38: My childhood career choice

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

40: Who I wish I could be

41: Where I want to be right now

42: The last thing I ate

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

44: A random fact about anything

(btw, these aren't originally mine but OP is deactivated so i couldn't reblog from my drafts)

[violetsandveils]

ppssrpsrspsys conabuse sadist oh look a masochist for youuu

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[vpsldnyrz]

Daily affirmations for the abused dog;

I will always be perceived as prey.

I exist to be abused.

I will never be my own person.

I will forever be a lesser being.

I am only what my owner tells me I am.

I will always be obedient, whether I truly want to be or not.

If I am not abused, I am not fulfilling my purpose.

My existence will be changed to suit my owner's vision.

Part 2

[caustic-affection]

Voice of guy who desperately wants to create an abuse victim: wow it would be so cool if free use pain subs were a thing. I could do with one of those. It would be so good if I could hurt someone whenever I wanted without asking. It'd make me so happy.