🍉melanin & sunshine🍉

i accept blood sacrifices and credit cards

[foshriizzle]

ok i gave in and made a discord for hou minghao,/ove in the clouds/xianxia adjacent screaming (and hopefully encouraging people to fill up the ao3 tag for love in the clouds) if people want to join.

also made a tumblr community!!

[foshriizzle]

at this point i'm really only coming on here to block people posting shipping an irl minor and leaving until this fucking show goes away

[fraactals]

whenever i see a gifset from it im reminded that im such trash for the otp in love in the clouds tbh

i loved their playful suspicious banter, i loved all the angst in the middle, i loved the sappy lovers bridge and the sappy heart array spell, i loved jbz trying to carve their names on the stone and getting struck by lightning, i loved ming yi cluthing that nail in her hand as she told him not to lose it through soul-wrenching pain

i love that jbz had to be the emotionally astute one who figured out ming yi's communication and emotional issues

i think the show suffers from having ming yi suffer from the poison for too long, from the first villain being the most developed and interesting, and from the last arc somehow not living up to its full angst potential (cant think of any easy fixes tbh) but man what an amazing show

[foshriizzle]

yeah it's been half a year since i first saw it and i haven't stopped rewatching and never got over it and decided to write fic and create a fandom for it instead because i might as well give in

[foshriizzle]

ok i gave in and made a discord for hou minghao,/ove in the clouds/xianxia adjacent screaming (and hopefully encouraging people to fill up the ao3 tag for love in the clouds) if people want to join.

also made a tumblr community!!

[foshriizzle]

finished my signups for the justmarried fanwork exchange and it's the first time i'm back in fandom in like 5yrs, so... here goes.

[ndnbutch]

negative self talk IS unproductive and painful for you and often those around you. but like every other post that talks about this is like “yeah it makes you an exhausting and burdensome person to be around and if you don’t stop now everyone in your life will abandon you. Also I personally hate you for it”. and it’s like hey hi hello. basically the theme of all my negative self talk is that I’m an exhausting and burdensome person to be around and that everyone in my life will soon abandon and hate me. so like haha what’re we doing here? are you going to provide any actionable advice for how to get out of this habit, or just tell me that I’m Doing Bad And Wrong And Must Suffer For It?

Anyway. If you struggle with negative self-talk I feel for you. It’s hellish, and it’s not something that can just be bludgeoned out of someone by telling them it sucks. We know! I’m not out of the weeds just yet by a long shot, but here’s some of the stuff that’s been helpful for me:

Fake it til it’s real: cliche, I know! but it really has helped for me, even though it makes me suuuuper uncomfortable at times. but literally tell yourself that you’re super charismatic and sexy and everyone loves you. or whatever version of that feels good for how you’d like to be seen. it’s gonna feel silly and untrue for a really long time, but it helps!

Reframe: I struggled to phrase this one, but what I mean basically is like… taking that notion of “hey negative self-talk sucks for the people around you too” and turning it into “wow, it is kind of mean to my friends to just assume they’re lying when they say they love me. I don’t want to be mean to my friends. I’m going to take the risk of trusting them”. Try not to go too far in the direction of “oh god I’m being mean to my friends” and stay on the path of “I want to and CAN do right by them”

Separate from it: I like to kind of act like my negative self talk is something of a different entity from me. Your mileage may vary on this one. I was a really mean really sad teenage girl once, and for me that kind of feels like the place the negative self talk comes from. So instead of being like “I guess I just hate myself and always will”, I can be like “I have this wounded inner child who is lashing out. I’m going to be gentle with her, but I’m also not going to listen to the things she tells me we are, because she is 16 and hasn’t experienced anything good yet.”

This is far from a comprehensive list but this post is getting long—feel free to add on if you have any tactics that have worked especially well for you!

[ellewantsrevenge]

i started correcting myself OUT LOUD

"i'm so stupid" "no i'm not. i'm so silly. why am i so silly?"

