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@ftmdude-stuff
I am a man, and I find you attractive as a man. would I stand any chances to successfully invite you for a dinner date?
I have no reason to turn anyone down, just know you're going to get much further with me if you're also a man ;)
17.3.19
3 years & 212 days post op
Fuck Tumblr! My blog is to help people make a decision on what surgery they want and show the work of my surgeon- almost everything has been marked as inappropriate. Even though the guidelines say medical is fine, and besides the point because my posts aren't even inappropriate!
Also I posted an informational guide about the process of lower surgery and that's been blocked and I can't appeal it!! There's no way I can move my blog somewhere else, it's really sad to think it was all a waste. I'm not going to spend the time appealing every pic I've ever posted đ€
Get your shit together Tumblr.
23.10.18
3 years & 66 days post op
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3 years & 64 days post op
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12.9.18
3 years & 25 days post op
18.8.18 3 years!
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22.7.18 2 years & 338 days post op
Great advice right here.
27.6.18 2 years & 313 days post op
10 Things I Wish I'd Been Told Before Having My Phalloplasty
Full disclosure: Iâve just had radial forearm phalloplasty with Dr. Craneâs surgery team this past June 17th. Mine was done with urethral lengthening, no vaginectomy, no scrotoplasty, no rods, and without top surgery or testosterone beforehand due to me-specific medical complications. I donât claim my experience to be universal.
Would I change my mind now, 12 days post-op? HELL NO, haha. And yet, Iâve never heard anyone mention the facts listed below when I was researching online.
If I can help just one person preparing for or considering this procedure sleep a little easier from having a better idea what to expect, thatâs all Iâm after. :3
Here we go!
1.) YOU WILL SMELL HIDEOUS FOR MANY, MANY DAYS. Which is okay! Nobody should be judging you for this. Youâll have just had whole parts of your body moved around; youâre gonna have enough on your plate. But youâll have six days in your hospital bed go by without a single shower, just occasional wet-wipe pad rub-downsâ and then youâre not allowed to take one once you get out for another ten days, either. It becomes a sort of Zen stank, your scent lofting to the heights of the universe to declare your new existence. But yeah, youâre gonna be smelling levels of stankalicious you didnât even know you could reach.
2.) Also, hate to break it to you, but YOU PROBABLY WONâT BE SLEEPING WELL IN THE HOSPITAL. Or maybe youâre the type who can nod off for quick naps. Thatâs keen! I really hope for your sake that you can, âcause all through the clock, thereâs gonna be nurses and assistants wheeling in to check your blood pressure, your Doppler readings, how much you can inhale at once, getting blood draws, everything you can think of, every half-hour to an hour or so. I take forever and an Ambien to be able to go under, so I didnât sleep the whole six days as much as I passed out for half-aware exhaustion hallucinations for a few minutes, or at least until the next assistant arrived at 4:30am.
3.) When youâre going to the bathroom (number two) a few days after surgery, DO. NOT. PUSH YOUR BOWELS. Itâs gonna be frustrating beyond belief waiting for it to come. Trust me, itâs gonna come. And youâre gonna be on so many stool softeners and laxativesâ when it came for me, it literally fell out of me. But yeah. No pushy, or youâll be like naive Pre-Pushing Gerbil who thought, âJust a *little* push wonât hurt, right?â And before I knew it, I was looking at streams of what I couldâve sworn was blood dribbling out my groin from the staple I popped (see #8 below). I didnât think I was even pressing with enough pressure to DO that, but I was wrong. Donât be like Pre-Pushing Gerbil.
4.) As a matter of fact, until you get to know in those first couple days what the difference is between actual poop or just tricky gas? You can lie there in bed AND NOBODY CARES IF YOU POOP IN IT. Multiple nurses and care assistants told me, theyâve all seen *way* worse, and theyâre gonna be changing the sheets regardless. Feel free to experiment inside your bed until youâre comfortable knowing what needs a bedpan or not. Because the first couple daysâ worth of my asking to use the bedpan were some really frustrating, empty-fart-filled times for all.
