kresty☮️🚬 @geneweedsmoker - Tumblr Blog

OMIGOSH, I ALMOST FORGOT TO POST MY OLD FRUK PENCIL SLOP

#hetalia #aph hetalia #england aph #france aph #aph fruk #hetalia fruk #fruk #francis bonnefoy #arthur kirkland #peniclslop

im trying to get over art block and uplift my mood by silly drawings, so here's my gnb oc pasha chernyavy

p.s.: ngl but i wouldn't mind if they acctually add cossacks in the game thoooo..👉👈

#gnb oc #gnb roblox #gnb art #gnb ocs #gnb #guts and blackpowder #i accidently found a video on youtube with traditional kuban cossacks songs and now i feel patriotic cuz im from kuban #and cossacks are hella cool

guys, i have artblock for more than half a year now, i've drawn only 3-4 pics for this year and those are absolute garbage(like literally ANY my work for ANY year lmao). i don't remember the last time i have seriously drawing smth and truely, i have no interest nor any wish to draw something. it's crazy how indifferent i've become for almost the only hobby i had passion for. i'm trying to do smth else but i cannot do anything at all. i feel so fcking tired after FIFTEEN MINUTES of not so hard work. all i do is basically js sleeping. idk why, i just don't want to do anything at all, i'm NOT ABLE to do smth. i barely even do smth basic on my phone, like, it's hard for me to read fricking oneshot fanfics, i feel like i've been working on factory for 16 hours after i do at least smth. i waste my days just sleeping, rewatching old videos on youtube(only on dumb topics bcuz my jelly brain can't process smth harder than collen hoover books slander and even them it barely processes), eating some unhealthy shi and daydreaming. everything became THAT bad so i started to have troubles with basic hygiene(and it's actually insane for me cuz i've NEVER had them and always felt a need to wash myself but now i can not shower for 3 days feeling no need in it and that's gross). i don't know what's going on with me, like, i have poor mental statement for almost 2 years and i started to go to therapy half a year ago but for some reason it becomes only worse. it's never been that bad. i truely don't know what to do, like, i can't waste my best years like that but for some reason idgaf about it and just dream about completely isolating myself from the whole world somewhere on an island and do what i want to do without any rush.

tbh i have NO idea why did i even write this because i know that nobody really cares but i had a need to vent about it at least to somebody, like, journaling is good, but i lwk want to vent to real people and i have NO friends(when i say no i mean ZERO) soo uhhb yeah, here's my bullshit talk about nothing.

#shitpost #venting #art block #maybe depression??(ig so but idk i cannot diagnose myself lol)#burnt out #im stinking like a bum and it doesnt really bother me but it bothers my parents so i gotta touch water today #bedrotting (but not in a cute core depressed white girl lana del ray fan but in a IM LITERALLY STINKING IN MY BED and i think there's a #spider but idrc and his name is tolik btw)

i love the sillies❤️