Hi all,
Today I'm going to discussing how I can find a way to eat intuitively and make a plan to still lose weight. It'll be me mostly talking through things so it's going to be kind of ramble. I apologize in advance for that.
Inherently, intuitive eating is the anti-diet. It's meant to break a person free from the chains of diet mentality. The whole concept and all of the principles (see here) mesh with me quite nicely...except the fact that I'm supposed to not want to lose weight. The book and many other sources tell me that I can not effectively eat intuitively if I focus on my body image.
This concept is difficult for me for a couple of reasons.
I've been focusing on my weight since I was what...eleven? Sad but true. Since I was a child I had family members pointing out my pudge. It's kind of hard to change a mindset you've had for 16 years.
I also still think it's okay and possible to love yourself but want to want to improve how you look.
But I guess I need to work on the "loving" myself part first. One thing intuitive eating tells you is to admire and appreciate your body for where it is in this moment. It's kind of an act of mindfulness if you think about it.
When we are being mindful we do not focus on what was or what will be. We focus on what is. That's why I love Yoga so much. Because it tells us that where we are in that moment - wether we can hardly touch our toes or if we can do the splits - is perfect.
So by that standard, my body right now, is perfect. I may strive to improve it and make it better but in every passing moment, my body is perfection. And in thinking my body is perfect, I begin to love my body. And in loving my body, I begin to care for it. And I care for it by giving it exercise so that it can grow strong. I feed it good food so that it can function at it's best. And I allow it to take in treats in moderation because I do not deprive it of anything.
So what's to be said about weight loss goals? In understanding that the number by itself won't be the only thing that makes me happy, but one of many things that will contribute to my happiness, would it be okay to set that goal?
I have a number in mind - about 25lbs less than I weigh right now. I have other health goals as well. I want to start a daily yoga and meditation practice. I want to run a certain distance. And I want to feel a certain way about myself and my body. I understand my happiness isn't dependent on that number. And I understand there are more factors that contribute to a general feeling of wellness. So that being said, I'll still keep that number in mind.
So what I'm concluding is this:
In addition to working on my physical appearance, I will work on loving myself in the now. My body deserves to be treated well both physically and mentally. Weight loss goals are fine as long as I realize my happiness does not depend on them. I feel like these are things people have figured out in the past but only after they hit their goals. I'm kind of doing this thing backwards.
I'll continue the process of intuitive eating. Realizing I can have whatever I want (in moderation). That food isn't bad. That I should eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full...and all of the other amazing principles the book lays out. But I'm going to continue to work on improving my body, how it looks, how it functions and how I think about it.
Love Always,
-A

















