One Day I Will Be Back In....

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To much Hope.

I have passed the written test for San Diego Police Department. I have moved on to the next step, the physical. I know I can pass this physical no problem. I have started to get excited and get my hopes up. I try to keep reminding my self that this is a long shot and because of my past it will be really hard to get past the background investigation part of the process, but I want so badly to get in. I have also started school, my day consist of working out the school work. I am actually doing really good in school. Its weird I am not sure if it is because I am so bored that I am reading my text book for fun or if this topic is interesting to me. I am taking introduction to sociology. I relates a lot to law enforcement and I do find it very interesting. When I get into and academy this blog will become a hey guess what happened today blog. I have also decided that if I dont get into San Diego PD I am going to join the Marine Corp. If I go there this blog will become a ahhh so much yelling and why must they wake me up this early.

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Today is the day.

Today is the day of my exit interview with the sheriffs department. Today I get to the the real reason i was let go, hopefully. I am not sure I want to know. I mean I have heard the rumors, I think I know and it was unfair, but I am kind of glad it happened. I was getting to content at being in corrections, which in not my ultimata goal. I want t be an officer on the streets. I want to be putting them in jail not watching them sleep. Many of the people in corrections want to get out too. I need to get out there.

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Just try to stay positive.

Thats what everyone keeps telling me. Just be positive your time will come. I dont want to wait, I have nothing. I want to have a job, boyfriend, hell i would settle for a dog. I am 24 and just want to be settled with an apartment and job. I can figure everything else out later.

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Can any one help my with the LAPD hiring process?

I went in for my pre-investigation interview. I filled out all the paper work and explained it to my interviewer. All the other candidates were either given a yellow pice of paper and told to go to the second floor or like me were told we would get a letter in the mail in 2 weeks. I was disqualified wasn't I?

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I got to the next step with LAPD. It was the equivalent to getting the big envelope to college, because the sent me this huge packet. It included a nutrition log, a fitness log, and soooo many seminars to go to. I am excited and want to start working there so bad. I want to go to the academy and be through it and back in my uniform.

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So I have been working out, not as hard as I could be but I am still not very optimistic that I will get into a Police Department because of my past. It is sad and I don’t know what to tell my former co-workers that are now my friends. I know that now that they are friends with me because of me and not just because we worked together. I just don’t want to be on that out side. I was in the Law Enforcement family and now I am on the out side and I hate it. People keep telling me that in time you will be back in it. I just takes time. I don’t like time. I need to be doing something. School is not really for me but it seems like a good option right now. I loved that everyday as a Law Enforcement office was different and you never knew what was going to happen. I miss it.

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Here is a little about me.

Hello my name is Jessica. The purpose if this blog to to get everything off my chest. I know you all have your own problems and I don't expect any feed back. This is my diary. A way for me to vent, document all that is going on, and move forward. I was a correctional deputy with a Sheriff's department. I was fired. The reason the said I was fired was because I was on probation. I was not in any trouble and I honestly have no idea why I was fired. Since then I have gone through many ups and down trying to figure out what to do. I have apply to many other agencies. I have been told that my chances of getting hired are slim. That a better idea is to go back to school, do some soul searching and in a year if Law Enforcement is what you really want apply then. I don't need to search any where. Law Enforcement is what I am going to do. It is my passion and what is I will be doing for many years to come.