2023
Last year was amazing and unbelievable, i felt like i was living in a movie.
Start the year in the most unhappy place, in a work and a city that was making me unhappy, working for someone that didnt get about is workers, and probably involved in a lot shady stuff, people and money. In a city where rain and cold are part of your daily routine, getting wet because it was unavoidable, but still with amazing people that i met from another countries, going on dates with amazing women, but my energie got drop by a point i couldn´t be there anymore, so i just left the place with no notice, unhappy and not telling anyone...
The next stop around may, was the place where i reagroup and wanted to start thinking about what i wante to do, so i just went there to prepare for my 2 weeks in a city where 2 festivals where to happen... In this city estayed with my friend and my brother, went out, crazy nights, great vibes with the homies, but i left...
The next two weeks where a dream, fantasy, could think i could live something like that, first festival immaculate vibes, me and my group of friends, my confidence where out the roof, outifits on deck, on point, womens loking at me in the arena, in the streets, i saw life some of my favorite artist, first night i met an amazing woman, that is everything i´ve never thought i wanted, we enjoyed ourselfs for the entire night, saw each other the next day, in the end we didnt say goodbye but "See you later"... the next festival same thing but the vibes where different, still enjoy some of the best perfomance of amazing artist, after i got to see my family again after almost a year, from there everything went down, lost my flight back to my brother house and got banned from certain airline company, got so sick that i couldn´t fuck i woman i wanted the way i wanted...
Got back to my brother´s house, looking for jobs, tryng to get my visa aproved to work there but got denied, tryng to think about what i wanted for myself, my live, the 2/3 months was the moment of my life where i felt more lost, wanting to die, looking for ways to kill myself, ghosting everyone in my life, loosing the joy of life, the joy of living, seen everything fallin in you, having my brother at that moment was important, because he understood what i was going through and gave me a place where i could be myself and reborn, he took me back to a place where i had to enjoy the little wins of the day to day things, he was going through stuff i was going through stuff, but we help each other...
I started to think about my death and forgot to simplify things, till i found myself again, and i took a decision where i found a new country, new city and new job...
Here in this new place im taking things slowly, in a enjoyable pace, im back to beggining, i have to learn a new industrie, i have to learn how to take orders again, restarting in a new culture. just enjoying the process, the girl i met on the first day of the festival we will see each other again in 2024, my joy of life, joy of living, seen my future, seen my confindence back again...
SO MANY STORIES I DIDNT PUT HERE, DIDNT ELABORATE PROPERLY, IF YOU READ THIS TILL THE END, ASK AND I SHALL WRITTE THE ONE MADE YOU CURIOUS... THIS WAS A YEAR WHERE I SEE MY HIGHEST AND LIVED MY LOWEST OF THE LOW...












