Welcome to my general Doctor Who (+ expanded universe) sideblog!!! Im Sleep or Moose, my pronouns are he/they/it/others, and my main is @lookineedsleep! I've been mostly interacting from that blog up until now, but figured that it makes sense to filter everything down since my fixation isn't going anywhere!
I really enjoy character analysis particularly through the guise of relationship dynamics, and so I am fairly into shipping, but I'm not going to clutch my pearls over people liking things different from me. I'm also pretty open to most ships, so there's a variety on here (though you will have to ignore the twelveclara spam. SIGH ! )
I am fully caught up with all of Nuwho, and I am currently on Season 2 of Torchwood. I am also starting to dabble in the Big Finish audio dramas, and have been steadily going through the 8th Doctor's run.
DMs are open to mutuals, but asks are open to anyone else!
Twelve's plan in Deep Breath is kind of fucked up in the best possible character dissectey way.
Like he abandons Clara, lets her think he's changed, lets her think he's left her for dead, all on the assumption that she'll figure their captors out and successfully out-boss a room full of murderous clockwork cyborgs into giving her answers.
And he's completely right.
Fuck, it's such a deliciously messed up thing for him to do.
Because like ten minutes earlier, they're finally starting to fall back into a rhythm together. They're investigating the restaurant, piecing clues together, working the mystery. He slips the sonic out of his pocket, she kicks it up to him, they're bouncing observations off each other, making deductions together. You can actively see Clara beginning to settle into this new version of the Doctor.
Not fully trusting him yet.
But getting there.
Getting comfortable.
And then the Doctor takes the exact thing she's struggling with, her uncertainty, her fear that he's different now, that maybe she doesn't know him anymore, and turns it into part of the plan.
He weaponizes her doubt against both her and the clockwork cyborgs.
He looks her in the eye, tells her that at least one of them has to live, and leaves.
And my god, Jenna Coleman absolutely destroys me in the scenes that follow. Clara trying so hard not to breathe, but having to try even harder not to cry, and failing at both. Walking away while desperately trying to hold herself together. The panic, the oxygen deprivation, the heartbreak of genuinely believing the Doctor abandoned her.
It's brutal.
Because from Clara's perspective this is confirmation of every fear she's been carrying since the regeneration. The Doctor is different now. Maybe this face doesn't care about her. Maybe she really has been left behind.
But from the Doctor's perspective, the reason he can do this at all is because he trusts her completely.
He knows she'll start asking questions.
He knows she'll push back.
He knows she'll get to the truth because that's who Clara is.
So he leaves her there and trusts that she'll do exactly what he would do in the same situation while he runs off to throw together a disguise.
It's one of those moments that feels incredibly Doctor-ish and incredibly unfair at the same time.
Because buried underneath it is a weirdly profound compliment.
He's effectively saying, "I trust you to handle this."
But the way he chooses to communicate that is by emotionally throwing her into a nest of killer robots and hoping she figures it out.
Which she does.
Because unfortunately for Clara, he knows her almost as well as she knows him.
just some stuff i've accumulated during this fixation :) hope it proves handy :D
ianto's-desktop (livejournal) - archived most of the things found on the torchwood website during season 1 and season 2; the only thing missing is the videos. / note: click the headers of the posts to see the full thing, or some stuff with appear incomplete. took me a sec to figure out, lol
speaking of the website...
season 1 website (archive.org)
season 2 website (archive.org) - unlike the s1 website, the bulk of the s2 site's content is pretty inaccessible through the wayback machine (at least for me; maybe i'm doing something wrong), so thank g-d for ianto's desktop
there's also a good amount of rebloggable site content in this person's tumblr tag.
season 1 declassified (youtube)
season 2 declassified (youtube)
season 1 commentaries (mega.nz)
torchwood books (google drive) - gonna be honest, i haven't tried to download any of these myself
border princes audiobook (read by eve) + all of the radio plays (archive.org)
torchwood magazines (beta.reddit) - download links for all of them! p fuckin kewl
torchwood official yearbook (archive.org)
herecomesthedrums (youtube) - account that started posting before the show came out and is chock full of promos, trailers, interviews... some real fun goodies in there
torchwood: up close (youtube) - handful of bts videos with the cast + crew
season 1 unreleased tracks (soundcloud) - the end of days ones hrhghgh
out of time unreleased tracks (soundcloud) - i absolutely adore the music in this ep so i was so happy when i found these
the torchwood fanpop - this has sooooooo much content like i scrolled for a loooooong time and never reached the bottom. lotta stuff i hadn't seen before, too. there's fun hd promo pics, pics of the cast, and a lot of extremely early 2010s edits, graphics, and fanvids. / note: i also had this page bookmarked + it's got different content than the main page so i'll link it
aaand under the cut i'm gonna dump some silly stuff i've collected of the cast. but yeah, there ya go :-)
gally 2015: zip files of someone's pictures of eve, naoko, and burn (livejournal)
gally 2015: someone's account of the torchwood panels + meeting the cast (everyone was there but gareth!) - naoko & burn's solo panels / autograph table chats + barrowman photo-op + the naoko&burn&eve group panel / barrowman solo panel + burn&eve joint panel
dragon con 2013 (flickr) - i found two albums: this one, and this one, which has torchwood cast images on the first and second pages.