5.) YOU PROBABLY WONâT BE SLEEPING WELL ONCE YOU LEAVE THE HOSPITAL, EITHER. You are gonna be sore as all hell the first week after youâre outâ especially Days 2 and 3, by my experience. The leg skin graft is so huge that, for me, when it started oozing (and it did, for days, constantly), it soaked my bedsheets on that legâs side. When it finally dried about five or six days later, my leg muscles kept twitching from how itchy the scab was, so then I couldnât sleep from *that.* Itâs gonna be rough. Doable, believe me. But rough.
6.) THERE IS NO WAY âI WAS IN A CRASHâ EXCUSES WILL WORK IF YOU GO FOR THE FOREARM DONOR SITE. This one can be chalked up entirely to my not seeking out more recent photos of forearm donor sites beforehand, but instead of the stitch-heavy displays often seen in the past, my donor site can instead be described as âshrink-wrapped meat squeezed down to a ridiculously small-looking surface area.â Itâs a little disturbing in its own way, but nothing that the old âI was in a motorcycle accidentâ chestnut would reasonably excuse. Crash injuries do not look like this. Instead, I plan to answer all inquiries with âI traded a wizard a pound of flesh to get a bigger dick.â Itâs technically not wrong.
7.) BABY WIPES WILL BE YOUR FRIEND. Thereâs gonna be an awful lot of dripping and oozing going on in multiple places for a good long while, and regular toilet paperâs just too scratchy and dry to be of much help. In fact, in the first few days, using TP instead of baby wipes actually scraped up an opening on the surface of my junk that still hasnât closed after days upon days of Medihoney, so make sure to treat your new appendage right from the start.
8.) THAT PINK LIQUID ISNâT BLOOD. This oneâs less universal than the rest, but knowing it wouldâve saved me a bit of stress. I popped some non-vital stitches in my groin on Day 5 in the hospital (remember #2?), and was leaking what I swore was bloody urine in a steady drip from the groin. When it hadnât stopped in three days, and in fact had become more frequent, I was sure something terrible was going on. But no. Thereâs stuff called serous fluid, usually found around surgery sites, that Iâd simply opened up a groin tap for. Itâs light pink, and it is completely harmless; itâs just *super* annoying to get all over anything you sit on. (I took to calling it Lisa Frank Unicorn Blood.) Wrapping a towel around my waist and tucking it into the top of my underwear became my best shot at getting some sleep without waking in a panic that Iâd wet the bed half an hour later.
9.) YOU HAVE INNER STRENGTH YOU MAY HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE IN YOUR LIFE. Believe me, if youâdâve told me beforehand how many times Iâd be dealing with situations in the first couple weeks that included the phrase âso I look down and I see [what I thought was] blood spraying all over,â and that I wasnât going to bat an eye over it even in the heat of the moment, I wouldâve laughed (and asked you how you got into my apartment). But youâd be surprised. *I* certainly was. You donât know me, but trust me: nerves of adamantium are not in my nature. Until those times when they had to be.
10.) WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW AWESOME ITâS GOING TO BE JUST TO HOLD IT. Seriously. Iâve found myself just cuddling it occasionally, feeling how big and warm and alive it is. I want to give it a hug. Tell it, hey, we got through this, buddy. We did it.
From the main blog. Seems like it belongs over here, too.
Day 35.
First day of arm flexing exercises! I lost most of my range of motion in my left wrist after the phalloplasty, just due to how thick the resulting scar tissue ended up being. Which wonât happen to everyone, or even *most* folks, from what I understandâ but be aware of this as one of the risks of using your forearm as a donor site! Lucky for me, Iâm a righty.
Iâm now taking hand therapy sessions twice a week to get that motion back. This is Day 1, and, uh⊠Baby steps, keep in mind. Baby steps.
Life lessons Iâm learning in my 20s: Communicate your feelings. If something feels wrong tell them. If something makes you feel off, tell them. Donât bottle it up. You donât deserve to feel that way and your feelings are valid. Those who matter will understand and adjust their behavior.
being gay is way more fun when you have someone to be gay with
i think most people are interpreting this as wanting a partner, but also being gay is way better when you have a bunch of gay friends
