I managed to pick up my camera the other day for the first time, properly, in years. I had a fun little play about with various stuff. With not having photoshop any more, I downloaded a new editor and had fiddle with that as well. Here you see the end result. It’s not fantastic but it IS symbolic. And that’s why I wanted to share it. My illnesses prevent me from indulging in the things I love and joy, as a form of self punishment and denial. It was a real challenge to allow myself to do this. I might not ever win the war against my disordered and diseased brain, but I will continue to revel in the little victories. After all, that’s what keeps us going.