I do art and I have hyperfixation on clowns. welcome to my circus 🩵🎟️🎪 This is my main blog! Lots of clown posts and my own art, as well as current events. Thanks for stopping by 🤩 24, she/her :)
Okay I’ve had this account for a lil bit now and I wanted to just kinda introduce myself now that I have some mutual followers just in case anyone ever wanted to know general stuff about me!
I’m getting kinda old so I’m just gonna put it in bullet format, lol
Name: Fraznik, Kaleigh
Age: 24
Pronouns: she/her
- married to a man 😔 but, previously only into women and still a strong ally, this is a safe space for LGBT+ friends 🩵
- digital, multimedia, and plush artist(the plush are still bad but I am working on improving my skills!) I also do tattoos but only on myself 😂
- storage facility manager(unfortunately I am forced to be a slave to the capitalist hell of the US to pay bills but I hope n pray that eventually I’ll be able to just be a regular starving artist)
- Jesus freak but in the way that we’re supposed to be, I just do my best to show love and kindness to others. THIS IS A RELIGIOUS SAFE SPACE. It’s one thing to discuss differing beliefs and to respectfully disagree, but I will NOT try to make converts of anyone or be hateful towards others for their beliefs and I will absolutely NOT tolerate people doing so on my posts, regardless of the religion. Period. 🩵
- diagnosed autistic at 19 and working on figuring out whether I also have ADHD, or if I just have something else going on in my noggin(after being misdiagnosed with bipolar ii so like who rlly knows). Also have been dealing w/ chronic fibromyalgia for several years, oftentimes debilitating. This is a safe space for neurodivergent friends as well as friends with other disabilities- ableism in any form will not be tolerated on my posts. UPDATE AS OF 11/13: I was diagnosed with Trigeminal Neuralgia on Nov 10, so a new thing :’))
- biggest dreams: #1, to have a little plot of land and have a homestead where I can grow food and maybe have some livestock and just try to be as self-sustaining as possible! #2, to be able to make a living from sharing my art, plush, and maybe one day(if I’m brave enough LOL) tattoos!
- LOOOOVE The Chosen from Angel Studios. So so so good even if you’re not religious or a Christian. It’s cinematically beautiful and the music score is PHENOMENAL. 🤩
- clown lover
- still obsessed with MCR in 2023
- fave movie of all time is Scream (1996), I can, do, and WILL talk about how it changed the horror genre AT LENGTH if anyone ever asks and YES it’s a hyperfixation and YES I’ve been obsessed since I was way too young.
- loves true crime podcasts (Morbid and Rotten Mango especially)
- always listening to the Midnight Sun audiobook and not even embarrassed about it. Only “Chapter 10: Theory” can put me to sleep at night 😔
Also last but absolutely not least, because it’s current events and I want my stance known, I am PRO PALESTINE. I just try to educate myself & do my own research, and share resources and good information where I can.
That’s basically it I hope u all have a lovely day 🩵
“Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.”
fun fact about aging: you don’t perceive yourself as being older but you perceive young people as being younger. today I was in a zoom meeting with a bunch of young men and I kept thinking ‘who put beards on these children’.
Correct. High school kids are WAY younger than I was when I was in high school. So are college kids. When I was in high school and college we were full grown adults. But now that I’m almost 40 the high school and college age kids are actually babies. It’s crazy how that happens.
I remember when I was in middle school I would hear my dad calling college students and 20-something employees “kid,” as in “oh yeah this kid that just started in marketing is really talented,” or “the Johnsons’ son is a really nice kid” talking about like a 22-year-old and at the time I was like “what haha those aren’t kids those are clearly adults”
And now I’m a 24-year-old who sees my 18-year-old coworker as a baby and I’m like ah. I think I am coming to an understanding.
take figures out of their boxes btw. sew patches on your favorite jacket. go to bed with your favorite plushes. wear the pants you usually save for special occasions. draw something cool on your wall. put a sticker on your laptop. dye your hair and pierce your lips. glass is meant to break, metal is meant to rust. items are meant to be used. that's how the world knows that somebody loved them.
When my aunt died of covid, we had to clean out a lot of stuff that she was saving. Foods she was going to try, she was a great chef, spices she'd never opened or only used sparingly, lotions and bath things she hadn't used. After she died I started making a point of using things up: the good vanilla that has to be imported, that we finally found more of, we'd used barely an ounce before she passed away. Even though we love it. I just got my family new bottles of it for Christmas because we used one up. We enjoyed that happiness. Sometimes I still get the impulse to wait for something special, or awful, to save nice things for celebration or comfort. The phrase that always echoes in my mind is "use the good vanilla". And I have been (burning the candles, squirting the body wash, dissolving the bath bombs, putting the saffron in things). And it's been great. Use the good vanilla.
