Whatever you are, be a good one.

Sam (they/them) | BG3 brainrot | disabled queer writer | avatar by @minui8 | writing requests open 💙ko-fi💙 💙AO3💙

[gewhanaa]

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[boyfloral]

Ilya Rozanov will be the world's first male top to get pregnant from topping his husband

[gewhanaa]

I know he would find a way

[mxhenriksen]

trans shane is so real to me that he's too real and I know he would for sure be an egg uncracked for a long time and he'd play in the pwhl and he'd still be the best and he'd be obsessed with/hate ilya rozanov because he knows he's just as good (maybe even better) but in this world no one is bothering to compare them and maybe he tracks him down at some event because he needs to tell him "im better than you, you asshole" and. well. hollander isnt ilya's usual type for girls but there's something about her and they end up getting each other off and exchanging numbers and meeting when they are in the same cities and shane does NOT want people to know but he isnt really sure why but ilya is fine with that it's just casual sex. except ilya started watching hollander's games and she really is good maybe actually better than him and maybe he's thinking about her a bit too much and. and then they meet up for the fifth or sixth time and ilya is sort of obsessed at this point and really wants them to actually fuck but hollander sort of freaks out stuttering panicking blushing then finally admits he only wants to do that if it's in his ass and ilya isnt sure what possesses him to say well that's okay ive done that with guys so I can make it good for you and shane is all the sudden very interested in the fact that ilya likes guys and he isnt sure why it makes his stomach twist up with excitement and arousal like what is wrong with him but ilya has this thinking look on his face and then says "yes. I like pretty people, pretty girls," he lifts his hand up to cup shane's face, "but also pretty boys" and oh does shane want to be his pretty boy. And then he is a good boy and a pretty boy and my boy for ilya from then on but he's not that for anyone else for a long time. Even after he comes out i think he doesn't medically transition for a while so he can keep playing and it sucks and him and ilya are fucking and hiding it through all this too and it makes it even harder for shane (unfortunately) because he is realizing he is in love with ilya and that transitioning and coming out is what has now made it so hard for them to be together without hurting ilya's career and making it impossible for him to go home but they love each other ilya loves him so much and they finally tell each other ilya still tells him first and he still takes a trade to a Canadian team because it isn't safe for shane in the US and they live happily ever fucking after

[medrawawi]

hairstyling and freckle-counting🐥

[trueplainhearts]

SHANEWEEK | DAY 3: FAVORITE QUOTE

➳ JOKING AROUND WITH HAYDEN (EPISODE 2)

[medrawawi]

go papa!🐤🐤

inspiration from this cutieful connor storrie😗

[medrawawi]

gimme kiss 😙

[medrawawi]

hollanov and baby🐣

[shanehollandered]

ilya: let's make a deal. if you win tonight, i will blow you, fuck you, whatever you want

shane: and if you win?

ilya: *plants a i will get to have you again; to hold you, to touch you, to kiss you, to be with you. feel your body against mine. feel your breath on my skin. have your hands on me, your mouth on me. i will finally have you in my arms and bed again and be able to do everything i have wanted but couldn't do to you for the last six months. i will have won either way. i'll finally have you again kiss on him*

ilya: good luck tonight

[medrawawi]

at waiting room 🐤🐤

[medrawawi]

❤️❤️!!

[medrawawi]

papa bear and bear cub (and a land leopard)

[shanehollandered]

listen in my head, shane has a sensitive gag reflex the first time he hooks up with ilya. it's his first ever blowjob, he's never done it before, and he can't actually take ilya deep. he's heard about deepthroating from teammates when they talk about their sexual experiences around him and thinks they're exaggerating. none of the girls that have sucked him off have deepthroated him. but then ilya does it to him and shane’s toes are curling when he feels ilya’s throat flex around the head of his cock, and yeah, not an exaggeration.

and shane doesn't really think that there will be a follow up to this, right, so he doesn't dwell on it. but then ilya gives him his room number at the asg, and THEN they swap phone numbers and plan their first hookup and shane—shane now has a goal. because he needs to be good at everything, including sucking dick.

so he starts training himself out of his gag reflex, at first with his fingers, then (and he will take this to his grave) with phallic shaped fruits and vegetables, and eventually he gets a dildo that he thinks is about ilya’s size.

and by the time he gives ilya his next blowjob, he's defeated his gag reflex and lets his cock slip into his throat, and oh, THAT is a heady sensation that he'll have to do again and again and again.

and ilya is on the other side, howling, crying, clawing at the door wondering who the fuck taught shane how to deepthroat and how many dicks shane has sucked since, how many people have seen him like this, on his knees, between their legs, eyes fluttering, and he's having an internal crisis that would put any pubescent teenager to shame.

[medrawawi]

📖...🐤

[shanehollandered]

thinking about ilya who ignored his brother’s calls for weeks and weeks and weeks until he’s had enough, finally takes the call, after that heady rush he gets from playing against shane, and alexei tells him their father is dead.

and even before ilya steps into his brother’s orbit in moscow, all he hears ringing in his head is he is dead, ilya, our father is dead. and you weren’t here. you weren’t with him when he died. you could’ve been if you’d fucking picked up your phone. but you didn’t and now he’s dead. you haven’t even seen him in almost a year. but he’s called you often, more often than ever before, and he always asked for you, he remembered you, he didn’t remember alexei, he didn’t remember polina, he remembered you, and you weren’t there when he died.

and he hears the same from alexei, hears you selfish piece of shit, big shot hockey player too good for his family, can’t even be here to take care of his dying father. why weren’t you here? hockey? you’re always looking for excuses, ilya.

reads and hears the same thing in the news: ilya rozanov absent for his father’s death. he didn’t care enough to come be by his dying father’s side. left the family burdened with it. he did not honour his father. what an ungrateful son. how arrogant. put hockey over family.

and he sinks into it, into all these terrible things people are saying about him, and he thinks, yes, this is me, this is who i am, an ungrateful son who abandoned his sick and dying father, arrogant, i didn’t want to talk to my brother so much i forgot about my dying father, i ignored i have a dying father, i put it off for so long and now—

and then his phone flashes with a missed call from shane—a missed call, they don’t do that, they don’t call each other, but shane did, shane called, and something fucking comes undone in him. it’s big. enormous. it unspools quicker and quicker and he doesn’t know how long he can keep it in. but he’s calling shane back, and shane says sorry when he hears about his father’a death. he says sorry and you should take more time and i want to help, and ilya thinks that maybe what everyone is saying about him isn’t true, and maybe for the first time, he really believes that.

[shanesloverboy]

Captains and their alternates

[literary-claustrophobia]

As soon as Shane realized he was gay, that mf Locked In. He said, we need to get this relationship Sorted, hired a stylist, and showed up to All Stars weekend ready to lock down the best dicking he had ever gotten in his life. And it worked.