Pansexual Lee Jordan Headcanons
Day 2 of @potterprideweek:Â LGBT+ youth
7 year old Lee blushing beet root red whenever his mum brings him to the park and they meet up with her friend and her son Miguel whoâs Leeâs age and has pretty blonde hair that Lee likes to play with and run his fingers through.
Lee and Miguel being best friends for years and holding hands in the park and giggling and climbing to the top on top of the roof of the clubhouse to trade sweets and stories.
Miguel falling off that roof one day and Lee jumping down to help him and crying not being he twisted his own ankle jumping down but because Miguel hurt his arm and was upset.
Lee feeling guilty for not being able to tell Miguel his biggest secret because his parents tell him Miguel wonât be able to understand because he was a muggle.
11 year old Lee having his first massive fight with his parents, saying he doesnât want to go to Hogwarts, he wants to stay with Miguel instead.
Lee and Miguel having a sleepover two nights before Lee has to leave and they eat junk food and tell each other theyâll miss the other and they share a chaste kiss before they fall asleep that the next day neither of them talk about because neither are sure if it was just a dream or if it actually happened.
Lee getting on the train at Platform nine and three quarters and feeling sick with nerves, he finds a compartment on his own at first but soon is joined by two beautiful black girls and two identical pasty boys with bright ginger hair.
By the time the train arrives in Hogwarts, Lee has eaten his body weight in treats from the trolley and has made four new friends, Angelina, Alicia, Fred and George.
Itâs not until heâs 14 that he realises just how good looking everyone at Hogwarts is.
Really, itâs ridiculous how gorgeous all the students are.
The girls are all pretty, the boys are all handsome and the students who identify as non-binary or gender-fluid are all beautiful and gorgeous and itâs honestly unfair because how is Lee supposed to concentrate on studying in the library when that cute sixth year girl with the curly hair keeps biting her lip across from him and the Slytherin boy in his year wonât stop stretching his legs at the table across from him.
One night he and the twins sneak into the kitchens, theyâre digging into this delicious cake the house elves had left over when Lee tells them that heâs been doing some research in the library about liking different people and how he really doesnât think heâs straight.
Fred and George stop eating and look at him calmly and ask him if he knows what sexuality he thinks he might be.
Lee shrugs and says he thinks heâs probably pansexual.
Fred and George smile brightly and clap him on the back and say thatâs great, theyâre proud of him and they love him no matter what.
Itâs only when he takes on the role of commentator for the quidditch matches that heâs 100% sure of his pansexuality.
Lee tries to focus on the game and the fouls made but to do so heâs to watch every single playerâs movements and thatâs a little difficult when heâs attracted to a lot of them.
But he learns to cover it up by calling out every foul he sees loud and clear and shouting at the players instead of recounting their movements to the audience until it becomes natural for him to do so.
He receives a long telling off from McGonagall for his loud, unnecessary boisterous behaviour but his method works to keep his focus on the game.
At 15 he and Alicia go on a few dates and itâs nice and sweet and they kiss a few times which was really good but then they decide theyâre better off being friends.
Also Lee noticed the way she looked at Katie Bell and knew he wasnât the one for Alicia.
He dated a few more people and fell hard for a non-binary Hufflepuff named Adam when they were in sixth year. They went to the yule ball together and Lee thought Adam was the best person in the world.
Adam was kind, clever, they thought all of Lee and the twinsâ pranks were complete genius and Lee was incredibly attracted to them in every way.
But something wasnât quite right.
For a few weeks at the start of seventh year, Lee sort of shut down, he never cared about his sexuality, it never bothered him that he wasnât straight, he knew he just liked people regardless of what they identified as but then why did it never feel quite right?
He and Miguel meet up every summer and Lee loves him but just as a friend now, he doesnât want anything more and knows Miguel feels the same.
He still thinks Alicia, Angelina and loads of other girls at the school are beautiful and attractive but he doesnât focus on them as much anymore
And Adam is perfect but Lee just knows that heâs not in love with them. Â
After avoiding Adam for a while, they meet up again in the great hall during a free class and Lee tells them that they have to break up because itâs not fair on Adam to continue this relationship when Lee knows he canât fall in love with them.
Adam smiles and says they understand and they knew Lee never could love them but they just wanted to enjoy their relationship while it lasted.
Lee frowned and asked how Adam knew he could never fall in love with them.
Adam patted his hand gently and said, âBecause itâs obvious youâre in love with Fred Weasley.â
Leeâs body stiffened, his face went pale and every nerve in his body was screaming at him to deny it, to scoff and laugh at how preposterous the idea was.
But then Lee remembers the spark in his fingertips every time his hand brushes against Fredâs, how it always means so much more to him when Fred laughs at his jokes than anyone else in the world and how the other day when Fred brushed the hair out of Leeâs eyes, Lee couldnât understand why his heart raced so much faster and harder than whenever he was with Adam or anyone else over the past few years.
âIâm sorryâ Lee said softly and honestly, feeling Adam deserved an apology, âI didnâtâŠI swear I never realisedâŠâ
Adam smiled and kissed Leeâs cheek, âDonât worry about itâ they said genuinely and stood up from the table, âFor what itâs worth, I think Fred feels the same.â
Lee never got a chance to ask Fred whether he did return his feelings or not because over the next few months they were all just too busy.
Umbridge, the tyrant was raining hell onto all of them, Lee, Fred and George joined the D.A. and Lee helped them with their new business and all the products they made and sold to fellow students.
One night after winter break, Lee and Fred were lying on Fredâs bed, George and their other dorm-mates fast asleep while  they were planning how best to slip one of their latest inventions into Umbridgeâs tea when suddenly Fred stopped, looked at Lee for a long moment with those wide, unsure eyes and whispered,
Leeâs heart caught in his throat, his stomach twisted with nerves, nausea or butterflies or possibly all three but he forced himself to say the words,
Fred broke out into a massive grin, bigger than any Lee thinks he has ever seen him wear and then in the blink of an eye, his soft lips were on Leeâs.
The kiss was like a lit match had been dropped into a flood of gasoline, every hair on Leeâs body stood up and tingled as he reached a hand around to slide into Fredâs hair and pulled him closer.
It was the giddy feeling of running his fingers through Miguelâs hair, it was the familiarity of spending time with Alicia, it was the burning attraction that he felt whenever he saw someone attractive on the quidditch pitch and it was the comfort and care he felt with Adam. But this time it was intensified by a million just by the added love that Lee felt for Fred and that he knew Fred for him.
So Lee was right, he was pansexual and he always had been but his heart had belonged to Fred for years, maybe ever since they first met, it just took him a long time to realise it.