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Ok so I read your shallergies fics and first of all: magical, show stopping, stupendous, thank you for your talent.
Second of all!!! In one of your fics you have like an almost throw away line where Hayden mentions he’s had to stop the other Voyageurs/Metros players from fucking with Shane’s food and like. Now my mind is rife with the ✨possibilities✨ of that scenario. Like. One of them adds peanuts or something to something Shane thinks is safe as a prank and Hayden doesn’t catch it and suddenly Shane is in anaphylaxis and everyone is freaking the fuck out. The next time Ilya plays Montreal that one player gets laid the FUCK out for some reason.
combo-ing with @pitrosa just because both of y'all were getting to the same DELICIOUS possibility of a wild amount of angst.
like the idea of someone fucking with shane's food at a party at jackie and hayden's place not because they know shane is allergic but because they're shitty and i 100% buy some bigoted asshole seeing it as a way shane is just trying to be special and other. so they knowingly do something like stir in some peanut butter or mix in some coconut oil. literally just something they see easily available in this one minute window in the kitchen they have when they're just being an asshole.
and even beyond just the nightmare of now shane has a reaction and this is one more thing that the team didn't know about previously and can spin into "so you didn't trust us?" IGNORING WHAT JUST FUCKING HAPPENED HERE, the fact that like. now shane isn't safe eating at events. or even fucking. being at events, tbh. like GOD the isolation of your team is cold to you now and you don't know which one of them fucked with you and you don't know that one or more of them won't do it again to hurt you. and it's not like any of them are going to fess up and own it because bigots are cowards and ALSO (even though shane wouldn't do it, i don't think) this is now like. pressing charges level.
and it's ONE MORE FUCKING THING that shane was afraid of!! and then it happened to him!!! what a fucking HEINOUS contribution to his anxiety getting worse while also feeling so isolated because even if hayden and jackie are equally PISSED and still invite you over when it's just y'all and you KNOW the food is safe. what the fuck are you even supposed to do here?
you are once again the kid alone at the allergy table, and this time it's because everyone else (it feels like) put you there on purpose.
also adding to this is that i know hayden would be fucking LIVID about this and ready to square the FUCK up with an asshole. like it's enough that they fucked with shane, but they also did it in HAYDEN'S house. where he has tried for years to make shane feel comfortable. he invited everyone into his home and they hurt his best friend, who has priority in being here over everyone as far as he's concerned.
and stuff with jj is SO complicated with the ilya of it all, but jj is shane's friend and i don't think?? was bad about him coming out?? (just being with ilya and not telling jj about that??) (if i remember correctly??) so we also have jj now angry on shane's behalf. and yeah, maybe he might be hurt that shane didn't tell him, but your friend having to go to the hospital has a way of kind of lining priorities up.
which means we now have blatant dividing lines down this team of who is falling on which side in a way that maybe wasn't even the case when it was about shane being gay. because this is a tangible and real thing that someone has used to hurt shane *could* use to hurt shane again. (and again! don't know exactly who it was!) and like it is NOT shane's fault. but i 100% see him feeling like it's his fault (and maybe even hearing that it's his fault from other people because well cap isn't keeping the team together now, is he?)
also thinking of the awful moment when Shane realises he's having a reaction and it's a bad one, this is dangerous, and there's people everywhere and he KNOWS Jackie wouldn't be so careless and she knows what to do but he can't see her right now and he doesn't remember if his jacket is on a hanger in the entry or with the pile in one of the guest rooms and okay, wait, there's an epipen in the kitchen because he's here so often, if he gets that he just needs to find Hayden to call an ambulance for him—meanwhile the guys are watching Shane Hollander start wheezing and turning a very alarming colour and his face is swelling up and he's stumbling past people and crashing into furniture and it's genuinely scary, it's actually terrifying, what the fuck? and the Pikes are dropping everything and zeroing in on him because right, they've always been like this, fucking weird, if Hollzy wasn't gay they'd all think he was fucking Jackie, but right now she's holding his face in her hands like he's made of glass and Pike is forcing him to sit on the floor and he's on the phone and looks like he's about to punch a motherfucker and when Jackie climbs into the ambulance with Hollander the house has been deathly silent for five minutes as everyone realises, whether they know what happened or not, that another line has been crossed and there's no going back
GOD shane in the middle of fucking anaphylaxis having to try and think of "gotta get out of sight gotta get out of sight gotta get out of sight" because the vibe with the team is already Fucking Weird, and he sure as HELL isn't going to have THIS happen in front of them.