"what the fuck is wrong with me?" because "a lot is wrong because i am doing the best i can in a sick society that wants me to do and survival is a middle finger to capitalism"

"i'm not doing enough" became "why do you feel you aren't doing enough when you donated $100 this week and shared lots of information with people? wanting to be able to do more is not same as refusing to do more. be gentle with yourself. this is going to last 50 more years at least"

"i don't need to bother bc i'm not going to see anyone" became "no one is more worthy of my efforts of getting dressed up than me"

"i'm so ugly" became "i would never say that to another woman with my body. other women with my body are hot. maybe i'm hot?" which eventually became "i am fucking hot"

i also apologized to myself too. i'm doing a lot better than i was a year ago

[foshriizzle]

maybe continue it like a conversation, like, "oh man i'm an idiot" and then, "that's cool. i'm allowed to be an idiot sometimes." ... "as a treat"

[welcometothejianghu]

Small Fandom Summer 2026!

For the fourth year in a row now, it's time for Small Fandom Summer! Join me for Small Fandom Summer! It's real easy to play:

Make a fanwork for something that has fewer than 1000 English-language works on AO3

Post it to AO3

And then you've done it! You've made a thing and you've diversified the fandom ecosystem! You're basically a hero.

Q: The fandom I want to create for has more than 1000 English-language works on AO3, but the specific pairing I want to write for has fewer than that. Does that count? A: Yes! Q: What if it has more than 1000 English-language works on AO3, but, like, just barely? A: Okay! Q: What if it actually has a lot more than 1000 English-language works on AO3, but it still feels small? A: Sure! Q: What if I don't want to post it to AO3? What if I don't even have an AO3 account? Can I post it somewhere else? A: Wherever! Q: What if-- A: Just do a thing, friend. Make a thing. Share the thing. This is not meant to be restrictive; this is meant to be inspirational. Create the fanworks you want to see in the world. Make a stranger happy by appealing to their niche interests. Bring joy.

And if you want to give yourself some silly little Steam-like achievement badges to commemorate your accomplishments, well, you're in luck! I've made a bunch of them right here! You can grab the ones that apply to your work and paste them wherever you like and feel good about what you've done. Here's a few of my favorites:

So you see? This is meant to be silly and fun.

There's nowhere to sign up. There's nothing to commit to. There's zero pressure. You just do it if you do it, and don't if you don't. But if you do want to play (yay!), tag your stuff with #small fandom summer so we can all swoop in and appreciate everyone else's efforts.

Here's to creativity!

[welcometothejianghu]

Since some people have asked: There's now a Small Fandom Summer 2026 AO3 Collection! You can post your stuff right here! It's completely open and unmoderated, so if you think something goes there, well, go on and add it! Hopefully by the end of the summer, we'll have a nice little collection of stuff there.

And since some other people have asked: There's no start date for this, nor is this an end date. "Summer" in this context is an extremely arbitrary unit of measurement. I'm starting now because my personal summer runs from about mid-May to mid-August. Yours may vary.

I'm thrilled so many people have seemed excited about this! I hope it inspires the creation of a whole bunch of good stuff!

[fiftysevenacademics]

I watch Glory for the plot.

The plot:

[yixiaosuige]

Love in the Clouds 1.09

[foshriizzle]

Sorry, I couldn't join the community; there's a warning about adult content that doesn't allow it.

yes sorry if you're not over 18 it's not a place for minors

[nemsilei]

JI BOZAAAAI LMAAAO I LOVE IT

[foshriizzle]

THIS SCENE LIVES IN MY MIND RENT FREE BECAUSE WHTA DOES THAT MEAN JI BOZAI WHAT DOES THAT FUCKING MEANNNNNNNNN

i'm so glad someone else thinks about this enough to post it

[xiaolanhua]

Love in the Clouds 入青云 ‧ Drama ‧ 2025 dir. Peng Xue Jun, Zhi Zhu – Ep. 30

[foshriizzle]

this is possibly my favorite moment in a show full of awesome moments.

"if you kill him, I'll bring you the blade. If you spare him, I'll cover your tracks."

[nemsilei]

Mingyi and twenty seven, I miss them *cries*

[foshriizzle]

now i'm thinking about how lu yuxiao has like 9 cats or something

[mingoooossii]

bonus...😔

LOVE IN THE CLOUDS 入青云 (2025) text posts (1/?)

[thesinglelogbridge]

Whoops made another one I forgot to post. Part 1

[foshriizzle]

i love these so much omg

[min-9things]

The temptation to rewatch love in the clouds for the 3rd time just to see how ji bozai looks at mingyi

[foshriizzle]

how many times is too many times to rewatch love in the clouds. asking for a friend

[cchellacat]

[foshriizzle]

I WOULD DIE