Running down a dream

Where all my fangirl obsessions go! Hawaii 5-0, NCIS, The Blacklist, Blindspot, Supernatural, Mr. Robot, Preacher, Stargate SG-1/Atlantis, Falling Skies, Fringe. Multi-shipper, fanfic writer. Mother, lover, MLT, and creative mind! I also run the Indie RP blog konokalakaua50

[gateruner]

I am over this life and this fucked up world. I can’t take all the anger and hatred and violence anymore.

I pray every day to go to sleep and not wake up the next day. But I do. And it’s torture because I can’t find a way to end it all without risking that it doesn’t work or I end up a vegetable.

Either way this existence is shit. And I’m tired of hearing how it’s going to get better because it’s not. It just gets worse. Every. Damn. Day. It gets worse and worse. And for what?! Nothing.

Fuck life. I’m over it

[gateruner]

Trying to get back to my online activities.  I recently started watching the show "Evil" on CBS.  It's really good.  Sort of like X-Files meets Fringe with a serious creepy vibe thrown in. 

But why does Christine Lahti always play such unlikeable characters?  Not even the kind of character you love to hate.  Just hate.  Period.  Ugh.  But I still look at her and think Steve's mom.

[gateruner]

Me, after watching the Supernatural season finale this morning

[gateruner]

Supernatural Bag

Finally finished my Supernatural bag! I’ve been busy working on making different style bags and purses and had to make this one for myself as a prototype.

Will be making them for sale in the future

Bag is heavy canvas with cotton lining and vinyl trims. Embroidery also done by me. The pictures are looking kinda wonky on my phone. Hope they come across well

[krxs100]

YA’LL....

Mainstream Media Now Openly Reporting on the Elite Lining Up to Ingest the Blood of Children…. Seriously

Once the talk of conspiracy theorists — the rich ingesting the blood of the young to foster longevity — is now a reality and an actual business in the United States. Not only is it a business but billionaires are actually admitting their interest in it. Now, even the mainstream media is reporting it.

Peter Thiel, the billionaire co-founder of PayPal and adviser to Donald Trump told Inc. magazine:

“I’m looking into parabiosis stuff, which I think is really interesting. This is where they did the young blood into older mice and they found that had a massive rejuvenating effect. I think there are a lot of these things that have been strangely under-explored.”

As Vanity Fair reports, Ambrosia, which buys its blood from blood banks, now has about 100 paying customers. Some are Silicon Valley technologists, like Thiel, though Karmazin stressed that tech types aren’t Ambrosia’s only clients and that anyone over 35 is eligible for its transfusions.

Aside from the gruesome historical and occult background of such practices, there is literally NO DATA that suggests the process even works.

“There‘s just no clinical evidence [that the treatment will be beneficial], and you‘re basically abusing people‘s trust and the public excitement around this,” Stanford University neuroscientist Tony Wyss-Coray, who conducted a 2014 study of young blood plasma in mice, told Science magazinelast summer, as reported by Vanity Fair. 

#STAYWOKE

[gateruner]

What the actual fuck?!  This makes me want to delete my PayPal account.

Aside from everything stated above can I just add that you are taking away from a national blood shortage in this country?  How about using it to SAVE LIVES instead of trying to scam people into believing it can somehow have youthful benefits.

Then again, people inject botulism into their bodies all the time so go figure.

[gateruner]

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW??!!!

AFTER ALL THE SHIT THEY WENT THROUGH.   SERIOUSLY?!!

AND IT WAS  GREAT EPISODE RIGHT UNTIL THE END.  SON OF A BITCH.

[thewanderingace]

I yelled so loudly! WHAT WAS THE POINT OF IT ALL IF THEY WERE JUST GOING TO GIVE IT UP!!! I’M SO MAD!!!

[gateruner]

Exactly!! I can’t believe they did that. And just gave it up like that. Poof. All gone. It makes the entire thing meaningless now.

[thewanderingace]

Completely meaningless!! All the planning, all the work, the stress, the miney spent on it, ALL MEANINGLESS!!! I’M SO FURIOUS!!!!What about all of Danno’s talk about wanting to retire and to be able to spend time with Grace and Charlie and not dying in a hail of bullets? Suddenly that doesn’t matter to him? If he and Steve were gonna not go through with it and end up right back at the beginning then why include this storyline at all?!! I don’t get it!