but like. you can only hide anaphylaxis so fucking much.
so the worst of it happens out of sight with jackie helping shane into one of the guest rooms on the first floor while hayden goes to grab his jacket for him.
and also the double whammy FURY in the aftermath of now someone has hurt hayden's best friend in his home AND scared the hell out of his children because they had to watch uncle shane get so sick and are now upset because he had to leave the house in an ambulance with mommy. and the distribution of labor in that choice was jackie also being pissed and knowing, "either i'm going in this ambulance, or i'm catching a fucking charge today." and hayden being left to try and work out what the fuck just went down here because he's equally furious but at least has some level of knowing all of the guys here, but now he's trying to get updates on shane, calm the kids down and promise them uncle shane is okay and yeah they can maybe visit him later if he feels up to it, and also work out who the fuck decided they wanted to die today.
and with all of this?? like HELL is the person who did it thinking it was just a mean ass prank going to speak up. because this is now "maybe catching a charge for poisoning cap" territory and also a FURIOUS hayden pike is visibly ready to throw hands. time to keep it to yourself and SKEDADDLE.
GOD 100% I think hayden and jackie would be like YEP THAT'S DONE with hosting, but now??? soooo??? where is hosting going to happen?? ain't going to be shane's house.
and now showing up at someone's house when they host is a fucking STATEMENT, especially if it's someone who is especially notably Not Cool with shane.
and the way shane would still be taking the blame for this!! both from the shitty ones on the team and also feeling like it's his fault!! because the team is literally splintering around him and what the FUCK is he supposed to do about it!!
and the growing tension!! certainly doesn't make him feel LESS like someone is going to fuck with him!!
YOU STOP THAT
TWENTY MINUTE TIMEOUT IN THE SANDBOX D:<
god and the EXTREMELY complex feelings shane would have about the rookie in the aftermath.
like NO of course he doesn't want this kid's career nuked because he was stupid and ended up being a patsy for fucking with shane-
-but also. he did do it.
like yeah the kid hero worshipped him in a way that was a little overwhelming but also?? kind of a relief?? when it felt like so much of the team was icing him out?? and yet when it came down to shane or the rest of the team, the rookie sided with the rest of the team to fuck with him. and he didn't KNOW it was serious, but he also didn't know it WASN'T.
and shane being so fucking angry that he knows he's supposed to forgive the kid here, but why does he ALWAYS have to be the one forgiving? why does he just have to take it on the chin and keep going and keep his head up and don't snap and don't not smile when you're supposed to and don't ever let that mask slip, young man, because it won't take much for those cheers to turn to jeers-
and even when he's trying SO FUCKING HARD why does it feel like he's still fucking FAILING.
vladi you have to STOP speaking because you are putting broken glass in the sandbox 😭😭😭
the idea of shane who is already having A Bad Fucking Time but now feeling SO fucking guilty and using what sway he has to put spin on this through The Power Of Yuna so the kid is never going to get back on montreal obviously, but A Team will take him because he IS a good player and shane issued a statement to the equivalent of, "I appreciate the pro-active response of my team," and GOD this would fucking suck to have to read over for approval because WHAT fucking response, "but I wanted to clear up a misundestanding of an unfortunate accident blah blah blah" that's as vague as possible but absolves the rookie of any active malice and plays it off as "stupid kid did a thing without realizing it would have consequences, but i get it," which helps the kid out but also makes shane look understanding and gracious and magnanimous. he got positioned as an asshole who came down hard on a rookie for no reason, so this press release does then make it, "hey, misunderstandings happened. i didn't mean for anything to happen here."
