My CPTSD Life

Just a girl trying to figure stuff out... I am 24 so please stop telling me to talk to my guidance counselor 😂😂 TRIGGER WARNING

[fuckcptsd]

I’m never gonna be able to afford a life I don’t want to end

I should have done it 10 years ago before I was too broken

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I think I’m programmed to self destruct.

[mangojuulpoddd]

[alexanderpushkin-deactivated202]

women on the internet will be like i really don't want to go to the gynecologist bc i have ptsd and it really scares me and strangers will be like "have fun DYING OF CANCER YOU DUMB BITCH you can handle being uncomfortable unless you want to DIE there are trauma informed doctors bitch!" like that is not appropriate it's really out of pocket

[fuckcptsd]

Also I do want to die so what then?

[traumasurvivors]

You do not have to find a way to see your abuse in a positive light.

You don’t need to be inspiring to others or see the silver lining. You don’t need to be “stronger for it”.

You’re allowed to have bad feelings about it and acknowledge that it’s terrible and should never have happened.

You deserved to be safe and I’m so sorry you weren’t. You deserved better.

[fuckcptsd]

How do you know when a new memory is real?

What if my mind is just playing tricks on me?

[jam-exe]

Paralyzed

[image: a drawing of a first holding scrunched paper. Above the first is says

"I went through something terrible recently.

I don't know how to talk about it

And because of that,

I don't know how to talk to anyone full stop.

I don't know if they'd believe me

I don't know if I believe me"

And behind the wrist it says

"(Maybe it is just my fault after all)".]

[furiousgoldfish]

Me: wow I've been dealing with all this stress really well

Reality: dissociating

[darkestrellas]

you ever wanna cry but there’s too many reasons on your mind at once so you just sit there numbly bc same

[fuckcptsd]

How do people find an actually good psychiatrist??

[unpoetic-misery-deactivated2021]

It's russian roulette, baby. You either get help or you'll get worse.

[valtsv]

anxiety is so stupid it's like your brain went hey how would you like to experience what it feels like to be a terrified prey animal. you can never turn this ability off btw.

[fuckcptsd]

How do people find an actually good psychiatrist??

[fuckcptsd]

He’s the only one who’d understand...

And he’s gone

[fuckcptsd]

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while... been so numb I haven’t known what to say

[never-not-ever]

[reverie-system-deactivated20230]

Having PTSD really is something else.

I’ll be like, “I want to go to the store, but I have to wait and see if my brain thinks everyone is going to kill me today”

[fuckcptsd]

If flashbacks would fuck off that would be great