Im having thoughts about Sterling, (rant writen past midnight after this) like i am biting and maiming rn actually.
Just, okay this is a fic/hc/semi canon thing but ace Sterling adds so much for me actually, like it adds so much to his backstory ! The pararels between his mother and him! Him being a bastard and then being accused of the same, the fear of his true parantage being revealed a struggle, the thing that is his burden, a too small ring and a hat for cover, knowing revealing it would clear his name but would still doom him, and doom his mother.
And the inn between verse being a pretty racist society making him being half elf a whole thing, and him probablly not ever being able to even really know his heritage, just having to hide it and wonder, be stuck with being just human but never truly belonging, because you have to aknowledge him being a half elf means he probablly ages slower, so he is mentally probablly younger than people think, but he is expected to already be mature at whatever age he is, (i hc him in his early to mid twenties but more mentally late teens, early twenties), like it does affect him! But he isn't able to explore it given his circumstances! He is just suppose to be where everyone else is at, already having it all figured out!
And back to the ace thing, just his backstory????!? Like wow as an acespec person myself i am holding him and shaking him actually, like wow being accused of fathering a child must suck, like he is kinda being slut shamed? Like he was thrown out of the order for it, and he cannot prove it isn't his child so he just has to live with this rumor, and agh just the icky feeling of everyone just assuming this about you, of assuming you slept around and are just an asshole leaving a girl with a kid. And Sterling being attractive and a good knight and noble and such, is kinda expected to well have sex, fool around, he is expected to do that! And he doesn't want to, and ahgyvtubecaxazazaq just wow this charakter being ace is so important to me actually.
The him-his mother pararells of it all again, like him having his name sullied because of a bastard child is so like conventionally feminine in a way? And i love the somewhat reversal of it here. His live got ruined because of a kid that isn't even his, and then well he went thru charakter development and got better, but still, theres still people thinking this about him, assuming things.
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