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2004 baby - they/he - i don't use content warnings

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i miss my vibrator

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every time a TVL fan says "wow, the monsters in my monster show do bad things.....SHOCKER!! 🤪" i shoot another hostage

[gnomebutch]

every man who says women have it easier because they can make porn when financially unstable legitimately have to kill themselves I am 100% serious

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one of my friends(?) says he's been getting into yaoi lately, i said oh im sure

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doing some important research.....

Ethel Cain songs assigned to iwtv characters

Louis de point du lac:

• Nettles - (life before turning, his family, hopes for the future)

• Dust Bowl - (lestat literally blood-stained blonde, dysfunctional relationship, traumatic pasts)

• Knuckle Velvet - (could be about louis or from louis pov)

• Sun bleached flies - (mourning everything he's lost including his family/original life, claudia, relationships)

• Thoroughfare - (just fits his vibe)

+ Contenders: American Teenager, Wrestling in dirt pits

Claudia:

• Family Tree - (kind of angry, empowering, about breaking free from family)

• Janie - (madeline :(, longing for understanding and connection with a girl)

• Golden Age - (yearning for old age, trying to be happy in the present)

• Head in the wall - (misery and anger from being mistreated by the men around her)

• Hard Times - (parental abuse, sadness)

+ Contenders: Homecoming, Half-cocked, Willoughby's Interlude (demo), Fuck me eyes

Lestat de lioncourt:

• Strangers - (kidnapped and kept in a basement trauma)

• Inbred - (fucked up family)

1. Family Tree (Intro) - (HE CANNOT ESCAPE HIS MOTHERS BLOOD!!!)

• Vacillator - (detached view of love, freakd out)

• Michelle Pfeiffer - (bittersweet, realizing you're a bad influence on the person you love)

Armand:

• Tempest - (loneliness, self-sabotage, resentment)

• Punish - (effects of his childhood trauma on the way he experiences love, misery, mourning past self)

• Onanist - (he wants to know love)

• Pulldrone - (somewhat apathetic, obsessive, deranged view of the world and himself, this is kinda what i imagine his internal experience is)

+ Contenders: Punish (demo 2)

Daniel Molloy:

1. Waco, Texas - (bittersweet nostalgia and sadness for the past, regret, difficulty with relationships)

• Amber Waves - (disconnect from himself and the world around him, drugs)

• God's Country - (unrealistic expectations, idealistic view, melancholy)

2. Crush - (he kindof has cool loser vibes)

+ Contenders: 78farenheit

Akasha:

• Housofpsychoticwomn - (scary, suffocating, intense force)

• Ptolemaea - (kept by marius.... , discomfort and disdain for men, daughters of cain prayer reminds me of her speech)

• Two-headed Mother - (two-headed mother pulled you from the black and she can send you back)

+ Contenders: ad nauseum, 004 (Ashmedaii)

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listening to the secret diary of laura palmer audiobook narrated by sheryl lee and genuinely losing my mind

[bifauxnenarmand]

why did they give louis and claudia sa traumas so they can relate it to lestat when armand was right there (not to mention how louis’ was a one off line and immediately brushed off). why did they make incestual/parental abuse a huge theme in the same season marius gets introduced and not expand upon that with marius and armand to show another interesting parallel between lestat and armand. why was armand not in the round table of characters who had significant relationships with lestat. why did they have lestat mock armand being a child sex slave in a concert and armand post revenge porn of lestat and his mother only to never expand upon the repercussions or the characters’ feelings about it except for lestat having a panic attack and getting consoled by louis. why did the one time someone acknowledge armand’s csa and slavery without making a quip about it have to be the result of armand brutally torturing someone he’s abused and being used as a mouthpiece for the writers’ antiblackness and victim-blaming rhetoric while the character who made a humiliating spectacle out of his being a child sex slave in a concert gets not even a confrontation about it. why do they not gaf about lesmand and armand for that matter so much that they badly fumbled what could’ve been the narrative foils of all time and clarity on why lestat and armand feel the way they do about it each other

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they better retcon this entire season into a giant hallucinated shroom trip that happened completely in Lestat's head

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happy birthday laura palmer

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had a horrible panic attack hours ago, I'm still not well. feel sick. i don't know what to do about my life any more

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about to watch the finale, please pray for me

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omg yall the hunger games are starting they even brought in the dl scientologist

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when will i be immune to the all-consuming emptiness

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where the hell are people watching the tvl final

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millennial guy with acoustic guitar playing in the psychiatrist lobby has to be risky for suicidal people

[kittyit]

Invisible Women: Data Bias in a World Designed for Men by Caroline Criado Perez

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i still have this problem today lol. if something is considered to be "for smart people", i will immediately be averse to it. "for smart people" to me directly correlates "humiliation ritual"

even when playing against women. although men are obviously the MAIN issue, and in those cases it's simply about degrading women and queer people as a whole (since they see me as both)

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little brother just yelled in my face for 20min for giving him a sarcastic answer to a question i thought was in bad faith.....

he got absolutely furious that i wouldn't say sorry, called me retarded multiple times, was so mad at me for being rude (as if he isn't rude to me all the fkn time). and then my dad just walks in and defends him. i'm so done living here. this has been my life for so many years. i am fucking DONEEEE