killjoy

18 gotta dance in the rain, gotta dance in the pain my shitposts under #queer chronicles

[vympr]

i love reading sad books bc when your own grief is stopped up inside you like a clogged drain you can grieve for a character on a page and understand that you're also grieving for yourself a little bit

[gayoticmess]

i am so fucking scared of grief

[vyva-melinkolya]

idk i just feel like if someone else had my life, they would do a much better job living it

[turflytl3]

I feel like the moas fandom falls into the category of fandom that cares more about bl ships than a femal protagonist. Ok im not calling the fandom misogynistic but something I've noticed in the moas fandom is that gilben gets the same if not more attention than grace despite having only like 5-8 minutes together in the whole film and the more I think about it, it doesn't really make sense. Like Ben has very, very little characterization in the whole film and there's arguably more to explore or like add to grace in fan content but there's so little compared to gilben. I'm sure the fandom just loves the thought of star crossed lovers and I'll admit that the concept of gilben is heart wrenching and can be relatable to viewers but I feel like it gets to a point where people act like they're what the whole movie is about and completely go over grace and her struggles, like I rewatched it some time ago after only having fan content and completely forgot so much of Grace's story. Also other characters are almost completely forgotten about like Ken and Pinky. I've seen maybe like 1 edit of pinky and very little fanart despite her being a very impactful character in the movie. Obviously people are allowed to like characters and ships, im honestly guilty of making way too much gilben fan art and this is in no way targeting anyone in the fandom but this was just something ive been thinking about for a while and wanted to spit out somewhere pls dont dox me

[ninini-222]

Watched Memoir of a Snail. Bawling my eyes out rn

[gayoticmess]

very homophobic that pride month is ending and my life did not change for the better at all

[gayoticmess]

turn into a cloud, sebastian, TURN INTO A CLOUD

[psychabolition]

It feels like the vast majority of people I meet are unable to conceptualize any struggle/"abnormal" character trait without medicalizing and pathologizing it.

At this stage in my life, it's completely alien to me, and it makes me deeply sad. The worst part is that there's rarely any malicious intent behind it. They simply don't realize how harmful the rhetoric they're feeding into is. These are people who genuinely suffer, but are so unwilling to accept that their suffering isn't a random fluke of their biology—it's a product of the world we live in, which is governed by cruel and inhumane norms.

I don't blame them. Capitalism is so soul-crushing that it's easier to say "maybe I'm the problem." I can understand not wanting to look the reality of this world in the eyes.

But it's hard to imagine genuinely being friends with someone who's fully bought into the propoganda that any deviation from the norm is a sign of inherent brokenness. Even if they don't mean any harm.

And the vast, vast majority of people believe this.

It really makes me feel like there's no place for me.

[ramblingsfromthytruly]

picking a movie to watch should not be this hard

[laciffo-satan]

Did anyone else skip their teenage "rebellion" years and stick to their teenage "depression" years a lot more prominently?

[phalange-the-28th]

We support all mental illnesses people when someone has not just the “cleaning” OCD:

[takemetobogman]

as a chronically single person with serious abandonment issues, impostor syndrome and irrational fear that if I ever opened up about my past and deepest darkest thoughts/urges, my whole identity will then be defined by my vices and the person who's supposed to love me will see me in different light and leave; I felt so fucking bad for Emma. This movie hit such a nerve. That scene where Charlie removes lines that talk about her "empathy" and "kindness" from his wedding speech made me teary eyed as someone who is often described as empathetic and kind by her peers but feel non deserving of those labels because my kindness started out as me trying to compensate for my vices. I mean I was just a kid who lashed out in worst possible ways and a part of me understands that I'm not the same person anymore but fuckkkk imagine spending your entire life trying to unlearn all those horrible ways of coping only to open up to your friends about something you almost did and them calling you crazy and a psychopath. SHE WAS FIFTEEN!

Fuck Rachel.

[susiephone]

just saw "the drama", so spoilers ahead, but one thing i found really interesting is how for both emma and rachel's "worst things", they both did something objectively awful, that fortunately didn't result in anyone actually getting hurt in the end......almost entirely by luck.

emma would've gone through with the shooting if another one hadn't occurred and seeing the fallout didn't snap her out of it.

rachel's actions could've resulted in that kid being hurt or even dying, it was just fortunate that he was found before any serious harm was done.

the difference is that emma knows how lucky she got, as horrible as that is to say about one of her classmates dying. emma knows how close she came to irreparably ruining her life and several other people's, and she's clearly rattled by it. rachel? rachel doesn't seem to register that what she did was wrong, let alone how much worse it could've ended.

and at the end of the day, emma chose not to go through with hurting people. don't get me wrong, she came dangerously close, she brought a weapon to school and it was down to chance that she changed her mind. but she did change her mind, and she made an effort to turn her life around and become better. rachel says she totally would've done the right thing if the kid hadn't been found quickly...but she conveniently never has to prove it. it's in the past, it all worked out more or less okay, so she gets to keep thinking that what she did was bad, but not that bad, really it was harmless, it was a stupid impulse decision but ultimately no one got hurt so, no harm no foul, right?

emma sees the worst thing a person could do and thinks, "there but for the grace of god go i." rachel sees it and thinks it could never be her.

[accidentallyuseless]

was blown away by the pure HUMANITY of The Drama. the at times painfully awkward interactions, dialogue that actually feels like real life, down to the awkward and ill-timed laughs, charlie's crash-out when he kissed misha, while obviously in the wrong it's a realistic depiction of a breakdown, the fear of marrying someone you don't actually know pushed to the extreme, not to mention the realism of what being forced into a small bubble on the internet can do to a child, forcing them into the belief that this is who they are, then the quick turnaround when emma finds a group that pops that bubble.

[diamondeyes-deluxe]

My favorite thing about The Drama is Rachel's character because she reminds me of the kind of young person online who thinks the mere act of performing disgust or outrage at the morally wrong actions of someone else is somehow politically productive at all, or that it makes them a "good person."

Whenever I see someone disregard or disparage ideas of rehabilitation for people who have done (or in this movie's case, almost did) unforgivable things, I want to grab them and ask "what should be done, then?" Because, people like that do exist, in spades, and short of executing or imprisoning or Black Mirror White Bearing every person who's done or thought of doing something immoral, rehabilitation is probably the best bet for minimizing harm, right? (And if your answer to immorality IS execution or isolation... i do not think youre really the more moral one here...) But even taking out any potential empathy for the humans who do or think of doing immoral acts, sometimes, giving them the tools to lead a happy and fulfilling life are the exact thing that leads them AWAY from the potential acts of like, shooting up a school, regardless of how undeserving you think they are of that.

Its especially interesting because, in the movie, Emma had arguably done way more activism against gun violence than Rachel ever did, despite her cousin, but this means nothing. Emma's primary motivation for her planned shooting was bullying and the isolation she felt (and TCC tumblr), but it was when she found friends and real community and something else to invest her energy into, she was able to pull herself out of those dark thoughts and, like, rejoin society. And what does Rachel do when she finds out? Spreads rumors, and tries to isolate her. And, I say this not to victim blame, but to acknowledge that no one makes those big decisions in a vacuum and that understanding these things better is a NECESSITY for preventing them, which should be the fucking goal; that is exactly the kind of behavior that made her want to do that when she was 15.

[karina-the-bulldykefreak]

Guys please confirm for me that this makes sense?

[lttledog]

I Saw the TV Glow (2024), dir. Jane Schoenbrun.