but also just. fucks him over further. montreal looks like they were a good team that just got a little overzealous in protecting shane hollander because of COURSE you would do that for shane hollander (and god the irony is thick enough to almost SMOTHER him), and meanwhile: NOTHING IS BETTER. NOTHING IS FIXED. THE VIBES ARE STILL FUCKING RANCID. SHANE STILL CAN'T FUCKING EAT AROUND HIS TEAM BECAUSE MAYBE SAFE BUT MAYBE NOT. ESPECIALLY IF HE'S ALREADY PLAYED IT OFF ONCE AS, "misunderstanding, things happen, that's life." BUT HE'S A GOOD SPORT, EVERYONE. HE'S A TEAM FUCKING PLAYER. HE IS SHANE HOLLANDER, BEST SPORTSMANLIKE CONDUCT OF THEM ALL.
AND HE IS FUCKING DROWNING IN IT.
and making this worse is that the rookie is SO fucking thankful. like his hockey HERO saved his ass here after he was stupid and could have killed him. shane has never been more of a legend to him. and the kid wants to come up to him at every game they play against each other and say thank you again which is. so not fucking helpful. for trying to Repress The Shit Out Of The All Of This. and what is shane supposed to do! tell him to fuck off??? no! can't do that! this rookie was part of a nuke designed to blow shane's life apart, but he didn't mean it and shane is SUCH a good fucking sport and that's hockey and if you're just good enough and gracious enough and work hard enough, then everyone will let you have a place, right?
right?
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That yearning look he has speaks volumes oh he loves that boy dearly
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Ilya Rozanov will be the world's first male top to get pregnant from topping his husband
I know he would find a way
trans shane is so real to me that he's too real and I know he would for sure be an egg uncracked for a long time and he'd play in the pwhl and he'd still be the best and he'd be obsessed with/hate ilya rozanov because he knows he's just as good (maybe even better) but in this world no one is bothering to compare them and maybe he tracks him down at some event because he needs to tell him "im better than you, you asshole" and. well. hollander isnt ilya's usual type for girls but there's something about her and they end up getting each other off and exchanging numbers and meeting when they are in the same cities and shane does NOT want people to know but he isnt really sure why but ilya is fine with that it's just casual sex. except ilya started watching hollander's games and she really is good maybe actually better than him and maybe he's thinking about her a bit too much and. and then they meet up for the fifth or sixth time and ilya is sort of obsessed at this point and really wants them to actually fuck but hollander sort of freaks out stuttering panicking blushing then finally admits he only wants to do that if it's in his ass and ilya isnt sure what possesses him to say well that's okay ive done that with guys so I can make it good for you and shane is all the sudden very interested in the fact that ilya likes guys and he isnt sure why it makes his stomach twist up with excitement and arousal like what is wrong with him but ilya has this thinking look on his face and then says "yes. I like pretty people, pretty girls," he lifts his hand up to cup shane's face, "but also pretty boys" and oh does shane want to be his pretty boy. And then he is a good boy and a pretty boy and my boy for ilya from then on but he's not that for anyone else for a long time. Even after he comes out i think he doesn't medically transition for a while so he can keep playing and it sucks and him and ilya are fucking and hiding it through all this too and it makes it even harder for shane (unfortunately) because he is realizing he is in love with ilya and that transitioning and coming out is what has now made it so hard for them to be together without hurting ilya's career and making it impossible for him to go home but they love each other ilya loves him so much and they finally tell each other ilya still tells him first and he still takes a trade to a Canadian team because it isn't safe for shane in the US and they live happily ever fucking after
hairstyling and freckle-counting🐥
SHANEWEEK | DAY 3: FAVORITE QUOTE
➳ JOKING AROUND WITH HAYDEN (EPISODE 2)
go papa!🐤🐤
gimme kiss 😙
hollanov and baby🐣
ilya: let's make a deal. if you win tonight, i will blow you, fuck you, whatever you want
shane: and if you win?
ilya: *plants a i will get to have you again; to hold you, to touch you, to kiss you, to be with you. feel your body against mine. feel your breath on my skin. have your hands on me, your mouth on me. i will finally have you in my arms and bed again and be able to do everything i have wanted but couldn't do to you for the last six months. i will have won either way. i'll finally have you again kiss on him*
ilya: good luck tonight