burn at chicago tardis 2012 (flickr) - ehehe 2012-2013 burn gorman w his classy little outfits my beloved. this is just hq pictures of that event. burn's in a bunch at the top and some at the end of the second page
the hub 2009 (flickr) - some kind of torchwood event. gareth, burn, eve, kai, and tom are all there. i dunno
hvff 2018: 'insights from the whole cast'
hvff 2018: video of everybody goofing off (twitter)
gareth endorsing owandy teehee (twitter) - this is getting dumped here bc im gay
sigh. (blogspot) - pics from that one fuckin 08 panel where gareth & john made out like 5 times + gareth took his jeans off for some reason. i don't even go here but i feel like this is unfortunately historically relevant. also the fujoshis in the comments are really funny
incomplete but sizable lists of cons gareth's been to and john's been to, in case anyone wants to dig around for photos/footage of any of these. the other cast members (excluding burn, for some reason) all have pages on this site as well, but theirs are super incomplete so i won't bother linking
we had Ncuti Gatwa as Dr Who and the show fumbled him harder than anyone has ever fumbled anything in the history of the world never forget that and never ever forgive russell t davies for that
something i think people of rtd's generation and above miss is that millennials, gen x and younger have literally grown up being taught about climate change our entire lives, it is a known problem, and we are fully aware that most governments and corporations are doing nothing (substantial) about it. the war between the land and the sea, like praxeus and orphan 55 in the chibnall era, frames the story as one in which humanity (i.e. middle-aged white guys) discovers that climate change is apparently a problem and what can i say except lol. lmao even
it's always framed as this horrifying realisation of an unavoidable tragedy: Middle Aged White Guy learns about The Horrors of Climate Change and that The Youths will be saddled with this Apocalyptic World and isn't that sad, guys? isn't that sad? how terrible that all the people who can materially improve things are old white men who don't care and will die before they can do anything :( there is literally nothing we can do but torture teenagers with the knowledge that we are actively ruining their future and don't care
Sorry no, it is REALLY funny to me that in S1E8 of Torchwood (They Keep Killing Suzie), Jack says that Gwen taking Suzie out of the compound is “getting herself fired” like there exists literally any precedent whatsoever for consequences inside this organization
because let us review, in roughly chronological order, the absolutely staggering catalogue of behavior before this action that has apparently not resulted in termination
We are introduced to the entire cast having stolen alien artifacts from work to use in their personal lives, and even after those specific items get returned it’s revealed they ALSO just casually have other stuff. Everyone at Torchwood steals from work like they’re employees at a Spirit Halloween.
Gwen accidentally unleashed an alien organism that killed people through the power of really intense orgasms because she unsafely threw a chisel at another coworker.
Owen used alien technology to stalk and psychologically torment someone outside of work hours which, granted, the guy sucked, but from an HR perspective that sentence alone should have caused the building to implode into a legal singularity.
Ianto secretly smuggled an entire Cyberman into the base, concealed it for who knows how long, continued defending her after she tried converting both the scientist he hired AND Gwen, and somehow retained employment afterward like this was a slightly awkward misunderstanding at a team meeting.
Owen left the keys to Torchwood’s branded SUV sitting in an unlocked vehicle with all of their classified alien tech and sensitive information inside.
Tosh read everyone’s minds without consent and later attempted to sneak her alien girlfriend into the secret underground alien bunker.
and THIS is the environment where Jack suddenly decides “whoa now Gwen, this crosses a line”
my sibling in the cosmos what line.
This organization has the structural integrity of wet cardboard. There is no line. There are vague suggestions of professionalism floating somewhere in the distance like ghosts on the horizon while everyone continues committing increasingly unbelievable workplace violations on company time.
I genuinely do not believe a fireable offense exists at Torchwood unless you perhaps arrive to work on time, emotionally stable, and capable of respecting boundaries, at which point the building itself would probably eject you for not fitting the established ecosystem.
the thing about doctor who is that if you get into in enough you have the ability to only ever consume doctor who. with out even rewatching or listening to anything. tbh it’s becoming a problem for me
[ID: A series of six GIF panels shows Ncuti Gatwa standing on a stage lit in red and purple neon, wearing a sheer dark brown shirt patterned with sparkling silver web-like lines and high-waisted trousers. Vertical signs behind him read “LIVE” and “MUSIC.” White captions appear across each GIF as he speaks to the audience.
In the first GIF, he smiles with his hands clasped together as the caption reads, “Millions of you watched me as Eric in ‘Sex Education’...”
In the second GIF, he grins and clasped hands while the caption reads, “And maybe 12 of you watched me in ‘Doctor Who’...”
In the third GIF, he shrugs with both hands thrown outward as the caption reads, “Hey, maybe that’s why I kept crying.”
In the fourth GIF, the caption reads, “And even though I have since regenerated into Billie Piper...”
In the fifth GIF, the camera cuts closer to his face as he gives a baffled sideways look. The caption reads, “I don’t understand it either.”
In the final GIF, he leans forward intensely with his hands clasped again as the caption reads, “I still love ‘Doctor Who.’ And I got to meet so many crazy characters.” /End ID]