[gateruner]

It doesn’t make sense at all. I do appreciate that Danny said he didn’t want to do it without Steve. But if I was Danny I’d be ready to knock the shit out of Steve right now. To make it all the way to the opening and then poof. Ugh

[gateruner]

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW??!!!

AFTER ALL THE SHIT THEY WENT THROUGH.   SERIOUSLY?!!

AND IT WAS  GREAT EPISODE RIGHT UNTIL THE END.  SON OF A BITCH.

[thewanderingace]

I yelled so loudly! WHAT WAS THE POINT OF IT ALL IF THEY WERE JUST GOING TO GIVE IT UP!!! I’M SO MAD!!!

[gateruner]

Exactly!! I can’t believe they did that. And just gave it up like that. Poof. All gone. It makes the entire thing meaningless now.

[gateruner]

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW??!!!

AFTER ALL THE SHIT THEY WENT THROUGH.   SERIOUSLY?!!

AND IT WAS  GREAT EPISODE RIGHT UNTIL THE END.  SON OF A BITCH.

[gateruner]

[gateruner]

After a while you learn who your true friends are. The ones you can count on and the ones who only want to be friends because of what you can do for them.

[neverbiso]

Nobody is busier than a person who does not want you.

[diekingdomcome]

Reread it again and process it

[gateruner]

Clingman’s Dome - Eastern TN / Western NC Border (10.22.2018)

Highest Point in the Smoky Mountains and Tennessee (Elevation 6,643 ft)

Highest Point along the Appalachian Trail

[gateruner]

I have been struggling with things lately, though I'm not exactly sure why.  Maybe it's just working to get settled into the new house and being so busy all the time but I feel down and I'm not sure what's going on.

I love the house and the area.  Love my job and have settled in to my new shift well.  There are stresses, as with any job, like our new line automation but overall I enjoy it.  I look forward to going into work and having a good time with my coworkers.

But I am finding I am tired all the time, don't want to do anything but sleep when I'm not working and have a lack of motivation.  I have been making myself do stuff around the house, getting things organized, etc.  but it's a struggle. 

I feel down and just generally blah.  I can't explain it and I wish I could.  I haven't had much time to be online so I have lost touch with a lot of what's going on here and in fandom.  Maybe that's part of it?  I'm missing that?  Who knows.

Anyway, I just wanted to check in and say I haven't disappeared for good.  I am still around.  I am working to get my routine back in order and hope that once the fall season comes around I will have more time online.

Also, I have 5 registration keys for the new site Pillowfort.  If anyone is interested in having one, drop me a message and I can hook you up.  If you have't heard about the site, go check it out!  http://pillowfort-io.tumblr.com/post/177167113036/pillowfort-a-potted-history-of-fandom-and-the

It's got some great potential!

Hope everyone is well and take care!

[intothebadlandsbr-blog]

heels porn*

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‘Into the Badlands’ Season 3: The Martial Arts Drama’s Amazing Costumes, From Sketch to Screen — Exclusive

https://www.indiewire.com/gallery/into-the-badlands-season-3-costumes/#!1/itb_308_am_1208_0009_rt/

[badlands-periodic]

Ugh, these costumes are all sooooo good.

[gateruner]

It’s happening!

I’m about to go “home” for the last time.  I will be returning to Mississippi to finish packing the house and we close on Thursday.  I am both excited and nervous (nervous that we are still packing at this point and not everything is out of the house yet!)

It’s a flurry of emotions.  Excitement and anxiety and a good helping of stress.  But I am still finding that I don’t regret the decision to move.  I will be glad to be out of that state. 

I am stressing with my job at the moment, but I found out some news last night that actually helps alleviate some of that.  So that helps a bit.

Then in one more week, we will close on the house in Tennessee and I will have a new permanent home!  It’s all coming to together, I just need to breathe and remember that the flurry of paperwork, phone calls, logistics, and hair pulling madness will be worth it in the end.

[gateruner]

We have a house!

Not just a house but a brand NEW house! The deal I mentioned before didn’t pan out. And then this baby fell into our laps!

I am so excited!! I LOVE it! Plus it’s like 5 minutes from work. We close July 19!