stuff in my mind

diagnosed with ADHD at 28. I want to share experiences with others and what I have in my mind. English is not my first language

[fudnstuff]

Almost 2 years after I created this page (and abandoned it) and I've been officially diagnosed as autistic.

So.. I guess I am autistic and also have ADHD !

Still trying to process it and accept everything, if anyone has any advice it'll be welcome!

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¡¡¡ Question for people with ADHD / autistic people:

How do you explain exhaustion / burnout to neurotipicals?

Until now I have used like a "battery" analogy, as if I am running out of battery / energy and need to recharge, but apparently they don't get this..

I need to explain it to my therapist

[jennhasadhd]

ADHD tax is: wasting 20 minutes guessing your password, only to reset it and find out that your new password cannot be your old password...

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The ADHD moment when you create a playlist one day, listen to it in the future and think to yourself: wow I love this music, I wonder who created the playlist!

It's me, I love my own music taste.

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I love the shoes trick.

And when I combine it with the race against the clock.. man I could become president in a day!

Basically it's:

Don't take your shoes off when you get home and set a countdown for 10 minutes.

Then do as much as possible in that time.

I cleaned my entire apartment in that time (by shoving things behind doors of course).

But, I mean, if I can't see it it's not a problem, right? (s)

[fudnstuff]

Story time: my ADHD and diaries.

I never wrote in diaries until..

I remember years ago, before one of my travels a friend gave me a blank diary and told me to write everyday, because according to her: “I always forget and don't tell her anything”

So I did.

I backpacked around central america for 4 months and wrote every single day.

Now, here is the thing:

The first 2 weeks my entries were a list, just a list of the things I have done that day (woke up, had breakfast, went to the beach, etc…) Eventually I realized that that wasn't what she wanted from me; so I tried to write more.

BUT when I tried to do that I made it worse.

I would start describing something, and then write what I thought about that, and then my theories connected to one detail of the story and on and on..

By the time I’d get tired of writing I’d filled multiple pages with only ONE part of the day, ONE story.

Never made any description past lunch time. Who knows what I did for dinner those 4 months?

I do have written records of my thoughts on the connection between colonization and current division of social classes!

[fudnstuff]

Everyone keeps talking about the wonders and benefits of working from home.

They hope that after the pandemic they'll continue with the "home-office"

And.. I really don't.

I find it way harder to focus, to work, to even sit down to do something related to work if I'm home. Especially if I'm alone.

Is this just me or other people with ADHD feel the same??

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I woke up being hyperactive and jittery, so of course, I had a big cup of black coffee to calm down.

It worked.

It's the ADHD

[fudnstuff]

Once in a while I forget that I have ADHD and then read an article about it, relate to it and feel like shit.

Like I go..what if I REALLY have ADHD?

It's as if I have never believed it..

[fudnstuff]

I disappeared, of course I got bored with this and then forgot..

Is it possible to be constant with something and have ADHD??

[fudnstuff]

While writing the last post I thought about another thing I wanted to write, and now I've already forgotten

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Omg the tags are wrong, I also forgot how to spell apparently

[tfw-adhd]

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If you are neurodivergent how do you handle the holidays?

Someone else getting drunk and on tumblr?

[fudnstuff]

While writing the last post I thought about another thing I wanted to write, and now I've already forgotten

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I hate the moment in holidays when people start reflecting on the past.

I can't help feeling like I been either wasting my life or that somehow I don't meet the expectations.

[fudnstuff]

Ok, I just told one of my therapists that I won't be seeing her anymore.

I feel bad but it had to be done... I was already forgetting and mixing the information I have told each other 🤦🏻‍♀️

[fudnstuff]

Now that I don't feel bad anymore (like 5 minutes after) I really think this should be a show!

Imagine: the protagonist has ADHD and they have to handle the amount of lies needed to maintain a double life without forgetting them...

It would have 1 episode. 20 minutes.

Everything is on fire.

[fudnstuff]

Ok, I just told one of my therapists that I won't be seeing her anymore.

I feel bad but it had to be done... I was already forgetting and mixing the information I have told each other 🤦🏻‍♀️